Basically, we talked this week about how you're dealing.
You've been dealing with pain, because you're going for surgery.
Can the surgery, rather than it being a symbol of
fear of healing, be actually, part of the plan to go deeper?
Yeah, I remember many, many years ago....
Probably over 20 years ago, I went to "A Course in Miracles" group, and
I was sitting in the group. It was a large group, and
the facilitator was like
saying, "Oh, David, I'm so glad you're here!
We'd love to hear from you, and
you know, I really want to turn the group over to you and everything."
And I'm in this Course group, and
I kept hearing from the Holy Spirit, "Wait!"
And, I'm like, okay, because they're all in the room.
The facilitator's saying, "Take it away,"
and the Holy Spirit kept saying, "Wait!"
And I'm saying, "Thank you, everybody.
I'm glad to be here. I'm going to talk to you about a few things."
But the Spirit's like, "Wait, wait, wait!"
And I didn't know what the waiting was for.
I'm ready to go, and it's like, "Wait, wait, wait!"
Then the door opens, and a woman comes in,
and she's got tears in her eyes.
And this Course study group was
all about what was going to happen next with the woman who came in.
I was like, wait, wait.
And she had just come from the doctor,
and she'd just been diagnosed with a terminal illness.
She's coming to her Course group,
she's got tears in her eyes, and she walks in the door
I could feel the whole energy shift, and Jesus is like,
"Yeah, this is what it's for. This is what the whole meeting's for."
That's what the "wait, wait, wait" was for.
And then she spoke up, and she said,
"I'm a Course student. I've been reading the book,
and it's telling me all problems are in my mind.
And all problems are my thoughts and beliefs,
and I've just come from the doctor,
and he told me I've got so long to live, and I've got a terminal illness.
I can't go home.
I've been preaching to my kids, my husband:
'There is no such thing as external sickness; it's all in the mind.'
And I've just been diagnosed with a terminal illness.
I can't even go home!
I feel too ashamed to walk into my family's house,
because I feel like I'm such a terrible Course in Miracles student."
And she said, so the doctor said,
Well, here's what the doctor said:
That I'm going to have to go through treatments,
and I need to go into the hospital.
I need to schedule a time in the hospital for some surgery.
Everybody just sat in silence as this woman
came into this Course group, and poured it all out.
"Here's what's going on for me," she said.
And then, after she, for ten, fifteen minutes
poured it all out, and everybody was completely quiet,
she looked over at me, and she said,
"Aren't I just giving into the ego
to go in for this surgery
that this doctor told me about?
It goes against all the teachings,
and I've been talking about this stuff for years.
And I feel like a fool!
And I feel embarrassed to even face my husband and my children!"
And I said, "Yes, you are to go to that hospital appointment.
But you can't think of it as going in
for treatment or surgery for an external illness,
because there is no external illness."
You know, the mind was sick,
Jesus says, that thought the body could be sick.
That's His line in the Course:
"The mind was sick that thought the body could be sick."
It's all mental.
But I said, "But, when you go in there,
you are a light worker; you are the Holy Spirit's agent.
You are to go into that hospital,
and you are to bless all the doctors,
all the nurses! (Jason asks, "How is that possible?")
Jesus is just using this situation
of what you believe,
just to go in there and shine the light."
And I said, "You can't think of it
as you going in there as a victim,
as somebody who's done something wrong,
as somebody who doesn't get it,
because how are you going to be the joy of the world?
How are you going to be the light of the world, if you believe that?
So you go into that hospital, and you keep that appointment!
And you shine your light,
and you don't forget the reason that you're there!
Don't forget the purpose:
That you're there because Spirit is counting on you to be used
to allow your body to be used, to be spoken through,
to be smiled through.
Your holy encounters with the receptionists,
with everybody at that hospital, is part of the script.
And you're going to use it for that purpose."
It's almost like you've got a mission, and it's an adventure.
Like, "Okay, Holy Spirit, let's go to San Francisco,
and let's shine the light! Let's shine the light!
It's so beautiful! You've got a purpose!
There's a purpose for it.