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Yeah, for sure.
Um, came home, we had a conversation, you know?
You know, we started talking about [BLEEP] at [BLEEP]..
She throwing [BLEEP] in my face, you know?
And I was like, OK.
And then I was like, here we go.
It's the real version coming on.
I said, so you've been wanting to say [BLEEP]..
Now it's coming out, you know?
And she started going back and forth.
I got loud.
And she was just, like, you know,
when I spoke my truth the other night when we did the exercise,
you know, she said she was shocked because I
had never told her any of that.
And I'm just like, you know, I've been honest with you.
It just hadn't been comprehended.
You know, that-- that right there felt
like it was just too direct.
And I even said it after.
I was just like, I think I was too direct, you know?
And so when I spoke my truth that night, you know,
I wasn't aware that I had [BLEEP] her.
That wasn't my intention, you know what I'm saying?
I was just being honest 'cause I felt like that's the only way
she did understand.
But then it bites me in the ass, because you
really felt this way.
I had my guys with the meeting.
I mean, I had the guy-- the meeting with the fellows today.
I made a comment.
I said, I don't think she's ready for marriage, you know?
She interprets that I'm trying to take her away
from her friends when clearly, I'm just like there's certain
[BLEEP] you shouldn't do when you're married.
It's it as simple as that.
I don't want my wife going to the [BLEEP] club
every weekend, whether it's for 2 hours.
Go [BLEEP] bowling.
Why that specific scene every [BLEEP] weekend?
And she's like, maybe we're not compatible.
And I'm like, then maybe we just ain't,
you know what I'm saying?
Maybe [BLEEP] just be honest.
I did.
I'm not going to say I don't think,
because I don't want to say what you think.
I feel-- I just feel like I'm just not wanted.
What makes you feel that way?
Anytime I try to have any type of intimacy.
The most passionate we've been was honeymoon.
I keep going back to that, like what was so [BLEEP] different
about the honeymoon then?
And now, we didn't know each other.
We'd sit and talk and tell each other everything.
That's not an emotional intimacy?
No, it's definitely emotional intimacy,
but sometimes we have to get past that.
So 'cause I won't sleep with you, you
don't feel like you're wanted?
It's not that you won't sleep with me.
It's the fact that we don't exchange the same energy,
you know what I'm saying?
I'm attracted to you in many ways, you know?
I just feel like it's not reciprocated, you know?
I have to force you to want to just,
not necessarily be around me, but to just [BLEEP] want me.
If it's a weekend, you know what I'm saying, I get parts of you.
I get a few hours.
But sometimes, I want you the whole weekend.
And in your opinion, that's smothering.
I have friends.
I would like to hang out with them.
That's it.
In my vows, I meant that I wanted you to be free.
But I didn't mean free as in living a single life
while you're married.
I think we just have two different perspectives
of what is a single lifestyle and what's not.
But for you to label me as somebody who's not ready to be
married, that's your opinion.
I just didn't picture marriage to be like this.
I'm sorry.
I didn't.
What did you think marriage is?
I told you, just fun.
Like, us still being able to be ourselves
and do what we typically do, just together like teammates.
I'm not your opposition, Justin.
It's just, we're just different.
(SINGING) I want to say it.
I want to--
(SINGING) Just to feel.