I think growing up as a loner, it just taught me to realize that just the world isn't crazy
as it seems if you can have control of it.
I think that that's what helped me create "Loner."
Showing the kids that they're not alone and they can do or be whatever they want to be
is really important.
The inspiration for "Loner" came from...
Me and Makonnen were in the studio, and we were just both talking about how being a loner
is probably one of the most common things in life.
Whether you have a lot of friends or a little, at the end of the day, you're still alone,
because you have only yourself.
I was also thinking about my past in Chicago.
I think that's what really helped a lot because I did 'Loner' when I'd just come to L.A so
I wrote about my past, about drugs and just being alone.
For the hook, I was just thinking, if I was talking to a girl, and I'm explaining to her
the feelings I'm going through.
That's why I'm acting the way I'm acting.
When I'm in the deepest state of mind, I feel like..."
You know, just telling someone, "I'm a loner."
We're popping pills fast, you know?
I used to do a lot of Xanax back in the day, so that's...
I would just be dependent on Xanax.
I felt like doing all this Xanax, I felt like there was no...
I had no anxiety.
There was no pain or paranoia in the world.
I just felt like I was unstoppable.
I would be on so many Xans, I wouldn't know where I'm at.
I just felt like I was stuck.
It's not really good coping with drugs. It just leaves you in a deeper hole.
Then pretty soon, you're just going to be in a pit.
Then you're fucked, you know?
So I had to get out of there.
I had to escape that mental health, you know, before it took over me.
Gold diggers, you know?
They would fall in love with anybody, I feel like, who has money.
It's so weird.
I feel like getting more noticed in the world, it's harder to know...
Just in general, girl, boy, who just wants to be your friend and who's in it for the
clout, you know?
I had an old song called "Bleach It."
That song was just falling apart over a girl.
I felt just locked and trapped.
You know, just bring me pain, you know?
Bleach me and burn me.
Yeah, I think that line was also inspired by Nirvana, because just Kurt Cobain made
the word bleach so mainstream, I feel like, or just big.
I don't want you, you don't want me falling for you.
Because I feel like sometimes I'm so fucked up, I don't want to bring my bad energy to
someone else.
Just being a loner and overthinking just makes me a little bipolar with my mental thoughts.
I don't want girls falling for me if I'm going to act like that, if I'm not okay.
it's just the hell that's pretty.
It's just basically it's red and fiery, but there's nice lavish couches and stuff.
It's pretty, but you still wouldn't want to be there, because the intention is bad and
everything else is just like hell.
I would just spend all my money on weed, on drugs, just hydros, coke.
Just all the drugs in Chicago, I would just spend all my money on.
Because I would sell them and use them.
Now that I don't spend my money on drugs, it just feels better just using my money for
more useful purposes, like music and softwares and FL and stuff.
Drugs get you nowhere.
I felt like I was just hopeless, and I'm like, "What was I doing in life?"
But now that I'm off it, I feel much better.
I feel like I could complete any task or I could change the world the way I want to now.