hi smiles
hi
what are the boys doing
oh really hi princess are you gonna come
in here
look at the two boys
um this may be the hardest video
that we've ever had to upload um
there's no easy way to say this but
a few days ago we lost a member of our
family
um diamond star our beautiful
nine-year-old pomeranian she passed away
um
a few days ago and we were
gone on vacation and
i don't know why life wanted us to be
gone but
two days into it um nate's best friend
who who always watches our dogs with our
security he called us
and um he was really concerned
very concerned too and um in case you
guys didn't know
diamond has had a lot of health problems
for a very long time
she does um she was bred really small
and i saved her from a puppy mill
nine years ago and um i have loved and
cared for her
for so long and nate has loved and cared
for her for half her life
and um i
i don't even know what to say i'm so
empty i just feel so hollow
yeah i don't even know what to say you
guys i wanted to share the news with
everyone because
i can't just pretend and go on uploading
makeup videos and act like
nothing's wrong we have shared so much
of our lives with you guys and um
this is probably the hardest thing i've
ever had to say
um we've been crying for two days
straight we're just we're so numb
at this point um for the last
i would say what year and a half she's
been having a lot of struggles
um she was she was bred really small she
has a really small
heart um she had alopecia which is a
hair loss disease and she
was so tough and so strong every day
every day was smiling and um
we got a call that she was doing really
bad like worse than ever
and um we panicked and we started
looking for flights home
and we got an emergency flight home and
before we could go to the airport
um he called us and told us that she
suddenly passed away it was gone and um
i can't believe it the fact that there's
now one less
than our tribe is so heartbreaking i
just feel so empty right here um if
anyone else has ever had
a loss of a pet
you know how horrible and deep this is
and um i
i'm just so grateful that we got to
spend so much time with her
and um i don't know we've had we've had
to pause this video 10 times because we
don't want to be stopping on camera for
you guys we're trying to stay strong and
i'm so glad that i have nate here with
me
um diamond was like three and a half
four when nate met her
and he loved her like his own
with my heart and that means the world
to me
and um nate
has treated diva like his own
and um it's been he's been such a huge
part of our family to
so to accept all of us um all these
years
i'll be forever grateful and um
i know i'm just thinking of so many
memories like
the fact that i don't know i don't i
don't want to get
i don't want to get i mean all i do is
feel sorrow but it's just you guys we're
surrounded by our dogs and the fact that
there's not as
my baby sitting in front of us is just
really really really really hard
you guys know that me and nate did a
really cool family collection in 2017.
we've been looking at so much footage of
her that we've accumulated and we
just want to throw up some clips of her
because i want you guys to remember her
just as she was always smiling so strong
um always the light whenever i was sad
the dogs always made me happy and they
always do make me happy
diva helped me raise diamond he's he was
her big brother he's 10 years old
and i don't know how anyone else
does it in their family but me and nate
um when we came home from the flight it
was
really really rough but we got to come
home and we got to say goodbye
to her we did in the proper way um with
all the dogs surrounding her
and they all got to say their goodbyes
they did and i think that diva took it
so hard
um i don't care what anyone believes in
our animals are our family and they
were really really sad and um they
definitely all took it
differently in their own ways huh yeah
we just want to you know thank everybody
who's
you know been around and stuck around
and
appreciated you know diamond and our
family
i just thank you for always loving us
for showing the dog so much love there's
people that tell me jeffrey we don't
even really want to watch you and nate
we just want to look at your dogs yeah
like that's so cool and we we respect
you for it and we appreciate it
and so does she and thank you so much so
we want to play some clips of diamond um
she was such a huge part of my life and
i just want to
leave a positive note for her and um
yeah
diamond i love you so much i love you
thank you for
being so special in my life we're
definitely gonna have to take a little
time off because this hit home
a little more than anyone could
think of see you guys soon we're gonna
go celebrate her life so
i hope you guys understand we're gonna
take some time off and um i will see you
very soon and um i don't know
we love you guys just thank you
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