nicole kidman thought she found true
love with keith urban
no one will ever love you as much as i
do it's very
safe it's very healing but keith wasn't
as perfect as he seemed
i i just went off the rails i get high
when it's sunny
when it's raining three months into our
marriage we had to dig really deep
he checked into rehab this was my third
time in eight years
it was a huge hole in my life where it
was going to always be filled by the
wrong thing it's
terrifying it's always something at the
core
it's never about what it appears to be
about keith urban reveals the secret
pain from his past
it was something that i should have
dealt with i just wasn't ready
and at some point you just have to say
do the work
and if you don't then you live with it
for the rest of your life you either get
this right now or you are never
ever gonna get it right this is your one
shot was it a fairy tale or was it all
in our heads
we we met at this function and i thought
gosh i'd really like to meet her
she walked into the green room i was
like oh there she is there she is
she glided across the room like plucked
up the courage to go introduce myself
and she was very pleasant i didn't know
if i was bothering her i just sort of
said well nice to meet you and i just
walked away and brenda might say i think
she wanted to talk to you i'm like this
me why would she want to talk to me you
know so i went back over and apologized
i
thought she was way out of my league not
in a million years that i think somebody
like that would be interested in me
at all we just started talking and just
really clicked
keith thought nicole was his dream girl
but her heart had been broken
by the biggest movie star in the world
nicole kidman and tom cruise call it
quits amid reports of tom's infidelity
with penelope cruz
i didn't know anything else it was
really my first major relationship and
and that was all i knew was nicole the
love of your life
you're stepping over a line now tom
cruise dating penelope just
months after the split from nicole he's
in a lot of pain and
whole life collapses around you very
difficult
to let anybody else in but keith fell
for nicole
just as her broken heart was healing we
were sitting at this park bench and
i said how's your heart she said it's
open it was not only beautiful because
it said so much about her but it
instantly made me ask myself is my heart
open
is it really open he did everything to
earn nicole's trust
when you went on tour you'd leave a
letter for every
night you're away nicole mary i continue
to be brought to my knees by this love
of ours
knowing that no one has ever or will
ever love you as much as i do
on the surface he seemed like the
perfect man but he was hiding a dark
secret
i was struggling a lot addiction what
was the substance everything
alcohol cocaine predominantly your life
was hugely successful
you won a grammy and you just got
married and it had nothing to do with
life being good or bad
it was something that i i should have
dealt with
i just wasn't ready keith was scared to
open up
putting his relationship on the line
it's like walking up against the wall
and it didn't occur to me to go around
it just kept you know hitting it
the truth is i was in such a place of
denial i thought i can do all the work
for him
i can make him better and at some point
you just have to say
i love you and i'm here when you
decide to do the work and if you don't
then
that's it he thought he was about to
lose the love of his life
but instead nicole showed him what he
was missing
three months into our marriage we had to
dig really deep
she made a decision to turn around and
initiate this intervention
it was done in such a way and the love
in that room at that moment was just
just right i'd never experienced
anything like that
she really should have just walked it's
always
something at the core it's never about
what it appears to be about
ultimately for me it's love that's the
thing that i think
what i was missing in my life love for
myself i just know
struggling that's all i've ever known
keith urban reveals the secret pain from
his past
he says quote my dad was an alcoholic i
don't recall him ever telling me he
loved me i was very
insecure i got to that crossroads i
really want to be courageous and
adventurous let's take the road less
traveled
keith stopped hiding his addiction and
reached out for help
i was like put the cuffs on let's go you
actually
cancelled a an album launching a
promotional tour
yeah you booked into repair and it was
literally like you either get this right
now or you are never ever gonna get it
right
this is your one shot was it hard to
stay clean of course
not this time this is my third time in
eight years
you can't do this for somebody i
couldn't do this
just for her right he's a fighter he's
choosing to
take care of himself walk the walk not
just talk the talk
by opening up keith finally let love in
and his relationship with nicole was
stronger than ever he's been
my rock and keith urban when my chief is
against yours
everything melts away and that is love
i've learned a lot from nick about
intimacy
really that's the one big thing i was
lacking in my life until i met her
transparency and honesty absolutely
i'm very grateful for where i am now
it's a different life
it's the one i was hoping i could figure
out how to live
we live by the mantra that we have
nothing to hide and everything to
protect there is supposed to be a time
in all of our lives where we sort of go
this is what i was working towards
it's okay to say this is pretty damn
good right here
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