Hello everybody.
Today I'm going to be doing something
that could potentially leave me hugely embarrassed.
But because I'm just nice like that, I'm gonna do it
for your entertainment.
I have multiple boxes around me
that you can't actually see right now
full of all of my past memories.
It's basically my memory boxes
And I have a lot of them
because I'm a very sentimental, mushy person
I like to keep everything that has some significance to my life at that moment
So, even though half of this has no significance to my life any more,
I'm really glad I've kept it
i.e. Ex-boyfriend letters
I keep everything
So Alfie if you're watching this, and you screw me over
I've got ya two cards that you sent me in the last 4 years to keep forever
I'm joking
I'm not really
he has actually only really ever given me like two sentimental cards
Past boyfriends have gone to town
So even though I don't read these things back and go
Oooohhhh my heart, I can't believe it, this ended this way
and these words he spoke to me in 2007 never happened
I still love to keep these things because
they were of huge significance at the time
and I know how these things made me feel at the time
and THAT is what is important
However, if you are an ex-boyfriend watching this video,
Don't panic! I'm not gonna read out your love letters
Well... I might not
So I'm just gonna get stuck in
I haven't looked through this in a really long time
I don't know what's here
I don't know what I could be sharing with you
But I think this is going to be really fun
Do any of you remember when I interviewed One Direction in 2013?
I have to say, right now
That was one of the most terrifying days I have ever had
I crapped my pants
That's not actually...
Er, I mean I know the idea of me crapping my pants is pretty disgusting, Nala
but you don't need to bark at me
I didn't actually crap my pants
But I was SO nervous
I've got like all my cue cards
I tried to learn the questions so that I wasn't looking down too much
But I also didn't like stare into their soul
That was a really nerve-wrecking day
When I was in Harry Potter,
after we'd finished filming,
We received these
Which is a signed photograph by the one and only
Daniel Radcliffe
I remember when I received this,
this was like pure gold in my bedroom
I had this up on my door, I showed everyone that came round
I was like he signed it, he actually signed this
It's a print
It's not actually signed
It's his signature, but he didn't actually sign it
Thanks, Daniel, Thanks a lot
Oh my god, here's a note that I've kept
from, obviously a lesson
that me and my friends were in
we used to write each other notes all lesson
Oh gooood I'm like writing about a boyfriend I had at the time
I'm gonna call him Jerry
I love Jerry
Awwwww, and so-and-so loves so-and-so
And I love so-and-so, sad face
I put: Why da sad face?
da is D-A
"Does Jerry ever talk about me to you?"
How confuddling
I spent 10 quid on him in two days
And last night my dad said 'How much cred you got'
And I said 'Well... Squid'
And he goes 'Oh my god' thinking that was nothing
When really I had 6p
LOL
Oh my god, the credit days!
What does squid mean?
Oh 5 quid, not Squid!
I really, really, really like Jerry loads and loads
I just don't know if he feels da same - sad face
He could just be saying all da sweet stuff to all da girls he knows
And they might all feel da same as me
I really don't know -- just... get the feeling
Oh my god, why did I write like this? Get DA feeling
Why am I writing like this? Oh dear
Oh, LOL, I suppose, and he does keep telling me that he fancies me
and that he wants to live with me and stuff
And he did say 'There's only one girl for me' LOL
I feel better now
Oh look, Awwww an annual report
from when I was in reception
Reception, I must have been 4 or 5?
Zoe is a quiet but happy member of the class
She is always willing to help, and is caring towards the other children
Zoe has worked hard and produced some good work this term
Zoe likes playing with her dolls and swimming
This is a birthday card from my mum and dad
and it says 'To the most beautiful daughter in the world,
Have a great... 12th birthday'
Which.. she did write 11th and corrected it to 12th
so clearly she'd forgotten how old I was gonna be
'With all our love, Mummy and Daddy
P.S. You'll look great in a brace
Mobile phone to follow!'
So I got my first mobile when I was 12 and I got my braces when I was 12
What a great year!
Oh my god, OK, this is my end of school yearbook
So this was 2006
Which is when I was 16
Wow, I could really embarrass a lot of people right now
God, Oh God!
This is my picture
There I am!
16 years old, loving life!
Hey, check this out though
Yearbook awards, Year 11 Yearbook Awards 2006
This was voted for by the year
Best looking, Female: Zoe Sugg
What an achievement!
Of all of the things I've, I've won over the years
I'm joking!
When I saw this I was like 'Huh
'Kay, that's slightly embarrassing
I want to curl up in a ball... and die
Nice of them to nominate me though, Thanks guys!
Here we go, here's someone who's written Zoella, my squidge
So people were calling me Zoella whilst I was in school
I think around the age of 15 -- 16
I don't know how it came about
Everyone always asks me 'How did Zoella come about?'
I don't know but all I know is people called me it in school
So, it's been there a while
Awwww, this is a picture of me that my cousin drew for me when he was little
There I am
Oh look, this is a really old Christmas list
So I've put my name and my address
and I've put 'Dear Santa,
Please may I have a tandem pushchair and a baby born doll'
Never did get that baby born doll I asked for it every year until I was about 10
'and a TV
teddy and a mobile phone'
How old was I?
Asking for a mobile phone
'a Barbie treasure plank van
and the last one, a puppy that comes back when you say'
That's me and Joe's bunk beds
Card here which one of my friends did for me in Sixth Form
Would you believe?
Doesn't look like someone who was 17 did this
but they did and it says 'Happy Birthday, fellow pea-head!'
Just to show you that even in school I was being called a pea-head by my friends
One of my boyfriends made me a card
Out of a picture of a Polly Pocket
On a piece of like... Chopped tomatoes... thing
This is what it says in it:
Happy Birthday! I'm sorry everything is crap. I'll make it up to you
The sentiment of this... is too much
Kinda sums up what kinda guy he was
What's really surprising
is the one that made the most effort
besides Alfie obviously
and who I have the most cards here from
I actually still speak to and he's a really nice guy
And I think that's really nice
Although he would die of embarrassment if I read any of these out
So I'm not gonna do that
This is my old artbook
So I was, oh, S.8, so I was 12
Here's my drawing of a beanie baby and a box of matchmakers
Oh my god, I used to love those!
This is my sunset picture
Ewwwww, for a piece of art I used an actual Digestive biscuit and stuck it on with glue!
"I used a chocolate biscuit to do a collage of a chocolate Digestive
It does look quite messy and it takes ages to dry
I won't use this in the test, you can't get different shades or tones and it looks quite gross
It does look quite effective but I don't like it very much"
12 years on, I'm thinking that probably wasn't the best idea
This is the most secret thing I own
It is full of basically everything I ever thought about anyone
From the ages of 10 til the age of 20
I used to have this double padlocked when I lived with people
Now I live with Alfie, doesn't have anything about him in here
So I really wouldn't care if he read this
It doesn't have a padlock on it anymore
Here I am, with my guinea pigs at the time
It came with a rollerball of glitter
Who remebers rollerballs of glitter?
So good!
This is like my version of a burn book
What a little bitch I am!
Actually do you know what it's not all bad, it's some really good stuff in there as well
Blossom is my best mate, she is perfect at being a mate
Blossom is never horrible and is never annoying
We go shopping together and we giggle all the time
She's called Giggle 1 and I'm Giggle 2
in brackets (cool or what?)
Oh my god, this is so funny
in EastEnders I really fancy Jamie in brackets (Jack Ryder)
and I think he's gorgeous and so hunky
I also thing that Ashley Cotton is quite sweet
He's got lush eyes and long eyelashes and he's (dot dot dot) well he's just cute
I used to think Martin was all right too
but now I'm not so sure
Ashley is not like his dad
every time Ashley's on telly I get this crush in my stomach
and when he cries I feel really sorry for him
and I love him even more then
the same for Jack Ryder too
he's fab
OK, then I decided to create my own language
Oh my god, OK, so bear in mind I am 11, OK
I'm still in primary school
We had this friend, it was like this friendship group
And we had this one friend
who none of us really liked that much
I don't know why, we were kids
And we've put here 'We hate Lilly
We have broken up with her for good
She is so horrible
Tina is going to send her a text to say that she's a cow and a slime ball
She is such a liar so she spreads rumours'
and then I've put in massive letters 'SLUT'
Then I've drawn a picture of her
and I've put in a speech bubble "I'm a slut"
Ooh my god, was I the Regina George of my primary school?
No, do you know what? I was never mean to anyone's face
I just wrote it in here, which is probably worse, to be fair
Awwww, 'Today in the library, me and my friends were looking through the Shout magazine
It said something about best features
So I said to Sarah 'What's my best feature?'
and then everyone was saying what my best feature was
Then Jamie said 'I think your best feature is your eyes'
And then the whole of the group went 'Ooooooooooh'
And today we, in brackets, (the boys and the girls from the tutor group)
went down to the field and they were playing Truth or Dare
People had to hug and kiss others
Ew!
I actually remember... like, this happening
and feeling so like... excited and nervous at the same time
Chloe was going to get someone to ask someone out for her
for a joke, so Sarah went over to him and said
'Will you go out with Chloe?'
He said 'No' and they kept on asking him
and then my other friend, being really annoying, said
'Will you go out with Zoe'
and he said 'Maybe'
I could've killed her!
So I hope he doesn't think I'm serious!
While I'm on the subject of Charlie, I think he likes to flirt with me in art
'cause he talks to me all the time
and when he left the table on Thursday when he finished his mask
he said to me 'See you later!'
and I thought 'OK?'
I have some well big news, but I have to get ready for school right now
so I'll tell you when I get back. Chow for now, y'all!
Right, well, I'm 16 now Woo!
I should really be putting pictures in this book. I will do soon
Anyway, it was my birthday last Tuesday, 28th March
and now I'm 16, Aaah!
I honestly I am dying a little bit inside because these are things I've said
I couldn't imagine my life without him and I know that this is cheesy as hell but I don't care
I've been with him for almost 11 months and I couldn't be any -- any happier
He makes me someone
It's all of a sudden very hot in here
It's so weird to read this back because like I've written in it and then I've gone back
and like any little thoughts that I had... the years before
I've gone back and gone 'Yes this was completely true'
Such-and-such turned out to be doing such-and-such
and Oh my god, it's just the drama
I'm not going out with [Insert boy's name] any more
Stuff just got odd and I just didn't feel I liked him any more
Although we were together for a year and a half overall
I'd like to say we're still friends, but clearly we're not because he's turned into a prick and is being really weird
Oh my god, so how sad is this?
So the last entry I ever put in this diary
was when I was 18, so not 20, 18
Awwww, this is so sad!
I put 'Maybe he isn't bothered and if he's not, then is he worth hanging onto?
I don't really know what to think about it at the moment
But I do know I'm probably not worth keeping, never have been
and I thought it would be different with [Insert Name]
But I don't feel like he really admires me any more
sad face. Hey ho
That's the last bit of my diary
So it starts when I'm 10 and ends when I'm 18
There's a massive chunk of my life missing from this
But I feel like it's quite funny that
when I stopped writing in this, I started a blog
Not that my blog was ever really as personal as this
but, yeah that's kinda weird
Oh my god, this is from the back of my school planner
Did anybody else... stick these on their planners?
You used to go on a website and like download them
And stick them like
I loved these things
Awww, I've got a picture of Alfie in here
Tanya and Jim's wedding invite
I just keep... everything
A friend came around today and then I babysat until midnight even though I felt very ill
I got £15
Oh look, OK, so this is a picture I put in here
Awards night, orthodontist appointment
I have my braces off. Yay!
So this was Thursday the 15th of January 2004
I have my braces off. Now I look like this. Yay! Straight teeth!
I also won an award for history. Yay!
This is me and my cousin
Look what my hair used to be like
God this is hilarious - this is a picture of me as a baby eating a banana
My mum trying to teach me to walk
This is me looking very unimpressed in the bath
This is me wearing a somewhat questionable outfit with my Miss Piggy
Awwww, this is me
when I was a baby
with a little toy phone - I feel like EVERYONE had that phone
Here's me like laughing at something
I actually love this picture. I think my mum took this
I don't know what I'm doing but I am laughing at something
It's really cute!
Here's one of me slightly older
with the thickest eyebrows you ever did see
Look at those brows
Ok I feel like that is everything that I could possibly go through in this video
Nala's dropped off, so if you're still watching this then thanks
If you liked this video and you want me to do another one
because I do have a lot of different things that I can go through
then give the video a thumbs up and I will be sure to do that
It would be quite funny to go through some other stuff with Joe or maybe Alfie
I dunno -- leave your suggestions below
And I really hope that you have had a lovely weekend and that you will have an awesome week
Bye!