Strewth they are cold nick pulls me away for some one-on-one time and I feel like
this is a really good opportunity to tell him about something that was a part
of my past I'm feeling really nervous cuz I'm really worried about what Nick
might think of me or if you might you know perceive me differently because of
this he was one of those hoodie but I really think that tonight is definitely
a bright time and I've got to do it so from some of the information I received
from Steve he mentioned that there was a bit of self-confidence issues but at the
same time he said through those self-confidence issues you were
completely honest direct and say exactly how you felt and that for me is is
awesome it's really nice to hear that allied Secretary has picked up that I'm
a pretty genuine and truthful person that's something that I pride myself on
this has been really hard to withdrawal information from him so in this moment I
would just need to bite the bullet and tell him
there's something I really wanted to tell you which is I've been right back
waiting for the right time because I felt like it is something big and it's
something that you should know and as we go on with developing this connection
and I feel really strongly about you in terms of like who you are as a person
so I've had four relationships I was with a guy for three years
this is really comfortable for me to talk about but I've also had two
relationships with women
but I'm a big person of like of who you are inside
obviously not face value what you look like or what you are so for me when I
was in those relationships I looked beyond what they were as female and I
really loved for who they were as people like you know I mean I'm not gonna
bisexual or lesbian or anything like that I'm a big lover of people and who
they are and yeah I just I just really don't want
to be judged oh wow yeah I'm so glad that you feel
that feel come from enough to share that between out of both you experiences yeah
what do you feel is about for you I want to be with a male I want to have
children and you know what for me is a powerful thing and that and it's not the
only thing I feel more sexually attracted to men like I can't it's just
I'm just being completely honest we are just Souls inhabiting a body you know
trying to find our way and we work out the direction we actually want to take
in the end yeah and if you've worked out what direction that is
then it has absolutely no effect on me moving forward I didn't see this coming
at all but it doesn't worry me that's a Who am I to judge good honor
what she knows now what she wants doesn't matter me I promise
telling Nick about my past relationships with women was a big deal and telling
him did mean a lot well why don't the gist
I do feel like a weight has been lifted and you know I'm feeling much more
relieved about it
Brookes been very honest it's not and that is commendable to say that in this
environment shows a lot of courage
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