i've been escorting for
10 years on and off i first started
escorting
when i was at university and one day my
friend just said to me
oh i know a girl and she gets loads of
money for escorting
and i was only 18 at the time and
naively i thought it was just going for
dinner with men
it was more of a sugar baby roll i had
in my head when i got to my first job i
soon realized that it was definitely not
since then obviously there's been a lot
of jobs and i try and block them out i
can't remember all of them
i don't know how many people i've had
sex with it's probably thousands
during clothing the hotels are actually
still open secretly
yesterday i picked a hotel it's
basically like a brothel
everyone does it though in the first few
months
of the lockdown i actually didn't do any
meets but
luckily some old clients had managed to
find me again it didn't really stop
anyone
clients were still meeting escorts were
still breaking the hotels
no one was scared of the virus i swear
when it comes to sex men do not get a
shirt they all seriously just do
anything
the guy was like do you want to give me
clothes like tommy you want to give me
clothing and make me die
i was spitting on him and coughing on
him and then afterwards he's like did
you get tested have you got covered and
i was just like you weirdo
i've had other weird stuff so big one is
um hard sports
and that's showing people eating
hair and on them the weirdest one i
had was a guy that wanted me to save us
a week's worth of
in the freezer and go to a domination
dungeon with him and he poured it all
over himself and then i was just
standing there calling him a literal
piece of and he was just rubbing it
all over himself one thing
another weird one is um peeking
you can be like the submissive one
giving them a repeating on that
or they could be the submissive one and
you're cheating on them saying you're a
piece of like
i'm puking when you look at you're
disgusting
a lot of people do arsenal back which is
a very scary thing because um
sti is obviously prevailing in society
and you just
never know and i've actually had a few
squares and it's like why would you ask
an escort for a girl about
me when you know that she could have
10 guys that day
they don't give a as you grow older
and get more experience obviously you
know your boundaries and you know
but when you're first into it you do get
pressured a lot to do things that you
may not be so comfortable with
every client you see puts you at risk
when they pay the money and want the
certain service
they're happy with it until after they
come and then they feel like a
and they want their money back
and you never know when someone's gonna
have a psychotic attack
it's a risky business one day
um i got into a bad situation where i
got
locked in the room there was three guys
they all had sex with me
and then they didn't pay me after that
situation i ended up calling the police
straight away
the guys actually got convicted and
one of them went to prison basically it
feels like you get raped when you
have had sex under the impression that
you're going to get paid and then the
guy takes the money back and you feel
like you
i'm not you for free i'm
not doing this for fun
especially at three o'clock in the
morning
some of the girls who are like illegal
in the country or being kept out and
stuff
they are definitely too scared to go to
the police you have to have like four
layers of skin in this job you have to
have very thick clear skin
and then you can't go to a normal girl
and tell them i want you to show me or i
want you to force me to suck a cop
they have to go to escorts for this sort
of stuff like the guy that comes to me
to eat my shirt he's not going to ask
his wife to
so he can eat it so a lot of them
are actually quite
talking about their life the whole time
and saying life's like this and
it's like that this is what i do i'm
just assigned to me and i don't really
care i don't need just discussion why
you're booking me
i just want the money but obviously they
feel guilty in a way that's why they
have to explain themselves
when you're an escort you start to think
everyone does this and it gives you
really
trust issues a lot of young people do as
well you'd expect it to be people that
aren't good looking can't get girls
people that have confidence issues
it's not like that at all some of my
biggest clients who's friendly regularly
or very good looking young guys some of
them are drug dealers they've got a lot
of money to spend and they just want a
late night
and they don't want to have to go
through the hole pulling up someone they
know and all that so they just do it for
convenience
it's just a sad world that we live in
that you can earn so much money from
literally
selling your body and if you've got a
normal job
and you work done hard you can't even
get close to the fitness that you see
over the years i've definitely made i've
hit a million
i've had so much design uploads
luxurious holidays
beautiful things and it doesn't buy
happiness i need some life-changing
things to happen now because otherwise
i'm going to be stuck in a cycle and i'm
40 years old still known for
money
which i do not want it's bad enough as
it is that you
stoop that low in yourself and you have
to be a very strong person
especially to not take drugs while doing
this job because you see a lot of shirt
and also it's very depressing and lonely
and you live a life
when i was younger i used to be a bit
more open about it but i found very
quickly that people don't want to talk
to you
if you are a sex worker it's not a
respected job
it's something you don't feel proud
about shouting out to everyone
and sometimes i think i've got ptsd
because i literally get flashbacks
sometimes or
just random times
of different clients and i had a goal in
my head that i wouldn't be doing it past
a certain age
and i really don't want to be doing it
after that age because i want to have
children and have a normal life
that's really all i want but i do want
to be rich
you