- Would you...
Would you ever want to
would you ever think
about getting back together?
That's like a...
- Will ever think about getting back together?
I don't know.
- You know my answer.
- Right now? No.
- I don't know.
- Maybe.
- Yes.
- I would say no.
- No.
- Yeah, no.
- If I'm going to be real,
I would- I would say yeah.
- I would.
- Yes, I would.
- I don't know.
I'd like to think so.
But that's just because I know like I have
I have six to seven years of hindsight
or five to six years of hindsight,
like I know you like the back of my hand.
But I don't know.
I don't know.
- I don't know.
I don't know, because
we have changed a lot. But.
So I don't even know
if we'd be extremely compatible as lovers,
- The things that I
require, and that I know that I deserve.
You are not quite there yet,
and it's going to take you time.
- I told myself that I can't reason
being because, you know,
again, two different lifestyles.
You know, you're doing something that
I won't be able to
handle because of the past
and you know what
you showed me that I can't really
trust you with that, so...
- Okay.
- That's why I wouldn't do it.
- That's fair.
- Just because like... we talked about it,
like I felt like that
chapter has come and gone and it's closed.
- I'm not in the place
to even date right now because I am still
working on myself and
recovering from things.
And
if we ever did date, you know,
we'd have to have a lot of talks,
real talks, transparency
and just realness,
and then we'd be able to answer
that question correctly.
- The reason is because
I don't know where things will go.
Like... like right now,
what I would want to experience
would be different.
- I think I was feeding off the excitement
of getting back together with you
that once things started to settle.
And I realize that.
Are we going to date again?
And I didn't think it was going to work.
And so that disappointment
made it really terrifying,
like you looking at me like that,
because I was like,
I can't lose you all over again.
- Yeah. - Like...
- I just think getting back in the sack
together would be awful.
- You mean like in bed? - Yeah.
- Because what... because we know - Why?
at this point in time,
we've had so many different like
partners and things that we would
have to talk about.
- Oh, okay, yes, I understand.
- And then it'd just be like:
I don't think I want to do this anymore.
- Okay. - Yeah.
- If I were to tell you that I was going to
propose to you, what would you say?
- Mm.
- What would you have said? - I'm not sure.
- Both two questions:
- When we... before I left
the last place that we were at
when I was saying...
when I wanted to move in together
or moved to another place.
Then how would I feel about that?
or how do I feel about knowing that now?
- How you feel about knowing that now?
- If you know that was the intention. - I'm shocked.
I'm floored, I'm confused
and I'm wondering like...
it just makes me question
a lot of things that I thought
I knew or understood,
because you had sort of
said you didn't believe in marriage.
You know, it's partially informed
by your perspective about family.
So you were saying that if you didn't
want to have kids,
you didn't see the point
of getting married.
So I don't know...
I guess I would just be at a loss.
But if you're asking,
would the intended commitment
make me feel more secure
in the relationship and what I have left?
I probably would have stayed longer,
but I'm still not sure that
that would have meant that
we would have lasted.
- That's fair.
- Just 'cause I realized that the toxic person,
you got to see your
own bullshit sometimes.
So once you understand
that you were the toxic person,
everything about you changes.
You move different,
you think differently.
You understand that
it's what you do
that makes the difference,
not how people act around you,
what everybody else is doing.
It's what you're doing
in the time you got it.
So...
- I want my person to be like you
- Yeah. - are what I want.
- Absolutely. - This is what I want.
- Yeah.
And that's not what we had.
- Yeah, you deserve that.
- Yeah, I think so.
- I do, too.
- You know, I still consider you
super important to everything I'm doing.
- Same. - You know what I mean?
I think
if there's a challenge, there is to
not want to always
pick up the phone and be like, hey... - Yes.
- You know, and get your opinion on something.
- Because I might have to send you
to my answering service.
- Don't you screen my calls.
- I would have to date you again to like
show you what I would do differently.
- And that's... - No, that makes sense.
I mean. Yeah.
So are you asking me out?
- Yeah. - Would you go out with me?