Today is the day I have been waiting for
ah I'm so scared
I can't look at it
holy crap!!!
Today is the day I have been waiting for
Well... I have been waiting for this day but also I've been avoiding it
College decisions came out today for one of the schools that I applied to
I was at a dentist's appointment and then I got this email that my application status was updated
and I knew I wanted to record it and I also knew that I didn't want to open it at the dentist office
so I've been waiting for about an hour and a half now
and I'm so excited but also really nervous
I've had about a million different thoughts in my head, million different scenarios in my head
at this point, I don't really have anything going on inside my head
I'm really scared but here we go
I don't want to expect much because I really don't
by the way, the sky is so pretty today
ah I'm so scared
I shouldn't be scared because this is.. this is nothing..!!
it's okay...
oh my gosh I I really...
I'm not ready for this
I never, I didn't know this day would actually come
at least the sky is really pretty right now
I'm just (admiring the sky lol)
this is my view
okay I'm ready
am I ready? I don't think I'll ever be ready so might as well open it, right?
If I click log in, it's going to pop up right?
I don't know what to expect because if I log in... is it going to tell me right away
or am I gonna have to click on something?
oh my gosh, I actually can't do this...
I've been telling myself that it's okay
It's (going to be) okay... It really is okay
my heart is beating so fast
so I applied early decisions to NYU
oh I can't do this
*clicks to log in*
okay
I had to log in and go into my status page
oh my god "click here to view your admissions decision"
I'm expecting the worst
I clicked
It's there. It's literally on my computer screen and I can't look at
Ummmm hi
I got rejected from NYU
and I cried
I bawled my eyes out for like five minutes but I'm okay
I'm over it
screw you, NYU
wow that rhymed
honestly, like NYU was like the perfect school
I love their program
I was really looking forward to it
but apparently, it's not the right school for me
so I'm going to apply to more schools in New York because I really like New York City
I applied early actions to two other schools
and I think the results are gonna come out tomorrow
so I'll film my reactions for those schools too
those were more of my safety schools so I should be getting in
And then... yeah. I think I'm going to apply to like two or three more schools just so I have more choices
I'm okay
I really am okay
I thought I'd be depressed for like a week but whatever
whatever
Yesterday, I checked my NYU's ED (early decision) results
So for NYU, I applied early decisions which means...if I get in, I HAVE to go
I didn't get in as you guys saw...
NYU is a really hard school to get into
I'm sure that school was just not for me
On a positive note, since I'm not binded to a school and now I can apply to more schools,
I have the privilege of like choosing a school that I want to go to instead of having to go to a school I
I'm about to check my results for UIUC which is a school that my sister went to
I applied early to NYU because I wanted higher chance of getting in
and then I applied to two other schools which are more of my Safety schools
just because I focused mainly on my NYU application to make it really good
because that was like the really hard school
and I didn't want to spend an unnecessary amount of time on other schools when if I get into NYU,
I would have to withdraw the applications anyway so
I went with two of the easier schools
like it's not going to be... it's not an easy school but
you know what I'm saying
I'm about to check now
I'm less nervous because I have higher chances of getting into these schools
but after that rejection letter, like I don't feel so safe anymore
oh my gosh I got in!!
That's so exciting!
That's my first acceptance letter!!
okay I need to send a picture to my sister because she's going to be proud
I'm actually really happy like I don't know if I'm going to be going to this school
but they do have a really good business program
my sister is so excited for me
I used to live in Illinois and a lot of my friends applied to this school
so if I do end up going, I'm gonna see a lot of my friends from Illinois
so I'm really excited about that too
like maybe I'll end up going to the school
why do I want to go to this school now??
I mean I applied because I wanted to go but this is really exciting
it's currently 4:50
I'm going to watch Chaemin's Nutcracker performance today
so I need to finish up what I'm doing right now
I'm adding subtitles to the vlog that's about to go up today, hopefully.
and then I'm gonna go out, pick up my friend Sarah
I need to go get gas for my car
I need to go get flowers for Chaemin
um I was in the process of getting ready and then I got an email that
the Chapman University's results are out
so I gotta check right now because I cannot wait
I'm nervousss
yay!! (I got accepted)
I'm actually really excited because Chapman university is in Orange County
and Orange County is beautiful
*reading the acceptance letter*
I'm so happy
oh there's a scholarship letter?
what is this?
oh my gosh
holy crap
WHATTT
I got a scholarship and this is a lot of money
so I opened my Chapman Univer...
I opened my decisions letter and I got in obviously (sorry I'm so annoying in this clip)
but then there was this thing at the bottom that said scholarship letter
and I was like what is this ...
and I clicked on it
and this is what I read...
*reading the scholarship letter*
I think I'm going here!!!!
MOM, I MADE IT!!!
This is embarrassing - editing Youjin
nothing, this is it
I applied to three schools
yes!!
It's business!!
I need to call dad
Bye, he's going to be so happy (ab the scholarship)
I'm about to call my dad now
let's see his reaction
wHy aM I CrYinG
I need to leave but I'm crying!!
Is this a good scholarship?
I'm pretty sure it's a pretty good scholarship
I need to wipe my tears and go get ready
this is my first time crying on camera I like actually crying...
that was unexpected
I really need to go get ready. Bye!!
came back home to drop off my car because we had two cars
I'm now waiting for my friend to come pick me up
we're gonna go to Sonic and I'm so excited cuz I'm hungry
beautiful reminder: Not getting what you want could be a wonderful stroke of luck!
"our last shot together"