there's no weird to think that this is
gonna be the last video that I upload in
the entire decade the last video that I
am recording this decade is this very
one right now that is a weird thought
because stuff goes by and as time passes
everything we we sit down and we're like
oh it's the end of a decade like that's
such a big thing and in in a lot of ways
it is but in other terms it means
[ __ ] nothing just because the decade
is ending like it's too late you wake up
tomorrow and it'll be the exact same
thing but there's a lot of psychological
stuff that comes with the ending of a
year every single year and the ending of
a decade isn't even bigger thing because
we put these limits and these boundaries
and these priorities and these
objectives on ourselves to keep
ourselves going to give ourselves
purpose to give ourselves Drive and
motivation to figure out what we want to
do next what we want to leave behind and
what we want to change but as we leave
2019 as we leave the decades we hope
that what we've done is something of
worth something of value something we
can look back upon fondly and do even
better the next time around it's it's a
good reset switch and I'm really leaning
into that this time because 2019 was was
a pretty good year for me it was very
up-and-down but I think at the end of it
I have a net positive gain that being
said there are some things that happened
in 2019 that I am extremely proud of and
really enjoyed and I want to go over
those I want to do a look back on 2019
because I do this every year
that most youtubers do they do with a
recap of 2019 but this is also a recap
of kind of the decade as well so it's
probably gonna get a little long-winded
grab some snacks pull up a chair get
your exercise balls I don't know what
you're gonna do watch this in the
[ __ ] past for all I care just don't
drown yourself I made up a little list
for myself because I'm terrible at
remembering things and list making and
organization is something that I want to
get better at going into 2020 but let's
go down through some of the things that
happened on the channel some of the
series we've had on the channel this
year are resi to my favorite personal
favorite game
of 2019 it was phenomenal I really
enjoyed it it's it's very I hate saying
this it's very videogame II it has some
like really Arkady elements to it that
really made it fun to come back and play
consistently and constantly and I had so
much fun doing it and I'm glad you guys
enjoyed it as well
we had death stranding very divisive
game that came out this year I I loved
it I thought it was great but the series
itself I had a great time playing it was
a nice just kind of like shut off your
brain for some times and just chat and
hang out candy came and I'm really glad
you guys like that as well we had
minecraft of course can't believe it
took me until 2019 to play Minecraft
properly for the first time and I
[ __ ] loved it
it was so much fun it was just a sandbox
here go create whatever you want I'm not
I'm not the most creative person in the
world I don't look at like a pile of
Legos and go oh I could build this my
brain just shuts off when it gets too
much stimulus when it gets too much
input it shuts down and my creative side
kind of turns off because there's too
much going on and just yeah but
minecraft was a great source of
creativity for me I'm so glad that I was
able to build a castle and my own little
Ireland and come up with fun little
narratives and names and locations and
all that kind of stuff and I liked the
series a lot made kindergarten to
gangbuster as well got to bust out the
voice-acting gotta have fun with that I
really liked that we had meme time
became a really big thing at the channel
this year which I know not everyone is
into the meme stuff and everyone just
wants their video games all the time
because that's what I'm known for
but I like branching out I like doing
different things and meantime seemed
like a good way of doing that because a
lot of other people were doing meme
series and I really wanted to interact
with the community more and that it just
seems like a really great crossing
crossroads for a lot of different things
and it allowed me to just kind of [ __ ]
around and improv a couple of jokes and
the same with the Funniest Home Videos
kind of stuff I like that because that's
a different form of content and I I like
changing it up I like trying out new
things that they're not crazy unique or
anything like that but it's something
that keeps recording fun for me and if I
don't keep it fun for myself I'm just
I'm not gonna enjoy doing it anymore so
that's those kinds of series are the
things that have kept me going
we had nostalgia week capping off the
year which was so [ __ ] fun I had so
much fun going back I can see in all
these old games and it was a really
great sort of mental exercise as well
and part of me wanted to recreate what
it was in the heyday and do the same
kinds of things and the summer that bled
through but I think it was nice going
back and playing them as me now as Sean
in 2019
hindsight's 2020 and that's the year
we're going into get ready for a lot of
those [ __ ] jokes can't wait isn't it
weird how tomorrow's video I haven't
seen you guys in a whole decade Oh chase
the chase video came out this year and
it's one of those videos that I'm really
really proud of if you look at it you're
like oh four minute video is like this
doesn't seem that hard or anything but
there's a lot note that went in behind
that kind of video not just the video
itself but the the lore and everything
that's being built up on the channel for
years now attest my it's been like three
years since like anti stuff or ego stuff
or any of that kind of stuff happened if
you have no idea what I'm talking about
then you're gonna be completely lost for
what I'm saying but we've had these
characters on the channel that have kind
of sprouted up out of nowhere from the
community and I've taken them and fully
embraced them and tried to turn them
into something so much more and that
again has been another really great
crossroads for me because I've always
really been in it been into video games
are my my number one passion in life
I [ __ ] love them I if I'm not
recording video games and doing them
from my job I'm just playing them in my
spare time I cannot stop thinking about
video games all the time because they're
amazing they're a super great source of
motivation and inspiration and
creativity and just turning off your
brain and oh I love video games so much
they've meant so much to me my entire
life growing up and as a kid they were a
great escape from what was a really
boring shitty life and just would be
able to do more with them these days to
not have to go to a nine-to-five regular
job and then come home and be like I
don't really have time to play games now
to actually be able to fully embrace
them into every facet of my life has
been one of the greatest gifts that I
feel like I've been given in my entire
life and I do not take it for granted at
all
but and the other passion that I have in
life is movies now I'm not I'm not
someone who knows how to make a movie I
will hopefully try I'm not someone who
really knows how to write a script but I
will hopefully try I'm not someone who
knows the ins and outs of all the
details of how movies are made and
stories and all that kind of stuff but I
know what I like and I know what works
and I know what doesn't work and I'd
like to think that I have a pretty good
sense for narrative pacing editing story
structure characters all of that kind of
stuff and anytime I go to the movies I
have a lot to say about different types
of movies and I come out and I kind of
review them with my friends and we kind
of get into conversations about them and
I love doing that so when it comes to
the chase video that was a really happy
marriage of me being able to tap into
this other side of me that I have really
enjoyed for a very long time and I've
had so many ideas for and then getting
to put them out on camera and
collaborate with Tucker on it and really
create something that was very very cool
and unique uploading that video and
waiting for people's reactions I
premiered that video which I've never
premiered anything else on the channel
except unless you count like the live
streams as premieres because they're
scheduled ahead of time but this is
something are premiered and I was so
nervous it's the most nervous I have
ever been in regards to my work and that
sounds silly but I really really was
because it was something that was so
different than what I normally do and I
just really wanted people to like it and
thankfully people really did and were
really into it and I got so many people
like even personal friends said they
watched it and they were like I didn't I
need to know more like what's going on
who's this character and that case stuff
and that's exactly what I wanted this to
set up and start and the chase video is
the start of I mean it started a long
time ago it started back in 2016 but
this is the first time when I've really
tried to fully put a stamp on the
narrative and be like okay here's plot
points this is where the [ __ ] is going
and next year is something that I'm
really I'm gonna sit down and that's a
really big goal of my next year is to
craft the ego verse properly it's been
something that I've been teasing for a
long time I've tapped into it here and
there and I've laid some of the
groundwork and it's
there's a lot of stuff going on in it
and again if you haven't been into this
stuff you've probably missed a whole
[ __ ] ton of stuff so when the chase
video came out you're like what the [ __ ]
is going on who's chase is that a Joe
Joe reference next year I I turned 30
I'm and not only are we ending out this
decade of the 2010 Zehra but going into
2020 is when I start the actual next
phase of my life you have all these
different phases and it comes in 10 year
junks I'm in a really good place
mentally I feel like I'm ready to start
this next phase and really start
discovering who I really am what my
voice is and just where it's all going
I'm not as insecure as I once was I'm
not as worried as I once was I'm not as
anxious as I once was so I think this is
a really good turning point for me
personally to be able to do more
confidently and not really worry about
what's going on in the background and I
get to share it all with you as well and
bring you all along and I think that we
can craft something really truly special
ooh fun fun fact about that and it
actually ties into the next thing that I
want to talk about is that after the
chase video went up okay this is gonna
this is gonna sound like I'm trying to
brag or I think I promise you it's not
this is just something that's really
cool that happened that I lost my
[ __ ] fanboy mind over after the chase
video went up I was so relieved after
being so nervous that people wouldn't
like it or would like it or how are they
gonna react or where's it gonna go and
then all of you loved it I was like okay
thank God and then that night I got a DM
on Twitter from Ryan Reynolds himself
saying that I was an amazing actor and I
[ __ ] lost my mind he's one of the
people that I look up to most in the
world and really just enjoy everything
that they do and highly respect and
really think they're at the top of their
game when it comes to just being a
genuine person and to hear that from him
meant so [ __ ] much to me and it like
brought tears to my eyes and everything
I I don't know how to describe it it was
a really great feeling again tying in to
the other stuff that happened this year
was that I got to do a lot of the
celebrity interviews which have been so
much fun to do it's so outside my
comfort zone it's so completely
different than what I do normally but
it's been such a great way of
interacting with this movie world
they love so much already my main goal
for these those interviews and some of
the entry other interviews I've done
this year is to humanize things that's
why I did my tour the story behind the
tour is was about humanizing what it is
to be a youtuber and interacting with
the humanized elements of an audience
instead of everyone just being one giant
number and treating them as statistics
doing the interviews that like Aaron
Matt Mercer and Troy Baker was all about
having a human conversation not asking
just about work not asking just about
where you grew up and things like that
those questions come in naturally but
it's about humanizing them to people I
wanted to get in and ask some different
types of questions I didn't want to sure
you have to sit in and you have to ask
the general questions about the movie
because you're technically there to
promote the movie on your channel
that's the like give-and-take of it all
but at the same time I like asking about
them because I remember to specific
interviews one was with Ryan Reynolds
again and another one was with Chris
Evans and they talked about anxiety and
fears and worries and when you see
people like this you tend to think they
have no fear they have no worry they
have no anxiety because they're at the
top of their game Chris Evans is [ __ ]
Captain America and Ryan Reynolds is
Deadpool and the rock is the rock I I
look at them that way and then some
people said the exact same thing to me
about getting up on stage and doing a
show and doing YouTube and everything
and that was the impetus for the show
was because of conversations like that
and I'm like no I have no idea what I'm
doing I just yell all the time and have
fun and hope that people watch and I am
riddled with worries and anxiety and
fears all the [ __ ] times so doing the
interviews then this all sounds very
[ __ ] high and mighty and high horse
and everything but I promise that's not
the reason for doing them i I just
really like
conversation I like how people tick I
like how they work I like hearing just
more about them as people so doing that
was a great way of crossing that path
too with movies and that kind of
conversational aspect that I really like
and humanizing them and asking them
about their worries and their anxieties
and what they do to unwind and getting
to know them more as people rather than
just them as movie stars and I know a
lot of that can seem like gloating and
like lording it over your heads be like
oh great
I am I promise that's not what I'm
trying to do it's hard talk about these
things without making it seem like
you're bragging it's just been a really
cool thing to be able to do and I feel
very very fortunate that I do get to do
it and I just wanted to show that
gratitude and appreciation for it and
hopefully there's some information in
there and some sort of entertainment in
them that you guys get something out of
it as well and it's not just all about
me getting to meet these cool people but
going from that then into the next thing
I want to talk about with the the Ryan
Reynolds stuff is that I get to be in
[ __ ] free guy next year the movie
that Ryan Reynolds and Shawn Levy are
doing and Joe carries in a two who are
also [ __ ] love that movies coming out
next year I think in July and a lot of
you have seen the trailer by now but I'm
gonna be in the movie in some capacity
which is absolutely mind-blowing that
again I love the movie world and I love
seeing how things work in getting
involved in and just it's so cool I love
stories I love worlds I love like
characters again now trying to show off
it's just really [ __ ] cool I've
talked a lot about cool [ __ ] that's been
going on and cool series and stuff I've
uploaded and everything but the thing
that I am most proud of this year is all
of the charity efforts that we've been
doing I set out last year to do a
charity stream every month I didn't get
to do it because I was touring at the
same time I went to LA for three months
I was going through a lot last year more
than I let on online because again I had
to figure that [ __ ] out for myself in
totality through this year through this
year alone we raised 1.6 million dollars
which is no small amount of money that
is a [ __ ] ton of money to be able to
raise at all but to be able to raise it
for so many different great causes has
been the highlight of my entire year
since January of last year so we did
what 18 streams then total we raised 2.8
million dollars we got very very close
to 3 million raised since last year and
that's all through the live streams
through the pins through all the merch
all year round all of the merch this
year I haven't made a penny off all of
it has gone to all of the different
charity events that we've been doing in
December alone just gone in this month
alone the stream we just did was our
craziest stream ever by hitting three
hundred and fifty four thousand dollars
in seven hours I think which is also
absolutely bananas to be able to sit
down like all this other stuff is great
all this other stuff that I've talked
about is wonderful and everything but to
be able to give something back in the
middle of all of this other crazy stuff
that's going on has been my proudest
accomplishment and the thing that I've
been most into all year long and
probably in the entire decade I vividly
remember what it was like to start off
doing YouTube and to have nothing I was
living on benefits from the government I
didn't want to work I didn't have
anything going for me all I had was like
my PC and my games when stuff really
started to take off I felt so
unbelievably fortunate but also that I
didn't deserve any of it but all of the
time doing youtube I I've always wanted
to give back and do more with what we
have here that I felt like the world had
given me so much at a point and it kept
showering me with like all of this
praise and being able to do YouTube me
up to play video games is my job and
everything I was like okay what's the
[ __ ] catch stop so I always wanted to
give back and I think these charity
efforts have been a great way of doing
that because again I've gotten so much
from you guys and the world and been
very very fortunate in what I do that I
wanted to I want to give back in some
capacity and try and leave the world a
good place and put some sort of a stamp
on things and really try and make some
efforts towards I keep saying it in the
streams that we may not be able to
change the world as a whole the world as
a whole has no idea the amount of
charity efforts and money we've raised
this year but that does not mean that
you shouldn't try that we have this
small slice of the internet for
ourselves we have the small slice of the
world for ourselves here with this
audience listening right now we can do
more with it and I've always felt that
way and until last year I really kicked
my ass to just get into gear and
actually do it and I've tried to pick
some organizations that really align
with some of my core beliefs we've done
some suicide prevention charities we've
done some mental health charities we've
done some disability charities for
people who are sick in hospitals and
given them the ability to game while
going through something difficult
because again video games meant a lot to
me growing up and I was a fully
able-bodied person so to be able to give
that gift to somebody who's going
through something far more difficult
than I ever did is amazing and I've gone
and I've seen some of the hospitals that
and just seeing like the amount of
really great work that people there are
doing we've done some stuff with
make-a-wish and I've met so many
make-a-wish kids at this point who tell
you their story and it really it really
opens up your mind and broadens it to
the greater world and the afflictions
that people are going through and what's
really going on out there and I I really
couldn't like to hurt a shoulder to that
stuff anymore because so many people are
going through so much and I really just
wanted to help out any way that I
possibly could but the real heroes when
it comes that the charity stuff is all
of you guys because I sit and I try and
like entertain or I try and bring a
focal point to this thing every month
this charity and whatever's going on but
in in reality I'm just sitting there
hoping that people are watching and
hoping that they're listening and trying
to encourage people to do a good thing
but you guys are the ones who have been
doing the actual good thing you've been
the ones donating the money that 2.8
million dollars the majority of that is
all of you guys if people really want to
do a good thing they just need to have
some sort of reason or a voice or a
point of focus to really do it and I'm
so glad that we were able to do that and
I want to continue doing stuff like that
next year I don't think I'll do one
every month and the YouTube community in
general have raised this year has been
nothing short of a [ __ ] miracle the
amount of money that has been raised for
charity this year is [ __ ] mental and
I'm so ironically so proud of the you
tube community for that and I really
feel like the YouTube community should
get the recognition that it deserves for
the amount of good that it does because
a lot of people look at YouTube and say
Lego you have the [ __ ] heads of the
world and the doing all of this stuff
for narcissism and for their own
personal gain and selling merch and like
swindling kids and being con artists and
all that stuff that stuff does exist but
in the grand scheme of YouTube that is
such a small sliver it's just a very
loud minority of the YouTube community
but the amount of good that youtubers
and YouTube itself does for people is
outstanding and that's why I'm very
proud to be able to do this as my job
because the amount of good you can do
with it and the amount of responsibility
that's on you and what you like the
potential fir'd is bananas anyway I'm
rambling but I'm really really damn
proud of all of the amazing charity
efforts that you guys did this year and
helped me with so thank you honestly
just from the bottom of my heart it's
been amazing to see and it really it
made me proud to be a youtuber it made
me proud to do this and have this
community and just I don't know it's
hard to put into words because it's so
surreal but just honestly thank you very
very much so what are the goals for 2020
what's the new year's resolution I don't
think I have a resolution this year
because I realized that putting one
resolution on myself every year is very
limiting I I can do so much more and I
don't think that I should have one core
belief for the entire year because let's
face it a year is a long time stuff
changes day to day month on month you're
gonna be in a different headspace all
the time so next year what I want to do
is to just try more to to be more
creative I want to try to craft
something more creative personally and
just do something that I can really put
my stamp on be super [ __ ] proud of it
really just kind of blow the lid off
what people think of me and what I am
potentially able to do I feel like I
have so much more to give creatively and
so much more to
open up in my heads that I really just
have not tapped into at all yet in
regards to work ethic itself I really
not only want to work harder but work
smarter to really organize my time
better that's the other thing that I
want to do I need to organize my time
better and be more creative within those
hours that I craft myself I really let a
lot of stuff slide my organizational
skills in regards to my videos my
organizational skills in regards to my
like personal life some of the rooms in
my house are a [ __ ] mess and I kind
of just leave it there because I need to
get a video done I've let myself like
health-wise deteriorate a lot in this
latter half of this year I'm probably
the heaviest weight why is that I've
been my tinnitus flared up and is
[ __ ] kicking my ass every single day
overall get myself back into like I'm
not I'm not sad about it I'm not upset
about it I'm not in a bad place mentally
because of it but I can't be in a better
place I think with not that much more
effort I'm good at getting my videos
done but all my other time management
suffers for it I am very I don't know
what's the what's the thing I'm looking
for whenever things have to be organized
so well it's overbearing on me and I
just turn all of it off and I just
organize nothing so I want to get a
little better at that and just I I need
to if I want to do the projects that I
want to do next year if I really want to
write this ego thing and really make it
something that I'm truly proud of and if
it turns out the way I wanted to it's
gonna take a lot of time and effort and
hard graft to get that done and to a
place that's worth showing so I really
need to take the time and focus I thing
I've realized about turning 30 is that
it's it's easier to know who I am first
be more confident in Who I am which in
turn leads to being able to say no to a
lot more I don't want to be buried by
audience pressure either because I not
to like [ __ ] on the audience or anything
cuz I just sang your praises about the
charity stuff 99.9% of you are
absolutely amazing will watch all the
stuff I upload and are super supportive
and it's awesome it's great it's the
best thing in the world because I can
just do whatever I want and people are
there like yeah good on you but there's
a small group of any audience that's
large that are just kind of like a
Wurm in the back of my head and for so
long I've let that worm kind of eat up
my brain Apple and really just take up
residence and really let it dictate how
I'm doing a lot of things so if you've
ever seen me really get bummed out on
what I'm doing or lose energy or really
just not be in the mood a lot of it is
probably because of that because I'm too
much of a people pleaser and I really
want people to like me I I don't know
something clicked this year where I'm
like I don't I don't care that much
anymore cuz in my head it was like I
think going to therapy helps a lot I
think in my head it was if I if I don't
care about placing people in my audience
all the time that means I'm gonna make
bad videos or something it was a really
weird disconnect and then as soon as I
realized that I'm like ah that's not how
it is at all I really want to get better
at just like pulling the lid off and
just being like what what is in here
what what can we do sure gaming is the
main thing that I do but it shouldn't be
the only thing that I do that's so
boring and I fight so many shitty games
this year just because oh I need to play
video games it's like nah [ __ ] that man
play do whatever you want make whatever
types of videos you want if so your
audience really care about you and
really want to be there for you and
follow along
they will I'm not gonna stop doing games
that's not what I'm saying at all either
I just feel like there's so much more
fun stuff that we can be doing and then
have games as like an extra fun thing in
the week as well so let's just I don't
know again creative side let's let's
explore that a little bit let's see what
we can do let's just have a really
[ __ ] fun 2020 let's go into that and
just knock it out of the park and not
have any sort of limits and boundaries
on ourselves and what we can do and what
we can make and it goes for you guys as
well like make art write stories do fan
fiction make gif edits make video edits
do whatever the [ __ ] you want just have
fun with it and even if no one looks at
it and even if nobody watches it who
gives a [ __ ] just make it for yourself
and have fun with it that's that's what
I want to do I want to make cool [ __ ] as
I keep saying I've done this for seven
years I've ridden the I've ridden the
high slope I've had my moment in the Sun
where the channel was really [ __ ]
popping off and everyone's talking about
it it was great numbers were huge but I
can't be chasing that
Golden Goose all the time sometimes you
need to like like I keep saying climb
another mountain figure out what else
you can do
you don't just climb Everest and then go
back home and be like I did that let's
give up him another mountain so you see
what else is out there for you there's
lots of mountains to climb
anyway this got very rambley and very
all over the place and I have no idea if
it's a [ __ ] cohesive video at all but
that was my 2019 the decade is wrapping
up I am so ready for the next decade and
not in any sort of like [ __ ] the last
decade I hated let's go on to the next
one already because for me this is the
best decade of my life this has been
without a doubt the best 10 years I have
ever existed on this earth and I really
want to remember the [ __ ] great
things that have happened I started my
youtube channel this year or this year
this decade I started this year I'm
doing very well for myself I started my
channel this year or this decade [ __ ]
like every one of you who are watching
this video only found out about me or
even know me because of this decade all
the stuff that I have right now in my
life everything in this room the house
that I'm in the people that I know the
friends that I have are all because of
this exact decade it's so bizarre to
think about so there is no way that I
could say that this has been a bad
decade this is a [ __ ] 20 out of 10
decade for me it's been phenomenal and
I'm so grateful for it I've so much
energy and life and love and positivity
to give that I'm just ready to hug every
[ __ ] person in the world and have fun
I've dwelled in the last like two years
stuff started to get a little too like
like this year alone I know I said I'm
gonna end the video but I'm gonna drop
some more on you because if you're
[ __ ] here you're here I this year is
the most business II I have ever thought
about doing my YouTube channel and I
hate it that started this process of
thinking about numbers and metrics and
analytics and titles and thumbnails and
descriptions and all this [ __ ] that I
didn't really think about that much
before because I was just having fun
with it and it didn't matter and I don't
like that I've started to go down that
road this year there's nothing wrong
with looking at metrics to make sure
that your channel is healthy healthy and
happy and going in a good direction it's
a very good way of keeping things going
but
you're creating for the metrics you're
not creating for fun and that was the
divide that I started to realize what's
happening to me this year and I don't
like that I don't want to be that so
2020 will be an interesting year I'm
very very excited to see what happens
I'm excited to turn 30 I don't know it's
I have this like really great like
coming out of the water feeling where
I'm like I'm finally ready to just
breathe and run I don't know it's hard
to describe and I have no idea of what
the turning point was for me but I'm
just so ready anyway that does it thank
you guys so much for watching this if
you watched the whole thing you're an
absolute trooper i rambled a lot but
that's what these videos are for who
cares it's free content why would you
[ __ ] complain about it if you want to
complain about free content that
youtubers are uploading on the internet
just go somewhere else not to say you
can't criticize if someone does
something bad but at the same time I see
so many people criticize such
inconsequential content on YouTube not
even mine like everybody's and I'm like
god you're sitting at home not doing
anything else and you you're the one who
spent your time watching this I talking
about I don't know anyway thank you guys
so much for watching just I hope that
you had a fantastic holiday season if
you don't celebrate Christmas that's
absolutely fine the Christmas time of
year is just a great time anyway because
everyone's in a much better mood
everyone's ready to be cozy nice but I
really hope that you had a great year I
and if you didn't I am very sorry to
hear that and I hope that next year
treats you better and if it doesn't then
try for the next year and if that
doesn't keep on trying that's the most
important part let the carrots fall
where the air pick them up and carry on
as long as you keep trying and keep
fighting and keep moving that's the
important part that means you're trying
your best and no one can ask better of
you I also hope that you have a really
great New Year's please take care of
yourselves
be safe drink responsibly don't drink
and drive all of that good stuff do not
do if you want to do some drugs alright
I guess this is going down a dark path
just be safe please with a love of God
we see so many stories every year of
people going overboard on New Year's
because they want to go into the next
year a better person so they feel like
they have to do a shitty thing at the
end of the year
to contrast it and just get it out of
the system just be responsible if you're
celebrating on your own or that you have
great time anyway being on your own does
not mean is not a bad thing I spent a
Christmas on my own two years ago it was
miserable
I felt super depressed but I came out of
it clearer it had a very good purpose
because I needed to go through that and
people need friction people need a
struggle life is about struggles that
put overcoming them life is blood born
can you believe we got the best game
ever this decade Patrick Shadow of the
Colossus but I play blood-borne a lot
more but yeah I hope that you just had a
good year and if not I hope 2020 is
better and I hope that this decade is a
really great decade for you try some new
stuff test your boundaries test your
limits get outside your box get outside
your comfort zone and just have fun with
it just have a really great decade some
of you are probably coming into your
more formative years this decade and
that is a great time to discover
yourself just go out there and see what
you have to offer the world but anyway
thank you guys so much for watching I'll
see you all in the next decade