I am Jillian. The song I wrote is called "Nothing at all."
This song is sung by a young girl named Mandy who is in her first relationship
with a guy named Noah.
She likes him and has been struggling with the concept of love since her dad left her family.
She doesn't want to get hurt like her mother, so she builds and emotional barrier around
herself.
When Noah realizes Mandy isn't open to love, he moves on.
"Nothing at all " comes right after the breakup as Mandy discovers that the emotional barrier
she built has been very effective and she doesn't feel heartbroken.
This song is kind of the beginning of her journey to become more expressive and find
love.
She was unappealing character to write for, because she is very human.
She has a handful of optimistic reasons for her dilemma, but then she also has this one
unrealistic but terrifying reason that she is not feeling what she feels like she is
supposed to feel, and the entire song and her entire worries all revolve around this
one reason.
I would like to thank everyone, you guys for coming out to hear our songs, and everyone
who organized his weekend because it has been so amazing, and it has been a dream.
Thank you.
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Now you've gone, you've left me shaken, but you didn't break my heart, and maybe that's
because you never had it from the start.
I'm not the type to leap if there's a chance that I could fall.
Who'd rather feel the heartache and pain than feel nothing at all?
You could've been the one I showed the softer side of me, The one to thaw my heart of ice
and stone.
But the dove inside my chest is still locked inside its cage, And so you've gone and left
me here alone.
Maybe I've still got a ways to grow.
Or maybe I just really need to learn to open up.
And maybe there's a someone who will fit me like a glove, but maybe I don't know how to
love.
Just wanna say that I'm not angry, “it's me,” I understand.
I know it's hard to hold a bar of soap.
I'm not your perfect soulmate, and my edges, they are rough.
But I guess I thought that I would be enough.
Maybe I've still got a ways to grow, and maybe I'm just cautious because I don't want to
get hurt.
And maybe there's a someone who will fit me like a glove.
Still, maybe I don't know how to love.
Now you've gone, you've left me shaken, but you didn't break my heart.
And damnit, that's because it wasn't open from the start.
Sometimes I want to leap, just cut the ropes and let me fall.
I'd rather feel the love and the pain than feel nothing at all.
Yes, I'd rather feel the love and all the pain than feel nothing at all.
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