Hello, my name is Lydia. Welcome to deep chats in all black.
Physically I am 21 years old.
well kind of... I actually have
so much back pain that yeah no physically I am also 75 years old.
Hi.
My name is Lydia.
Physically I am 21 years old.
Mentally I am babushka level.
Babushka means grandmother in Russian.
For some reason in the Western world people say
ba-BUSH-ka
But I am here to correct you and
It is BA-bushka
So for the rest of this video I will be referring to old soul, and old person energy as babushka energy
because it's just a much easier why of saying it.
Sometimes Russian can be a bit more concise than English. Othertimes...
absolutely not
[One of the significant chapters of the domestic cat's history began during the Middle Ages.
By this time he was a common household cat in all the great cities of Europe.
A cat sunning himself on the window ledge was just as familiar a site as a flower pot.
But the cat was never a free-boarder.
He paid well for his keep in terms of service to mankind.
His contribution was so great
that it actually changed the course of human history.
So the reason I'm making this video is because I was ironically on the phone with my babushka
and she and I were talking about life . She was like, "Oh what are you up to? Why are you so stressed?"
and I was like, " Yeah it's kind of stressful because
I'm working like all these random different jobs and Youtube and music...it's a lot."
and she was like, "Hold on."
Why are you working so much again?
and I was like, "Well I mean I have to pay for rent I have to support myself. I have to try as hard as I can to succeed."
and she was like, " Lydia, you're 21."
These are supposed to be your student years. This is supposed to be the year you're having the most fun and
really relaxing and this is going to be your last moment in life to really enjoy yourself.
and that really got me to think and I was like, "I have to make a video about this."
So what does it mean to have old soul energy or babushka energy?
It's the feeling that you're too mature for your age.
I can't remember when someone didn't tell me oh you're so mature for your age like that literally has been happening since I was such
a young kid and I am more on the taller side so that could be a factor as well that I was just physically bigger but
for as long as I can remember people have been telling me that I'm really mature...and even on this channel.
I really hope that at some point there will be a stage in my life when people think I look younger.
you know I'm investing so much in skincare now that I hope by age 40 people say that I look 20.
because if it keeps going at this rate, I'm actually scared.
Having an old soul though is not just about the looks. It's a lot about your lifestyle, your personality, and how you go about doing things.
I had my fun uni phase my first semester at university when I didn't have a job. I was partying a lot. Drinking a lot..
and I honestly didn't feel fulfilled at all and that quickly ended.
and I got a job because I was like, "If I'm skipping class anyways...
why don't I skip class to make money instead of skipping class to make horrible decisions?"
To me there was just no appeal and I don't how some people can literally do their entire university experience just partying
and having fun. like having fun?
What is that?
But no seriously for me having fun for me is realizing that I can have the life that I want if I do put all my effort into it and
I would rather try hard now while I still have the student label
so that if I fail I can be like, "Oh I'm a student. I have no idea what I'm doing." Cause in reality
I have no idea what I'm doing.
There's just so many things that I have never resonated with people my age, especially in university.
Growing up it wasn't so obvious but now that I've come to uni.. well now it's all shut down anyways so
what is student life right now? Like I'm probably not missing out on that much.
I've always felt kind of lonely and I'm hoping that this video might speak to some of you guys and I know
some of my subscribers are like this because I can tell.
From your comments on my other videos I think we have the same type of energy.
But it's the feeling that no one else will ever get you because idk you're kind of alien in the way you are in the sense that
I would prefer to work and I would prefer to sustain myself and not rely on anybody or anything for aid.
And I like having my own things and I am proud to say that yes I can pay rent. To me that was such a big achievement.
It might not be big for everybody and of course we all come from different backgrounds. Some people have been doing this forever.
Maybe you're even supporting your family but
I'm just comparing myself to the average person around me at my university which obviously it is quite a priveledged school
and I just am proud of things that they just don't even consider.
Since I've come to university I have found that all of my friends tend to be older and even then I don't really notice the age difference
I live with a roommate who is a year older than me but I feel like sometimes I'm parenting her which is hilarious like I love it.
I'm just like, "Have you done your taxes? Are you going to your taxes? Eat some vegetables.
That is one big thing about having babushka energy. You want to feed everybody.
Maybe this is just the Russian mentality but if someone is in my house I'm automatically like do they have access to food?
Are they fine? Did they eat their vegetables? Like should I cook something for them?
And to me that brings me much more joy than to go out and have a bunch of drinks with people.
There's just such a big part of uni culture that I don't identify with especially on this side of the world, the Western side of the world.
Like hookup culture for example, to me I never saw the appeal of that. Like one night stands... why would you do that?
I find that pretty gross and other people were just like oh you don't know how to have fun.
And I was like, that's not fun that's getting aids.
And then there are other things, like me wanting to work so hard while I was in school and even if I was taking six courses I was like
sure I have time for a 40 hour work week.
Also I feel like the lighting in here is kind of off. The sun keeps going. It's tricking me that it's sunny outside but it's actually cold. Canada.
There were just always so many things that I didn't identify with and it has been really lonely but retrospectively as much as
I have been reflecting on my grandmother's phone call and that comment she made, I was like
Retrospectively I'm happier being an old soul right now especially after a pandemic because I feel like I'm more prepared to just
move on with my life. Like I'm not trying to hold on to something that simply doesn't exist anymore and we don't know
when that's going to come back.
And I think I'm just much more equipped with life skills to deal with this current situation because it's all part of the game.
You know part of my fun is figuring life out and it's been a really interesting time. My 21 years here have definitely been an
interesting time but I hope it gets even more crazy.
I think there is a big part of being an old soul that is not necessarily just that you were born with an old soul.
It's also how you were raised and I am really thankful for this but a part of me is like wow did I really miss out on my youth?
Because my parents divorced when I was nine and it was pretty messy and since then I was basically living back and forth
with one parent and they were both not in really good mental states so it was kind of me taking care of myself.
Which meant consequently that I was just eating mac and cheese everyday because that was the one thing I knew how to cook and
yeah I probably lost ten years of my life there so yeah that's why I'm mature now.
But that was my childhood so it kind of had an abrupt end and that's probably also why I have an old soul and then afterwards
I've talked about this multiple times on my channel but essentially we have a family tradition to get kicked out when you're 16. Love that
But I think I had it pretty good considering my dad was sent to Siberia and I went to Paris. I think I had it easy compared to him.
Of course my parents supported me but having to cook, clean, go to school, take care of all of these responsibilities like
manage your rent and stuff in a different language that you didn't even know how to speak.
And not being able to communicate with your parents at all kind of because oftentimes they would be asleep when you were awake
or vice versa.
It really caused me to grow up and I am very thankful for that experience but at the same time I'm like, did I waste my childhood?
Because right now we're living for so much longer and we're depending on our parents (in developed countries)
that's kind of the demographic I'm speaking to
In developed countries you are relying on your parents for much longer than before. It's not like you can buy a house right away
after you graduate college but the more and more we live longer and the more and more we rely on our parents I do feel like I
am missing something because I just have these conversations with people around me and it's like oh what are you up to?
And I'm kind of embarrassed to say that I actually took a break from school so I could work on all of these things and pursue all of the
creative things I haven't because most of my friends are like yeah I'm in school which is fine.
But it does make me feel kind of weird and kind of.. yeah kind of like a babushka.
That being said this a reminder to fix your posture. Shout out to Kelly Stamps for always mentioning this.
If you don't watch her videos, you should.
So I guess this video has no real definite answer
I don't think there was a question to begin with
but it was just kind of to talk about like is it really bad to have an old soul? I don't think so.
Am I missing out on certain things? Probably. My conventional fun isn't a lot of people's conventional fun.
But at the same time it is kind of ironic because my dream job is to DJ so that's like the epitome of wanting to remain young forever
you know making your career a club career.
So I don't really know. My babushka's comment on the phone it did really kind of trigger me into thinking and
I got really reflective.
If you're an old soul I would love to know your thoughts on this.
Maybe it's not as bad as I'm making it seem. Maybe it's not as lonely...i don't know
Do we make our own retirement home on Youtube?
I feel like every video I end by saying let's start some sort of group but it's honestly because I'm finding that a lot of you guys
are a lot more similar to me than a lot of the people around me and it's quite fascinating.
I hope you enjoyed this video and stay safe.
Do your yoga stretches to fix your posture.
Drink your water. Eat your vitamins um and I'll see you in the next video.