well you know i'd asked you if you were like physically attracted to me and you said no so
physical i don't know right now i just i mean i just i want to get that clarified
yeah if there's no physical attraction that honestly i don't know that we really have a
i mean do you want to try and develop any sort of
relationship past a friendship i would like to try and develop something i mean
we don't know we don't know he comes back to the conversation that we had about attraction
and i know that it takes work he hasn't even given me the chance to potentially build that connection
it's very frustrating for me i mean i think something could grow
we just but then you like took last night for kind of an example it's like 9 30. hey
i'm gonna go hang out with paige it's like great um it's so good catching up with haley and just
talking about life and life our marriages this may have been our performance i know there we go yeah
yeah yeah y'all know what y'all are doing you know we appreciate it yeah i didn't know if you
were coming back or not or whatever and i was kind of waiting up to i didn't know you were
you didn't tell me that i was kind of expecting to at least try to talk a little bit last night
you didn't make it known that you wanted me to come back down or i would have i sent you kind
of like a joking text or whatever around 11 just to kind of give you the end to say hey
gonna be out late or whatever but i can't read your mind yeah i just didn't know yeah
yeah i had no clue what your expectations were because my expectations were as i'm staying at
this apartment to spend time with you and try to get to know you and then you just take off for the
night i was just trying to give you space after the attraction thing i didn't want to like push
any boundaries when you said you were going to be emotionally disconnected again if you would
have told me last night that you wanted to have a conversation 100 would have done that uh you
probably would have been a little combative about it how i i don't what do you mean if i would have
said hey i want to talk you would have said well i'm going to hang out with my friends and then
and then i would have been upset and then you would have said tough that's probably what i love
how you already spun this in your mind of what would happen instead of just telling you that
you wanted to talk you assumed that i would say no and you keep assuming these things and that is
honestly pissing me off now i'm like okay i can't do anything without you
getting upset about it no that's that's how it feels because i did not even know that you were
upset about anything that i did last night i had no idea that's a problem though in itself i guess
of not being in a relationship for so long to be honest with you you're not ready for this
i signed up for this for a reason because i am ready for this it's just i can't just jump in and
automatically be in love with you like that's what i think that you want hold on let me finish let me
finish go ahead you want me to be this person that's just it's automatic and i i'm gonna need
a little bit more time than that like i'm sorry that i'm that way but that's just kind of how i
am because it has been so long since i've been in the relationship this is hard for me
i don't know i feel like you just don't want to go through this process vulnerable to a degree so if
you just want to maybe have a friend at the end of this and be divorced we can keep doing what we're
doing or if you would want to try being vulnerable we might have a chance i don't even obviously
you're not even attracted to me so it's like i don't think you want to but that i don't know
you