You guys, kind of fucking sad. I'm bored, all my friends are busy.
I have been doing boring stuff all day. Like going to the doctor and running errands and shit
You know when you are like in the mood to just do something fun you know.
But there's like nothing to do cause there just isn't, that's kinda how I'm feeling right now.
I just feel like there's nothing fucking fun to do.
I feel like I'm just stuck in my house, and it's Sunday night
perfect time to get crazy and I have nothing to do
and I'm by myself and it's 10 o'clock.
What do I do? You know what let me think for a second...
Oh my god, you know what? I'm gonna go out on the town.
Me and you we're going out on the town
We're gonna go fuckin rage. We're gonna go party. We're gonna go fucking rage.
I think that's a perfect idea. I don't see anything wrong with it.
Okay. Well, it's ten o'clock. So I need to start getting ready right now.
Okay.
First we need to fix, uh, this mess.
So I just showered, ooh. Ugh, that tasted bad. I need to blow-dry this.
Oh wait, hold on. I have not even brushed my hair yet.
Okay, let's not, let's take it one step at a time. We're gonna be doing a get ready with me
okay, we're getting ready with me to go fucking
rage.
Hair, makeup, outfit
the whole nine fucking yards because guess what? I'm bored.
I hate doing this
can you tell I don't know how to blow-dry my hair I don't think I am doing a good job
It's done.
If I'm going to be in public, I think it's really important that I brush my teeth.
That's not a, that's not a look.
The thing about going out, alright, is that you never know who you're going to talk to
and you never know how close you're going to be talking to em.
Not only that but I might kiss someone.
That's not happening.
Oh
Oh shit.
You can't be going out on the town looking like this.
I don't think anyone would talk to me like this.
Is the lighting good? I don't know I don't really know how to use my camera.
So we're nice and close up
What a nightmare.
So let's do our makeup. Recently I've actually been getting a little bit more into makeup
because I got my new makeup routine going and I think it's working for me.
So I'm gonna be using a moisturizer
k
Let's talk. Um. Ugh, god.
This is just the worst part of the video is when I have to figure out what to talk about.
Cause it's like okay I have the concept down for the video,
but then it's like how do I fill the gaps?
Next I'm using this.
You know I use these products and I really don't know what they do, but I just use them anyway
because I think that it's what I'm supposed to be doing.
Oh my god, my teeth are so yellow
How do you get rid of that? Is it possible? Help.
Next I'm using this product, thank you.
Makeup, like getting your makeup done/doing it yourself is similar to coffee.
Now let me explain this metaphor to you.
When you get a coffee from a coffee shop, It's always better than the coffee that you made yourself
Similarly to how when you do your makeup at home, it's never as good as when you get it done.
Let me take a next step on this.
I have gotten my makeup done four times within the past like week.
I can guarantee you that I looked way better than normal all of those times and what I'm about to do right now
I'm gonna look fine and I'm gonna look better than before but I'm not gonna look that great
But what I'm wondering is what are they doing that I'm not doing? What am I doing wrong? Oh my god
I never held up this product. I could literally never be a beauty guru.
Okay, I feel attacked because I feel like I could never do what they're doing. This already looks wrong.
You know, the funny thing is is that I'm not actually going to the club
So I'm kind of just doing my makeup for no reason right now
That's a hard pill to swallow. Holy shit I have a whole ass vein right there
What? Is that okay? Have I had that for a long time?
I don't think I've ever noticed that is that like a new addition to my head never seen that on me before don't forget to
Put it on your ear too. Right? Why am I always bored? I'm not bored though
I'm never really bored cuz I always have shit to do but I always feel like I'm bored , you know
I at least have one point in the day. I'm like, you know what? I'm bored
Should I do like a dark smokey look on my eyes today? Like I feel like I should spice it up and do something
I normally don't do I did good old smokey eye or something. I don't even know like is that even a thing anymore?
I feel like smokey eyes were like a thing in like middle school
Like everybody would like Google smokey eye tutorials and wear them to school on special occasions. Maybe that was just my school
Maybe that was just me, although I never knew how to do a smoky eye
So I guess you know, what does that say about me?
But why does my makeup look so bad right now? The one time I'm doing it on camera
That's like not chill, why did it turn out like that? I feel like I'm normally better
You know, I'm kind of tired right now, like why am I getting ready for the club right now?
Like I'm fuckin tired and I'm not even going to the club. So this video, just, does it even have a point?
K what's the next step my makeup routine? I always forget what order I do everything in um, is it time to contour? I
I Don't really remember, whatever
Contouring is scary for me because I really don't know how to do it. I
I brought this on the plane and it exploded everywhere as you can see that worries me, but I'm just gonna put it on a brush
That was a mistake. Yep, that was a mistake. Yeah. I think I'm just doing bad cuz I'm under pressure right now maybe
How do I fix what I've done? I don't know what I'm doing, I thought I did
I got all cocky in the beginning of this. I was like yeah I'm getting really good at makeup recently
Now here we are. Now we're gonna put on some bronzer that's powder now
I'm getting lazy with this. Okay, definitely applied a little bit too much bronzer, but never hurt nobody.
My god, nose contour, scary. Normally that works and it really didn't that time.
I do really enjoy doing makeup though
I think it's really therapeutic
Like when I'm about to go somewhere which you know doesn't really happen very often, put on some loud ass music
Just start jamming out and like doing my makeup. I love that. It's weirdly a form of therapy
I never thought I would say that but here I am
Highlighter, oh this is so fun
That was way too much, fuck. I put too much, I put too much. This is my favorite lip stuff
It's so good. Ooo this looks bad.
Who am I trying to impress though. Ooo
Now that we've done that. I'm gonna try to do a crazy
eye shadow look just gonna kinda wing it based on what I've seen people do before. Could go potentially really bad
Willing to take that risk. I'm not actually going in public. Taking this palette (when she takes out the naked palette instead of you know who's)
Remember 8th grade. It was so fun. Remember, 8th grade? Yeah should I do like a dark look with like dark grey and shit?
That'd be a vibe. Let's do it. Let's just do it. Maybe if I look good enough I will go to the club
that was a joke
Aww, that's really bad, oh, ooo, you know what it's okay
How did I get here? K, I'm not gonna give up. Every smoky eye starts out a little sus, right?
This is fine. Oh, wait, that doesn't even, doesn't actually look that bad
I mean it does but like. I'm gonna add some black into this look just cuz I think it'd be kind of entertaining
That was a bad idea. Okay, wait, maybe it's not that bad. I just need to clean up around the edges
I'm just trying to be positive here.
Why, why am I like that? Should I add some eyeliner? At this point we have nothing to lose right?
I Don't think that that looks good
How did that happen?
This is why I don't do eyeliner what made me think I could do it today. Am I just being lazy
Is that the problem like am I not trying hard enough?
I asked myself this consistently while doing things like if I tried a little harder would this have turned out better. Oh
I look very
Crusty right now did I like miss a step
You know what? I feel like eyeliner doesn't really matter
Once you've a mascara on cuz it kind of covers everything up, right
But I have to throw a lot of mascara and no one will know about what happened in the past
This is the makeup tutorial to do if you're trying to
Make it so that no one talks to you while you're out and about no one's gonna want to you if you look like this
At the club, I don't know why I keep saying at the club i have been more in like at a party
But at the club just kind of rolls off the tongue. I don't go to clubs
Like I don't even i don't even go to parties either and I'm not saying not to play them
You know feel bad with my car. All right
I don't want to go like I wouldn't want to go even if I was invited. Am I lying to myself?
No, not makeup look is completed. Here's the montage now
How do I look ?
Okay so- Oh , so first let's start up with shoes , I feel like that's a- , that's a good start , right ?
Okay, well I own one pair of heels so I think these will have to do oh
So what am I wearing? You know, I have a few ideas
Number one. These pants could be amazing
But do you know what I almost like these pants too much you ever feel like that?
you're like I like this too much and I don't want to waste it like I want to wear these on a good occasion my
Makeup looks terrible
It's haunting me you know what this could be a vibe
Okay some sweats, but they're like not just sweats they're kind of like track pants wearing that with heels. That's a vibe.
Maybe I will wear a skirt. Hold on
okay, so I have this skirt and I don't really know why I own it and I almost feel like if I wear this, um
I'll never live it down. I don't think I should wear it. It just feels wrong. I need to pick out a shirt.
Oh this could work see okay, that could work Oh
Oh my god, this is fucking perfect. Look at this. Oh, yeah. Okay that's happening. But I need to wear something under this or else
Oh this is perfect. No
Like I could just really just wear this under it. I can't just let my nipple out
Like that's just like not chill, maybe it is. Oh should I pick out a purse?
No, that's a lot of work, I'm not gonna do that. Okay. Let's get on the outfit. I need to just end this video
I'm not even going to the club. Okay, I'm not even going to a party. I'm not going anywhere
I'm literally gonna take my makeup off after I'm done filming
So let's just get this video over with the whole thing is a fucking pointless mess
Just kidding. It's fun
Because if I didn't tell you that I wasn't going out on the town if I made you think that I genuinely was going out
on the town
This video would not be pointless
but I told you that I was lying because I care I'm not gonna lie to you because we have a too much of a connection.
You know for me to lie to you like that, let me just blend my makeup while I talk
Alright well, that was fun, I'm gonna go to bed now, and that's it. Bye
If this actually makes it to the Internet I'll be surprised
*Music*