One and a half year ago, I had the
idea I had breast cancer
and then I went to a specialist and they found out
that there was breast cancer in both breast
and uh it was a
very rare cancer so
they got in a kind of panic to be, I had to be I
had to be operated uh to be
my both breast, both breast had to be amputated
and um they wanted to do
the operation in 3 weeks
so from the moment I got in
3 weeks later one breast was operated
and because it was a big operation they said
the next one will be in a few weeks and the
and um the problem was I was very,
I knew I was very allergic to a lot
of medication
and they said
we will take care of that, no problem
and then they gave me all kind of pain medication i get
in all anaphylactic shock
all
different problems
appeared so I had to stay in the hospital for a longer time
a much longer time and
um
I got
very, because of the operation didn't really went
well. I got a really thick arm.
It was totally filled with water
ah lymphomia (lymphedema)
and my back and my legs
and I couldn't walk, I had
a lot of pain
I then had the other operation
and they decided not to give me any pain
killer so that was kind of a
challenge
It was also a very big operation
but I got out much better
and but then
I had also problems on
the other side. A friend of mine said
come, go with me to Mallorca to Dr. Joe
and you never know, perhaps the thing
goes away. You feel much better
because I had a lot of problems because of all the medication
I had, I couldn't think, I had
cloudy head
My work, I couldn't do my work
I couldn't
you know that there was a solution for
one part but they other things weren't really
more difficult so my life was difficult I didn't sleep so I got
more tired and
ah
then I went to Dr. Joe in Mallorca and
and it was one big party cause
I think the Spanish make a really nice party
and Dr. Joe too so it was a lot of fun
and um we had the
first walking meditation
and um I decided that I
was leaving my
now just the day before that I put
all my pain medication in the toilet I said, I'm not going to do it
anymore. I hell overnight
It was terrible. I couldn't sleep but
I was in pain the whole night
um I took off
before the walking meditation I took off
all my braces. I was wearing a lot of braces from the
physiotherapist
She said I was not allowed to fly
I just did. I thought Ok
I had those stockings on my legs and my arms
my back and then so I took everything
I said, I'm going to do
this walking meditation. I was really
dedicated
to get in and just do it
and um
It was so funny. I started
and I walked for my life, really
I walked and walked and walked
and it was like I did out a coat of, my coat of
pain, my coat of illness and my coat of, it was (sharp exhale)
it was like a mist going away
and I thought "I can never wear that again:
cause it's my past. It's my old me
and um
that evening
my arm was thin and I was ha
I can wear my dress that it is always tight
I made it differently so I could wear it
ha this is strange what is happening? and I felt good
and I thought ok let's see perhaps tonight
don't sleep because i put
all my medication in the toilet and I have nothing else
so (sharp inhale) and I slept
really wonderful and everything was gone
and I was really wow wow I got
so much energy
then I got the coin for the
healing and I thought hmm
I don't need it anymore. So I went to my
team leader and Manu
Manu said, "no, no, no, no, no
because I still think you think you don't deserve things"
so I think you really need it. You go.
because it's for you, it's not for anybody else
So I went there
and it was eh
it was
so beautiful. It was really...
I was so totally in love with myself and
I was cured and
um, ahm
I still had to go
to do some operations in the
next half year because
uh they didn't make it very nicely so they had to do some
plastic surgery (giggles)
I thought so too so
after that I went home. I meditated
everyday for two hours. I got up, one
hour meditation everyday. In the evening
I did half an hour healing meditation together with
the group
and things were going great
and I was so happy. It was wonderful. Every week
weekend I did with my friends walking meditations
so I was really happy and
everything worked out well and I had the other operation
It worked out well, did the work, did the work in the bed
in the hospital for hours because I was really happy
that I could lay and just meditate
and then I went to Summer holiday
which was really wonderful with my family
forgot to meditate cause it was such a
nice summer.
and we did so many fun things
we love to surf so we went to Spain and
France to surf with the whole family
and um
Since school started for the kids, my work started
for me, for my husband
I forgot to meditate. I didn't do it.
and um I felt hmm
Ok, yeah I have to do it but...
I feel great so why should I but
I already felt that something been different
and um then I had to
have another operation to get it
fixed and then the
doctor said to me, We found something. So
we, we did something wrong with the operation
we left, there was too much tissue
left behind and we saw something
and we need to do, go
it goes to the laboratory
and I was really the most (exhales in exasperation)
I thought, What? What? No.
No way. and then in the two
weeks between the operation and
the information from the laboratory I got
into this negative spin thing and um
I thought oh I
thought everything from the outside would
change me.
and I forgot totally about
everything Dr. Joe said about meditating
about that it's I
can do something different. That my walking
meditation cured me. So I did it myself
with everything Dr. Joe told me, Go into it.
have, be your
person. So I got into a really negative and very
sad way. But I
already registered for Malta for my daughter
cause I wanted my daughter to show
everything about Dr. Joe. She's 20.
and the um
but it was for her. But I was so happy
that I registered
and um and then every time
my friend said, Why aren't you meditating anymore?
No, we go to Malta, no problem
but I, it got worse and worse so I got a lot of
pain back
I couldn't sleep anymore, um
the same pains came back
um the doctors said we think perhaps you have
lymphoma cancer so
I was really, oh my God, everything starts again
and then I came here but I was, here in Malta
and uh
the first day I was really in such a
state that I
I did everything but it wasn't an
automatic system. I didn't get into it.
The second day I didn't get into it.
Then the walking meditation and I thought, Yeah I can do it.
and it didn't work for me
and every time I was holding back
from myself in a way because it was really
difficult and then this beautiful woman
um um made her
statement or her um
she told about how she
um
forgot to meditate and stopped her
doing Dr. Joe's meditations
and she got, it got worse and then ah!
That's...I have to do it.
I have to work for it and I'm going to do it. and so
in the 4 days, it started to resonate with
me and um and
um meditation number 6
really, it caught me totally
I was really into it. i was my future me
and I said, I'm going to nail this
I'm going to really, going to nail this,
so my pain went, for a lot of it and then the healing which was
beautiful and very special
totally different than the other healing but it was
and it was so good because
that was the moment I, that I thought about Manu
that he said you have to deserve this because a lot of woman
women take care of their kids so
they forget themselves
and I'm one of them.and I'm
I'm...I now know
I deserve love and I deserve to do things for myself
and um
but it was already at the end of the week and only
there was just one meditation left for the whole
morning and I was so happy that Dr. Joe said
We're going to do an extra meditation on Sunday morning.
and I was so happy and
I got in totally, I said I have to do it
for 200% now cause and I couldn't breathe
the whole week because I was in so much pain
So I couldn't do any breathing
and I was so frustrated
I went to my team leader and I said, I cannot do it and she's
"Do your best, that's all you can do"
and this morning
uh yeah, I could breathe
and I could do the whole meditation and I was..
my pain is gone and
I have so much energy and
I'm so
happy and grateful
and I am never going to stop doing the work from Dr. Joe
never, ever, ever and uh
because I know
it works and it's
it's very easy to slip into
your old past self, your old uh
uh uh systems, your old patterns
your old
because, you're uh
the people around you still are
the people who they are, so they
trigger the same things in you so I am now
got it all. (laughs)