Theresa: HOLIDAYS GIVE US PERMISSION
TO MISS OUR LOVED ONES OUT LOUD
AND HOW MUCH WE LOVE THEM AND HOW WE WISH THEY WERE HERE.
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SO, I JUST INVITE YOU BOTH
JUST TO SIT BACK, RELAX,
AND ENJOY AND, MOST IMPORTANTLY, EMBRACE
THE MOST AMAZING AND BEAUTIFUL MESSAGES FROM YOUR LOVED ONES.
OKAY, WANT TO TALK ABOUT WHO PASSED FROM THE CHEST,
'CAUSE OF THEIR LABORING MY BREATHING.
MY HUSBAND.
SO, THE WAY THAT YOU HEAL AND THE WAY THAT YOU GRIEVE
ARE GOING TO BE DIFFERENT.
HE SAID, "FROM THE MOMENT I SAW YOU,
I KNEW THAT WE WERE GOING TO BE TOGETHER."
MM-HMM.
Woman: STEVE AND I MET IN HIGH SCHOOL,
WE WENT OUT THROUGHOUT SENIOR YEAR,
AND WE WENT OUT TILL WE GOT MARRIED,
WHICH WAS SEVEN YEARS LATER,
'CAUSE, YOU KNOW, HE WENT AWAY TO COLLEGE.
SO, WE GREW UP TOGETHER.
I KNEW HE WAS MY SOUL MATE.
DO YOU CONNECT WITH THE BIRDS?
YEAH, SOMETIMES.
SOMETIMES I'LL JUST SEE A BIRD
IN THE BACKYARD
OR, LIKE, WHEN I'M WALKING OUT IN THE MORNING,
AND I'LL ACTUALLY SAY, "HI, STEVE."
SAY, "GOOD MORNING, STEVE"? [ GASPS ]
[ LAUGHTER ]
THAT'S INCREDIBLE. YEP.
SO, KNOW THAT WHEN YOU DO THAT, HE'S SAYING, "YES, THAT'S ME."
HE SAYS, "I DON'T LIKE SEEING YOU SO SAD."
HE SAYS, "BUT, YET, YOU WALK OUT THAT DOOR,
YOU PUT ON THAT BRAVE FACE,
AND YOU'RE LAUGHING AND YOU'RE, 'YEAH, YEAH.'"
HE SAYS, "BUT, THEN, THERESA, THE SECOND SHE COMES IN,
SHE'S TELLING ME, 'DO YOU KNOW HOW HARD THIS WAS FOR ME TODAY?
WHY DO YOU -- I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU LEFT.'"
I NEVER GET MAD AT HIM,
BUT I DO TELL HIM HE HAD A LOT OF NERVE.
YEAH.
DID HE PASS SUDDEN AND/OR UNEXPECTED?
BECAUSE I ALMOST FEEL LIKE I JUST COLLAPSED.
EXACTLY. IT WAS ALMOST LIKE,
"YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND. I DIDN'T FEEL GOOD.
AND IT WAS LIKE [GASPS] AND THEN I JUST COLLAPSED."
HE WAS RUNNING IN THE TURKEY TROT IN GARDEN CITY.
AND HE HAD RUN IT FOR THE PAST 20-SOMETHING YEARS.
HE KEPT SHOWING ME A HOLE IN A HEART.
SO, WHATEVER IT IS THAT HE HAD WITH HIS HEART,
IT WAS NOT FIXABLE.
SO YOU KNOW THAT THERE WAS NOTHING THAT YOU COULD HAVE DONE
TO HAVE PREVENTED HIS DEPARTURE.
HE SAID, "THERESA, BEFORE I GOT TO THE GROUND,"
HE GOES, "I DIED."
HE DIDN'T LAY THERE AND SUFFER.
HE DIDN'T KNOW HE WAS LEAVING US.
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YOUR HUSBAND JUST SAID TO ME, HE GOES,
"IT'S SUCH A PEACEFUL FEELING.
AND WE DON'T EVEN KNOW IT'S HAPPENING UNTIL AFTER."
THERE'S SOME -- NOT HAVING HIM PHYSICALLY HERE FOR THINGS
IS DIFFICULT, BUT I THINK NOW
WE KNOW HE'S GONNA BE AT ANYTHING THAT'S IMPORTANT,
THAT HE'S HERE AND HE'S NEVER GONNA LEAVE US.
AND THAT'S A GIFT.
CHRISTMAS IS GOING TO BE TOUGH.
EVERY DAY IS TOUGH.
BUT WE HAVE TO GET THROUGH THEM,
BECAUSE I KNOW THAT'S WHAT HE'D WANT.
UNFORTUNATELY, YOUR HUSBAND IS DEPARTED?
YES.
YOUR HUSBAND HAS BEEN,
AND WILL CONTINUE TO LEAVE YOU
AMAZING SIGNS AND SYMBOLS THAT HE IS WITH YOU.
OKAY.
AND DO YOU FIND THE FEATHERS?
OH, MY GOD, THERESA.
YES.
SINCE HE PASSED, I FIND THESE FEATHERS
OUTSIDE, INSIDE, RANDOMLY.
BUT WHEN I WOULD FIND THESE, I WOULD THINK OF HIM.
I DON'T KNOW WHAT THE REASON WAS.
SO, KNOW THAT THE FEATHERS
IS A CLEAR SIGN AND SYMBOL FROM YOUR HUSBAND
THAT HE IS WITH YOU AT THESE EXACT MOMENTS
AND THAT HE IS REASSURING YOU, "I'M HERE, I'M OKAY."
BEFORE THERESA CAME,
I SAID TO HIM -- AND I SAID IT OUT LOUD --
"TOM, IF YOU ARE GOING TO COME THROUGH,
IF THIS IS YOU, BRING UP THE FEATHERS."
SO THAT WAS PRETTY AMAZING, BECAUSE NO ONE KNOWS ABOUT THAT.
HE DID FIGHT. DO YOU UNDERSTAND THAT?
ABSOLUTELY.
AND HE WOULD HAVE STAYED IF HE COULD.
HE SAYS, "I WANT HER TO START DOING THINGS
THAT MAKE HER FEEL COMPLETE,"
AND THAT WITH EVERY BREATH THAT YOU AND THE BOYS TAKE,
KNOW THAT HIS SOUL IS WITH YOU.
I FEEL SO AT PEACE.
YOU KNOW, I JUST FEEL LIKE EVERYTHING IS GONNA BE OKAY.
AND I WISH YOU AND YOUR FAMILY A VERY MERRY CHRISTMAS.
THANK YOU. YOU TOO. THANK YOU.
OH, MY GOD! [ LAUGHS ]
HI! MERRY CHRISTMAS!
OH, I MISSED YOU GUYS.
SO, ALWAYS A PLEASURE.
YEAH, GOOD TO SEE YOU.
WELL, THE FIRST TIME I WAS OVER HERE
WAS JUST THE FIRST TIME THAT I EVER CHANNELED BRIAN
AND ALSO THE FIRST TIME I EVER CHANNELED A CHILD.
DO YOU STILL HAVE HIS BICYCLE IN THE GARAGE?
YEAH. [ LAUGHS ]
I SAID TO HIM -- I SAID, "BRIAN," I SAID,
"WHY ARE WE TALKING ABOUT THAT?"
AND HE SAID, "I WANT ALWAYS TO REMIND MY PARENTS
OF ALL OF THE THINGS THAT I DID ACCOMPLISH."
HE KEEPS GOING TO THIS BOX.
THE SUITCASE.
I HAVE EVERYTHING IN THERE,
AND I'VE NEVER OPENED IT SINCE.
FROM THE VACATION? YES.
ALL THE THINGS THAT HE PACKED.
AND HE LOOKED AT ME AND HE SAID, "THERESA,"
HE SAID, "BECAUSE THOSE WERE ALL MY FAVORITE THINGS."
YES. THEY WERE.
HE SAID, "I TOOK EVERYTHING THAT WAS MY FAVORITE."
HE DID.
EVEN NOW, IT'S ALWAYS JUST YESTERDAY THAT IT HAPPENED.
HE WAS MY LITTLE GUY, AND HE WAS GONE.
AND MY LIFE WAS OVER.
HE'S LIKE, "THERESA," HE GOES, "ALL THE READINGS
WERE HELPING MY FAMILY GET THROUGH WHAT THEY NEEDED."
YES, HE HELPED US THROUGH THE WHOLE THING.
YOU DID, HE DID. HE WAS AMAZING.
HE SAYS, "I AM A BIG BOY.
AND THAT WAS THE RIGHT DECISION
TO LET ME BE BIG
AND GO IN THE 2 1/2-FEET WATER
BY MYSELF.
[ SOBS ]
WHATEVER HAPPENS IN MY LIFE,
THAT I ALWAYS HAVE BRIAN WITH ME.
AND EVERYTHING THAT I DO IN MY LIFE,
I KNOW BRIAN IS THERE HELPING ME AND GUIDING ME.
AND I AM ALWAYS SO THANKFUL FOR HIM.
HE WAS -- HE'S A GIFT. YEAH.
ABSOLUTELY.
AND AS MUCH AS HE WAS A GIFT AS YOUR SON,
I CONSIDER BRIAN LIKE MY SON.
I DIDN'T EXPECT ANY OF THIS.
Woman: OUR READING WITH THERESA AT CHRISTMASTIME
IS A BEAUTIFUL GIFT. THAT'S HOW WE LOOK AT IT.
IT'S TIME FOR US TO SIT WITH OUR LITTLE GUY,
ALTHOUGH HE'S NOT LITTLE,
AND, UM, AND JUST CONNECT.
AND IT'S THE MOST PRECIOUS GIFT
THAT ANYONE COULD EVER HAVE.
AWW, MERRY CHRISTMAS.
WE KNOW THAT BRIAN IS THERE WITH US
ON CHRISTMAS DAY, SO IT MAKES US, UH,
FEEL LIKE WE'RE ALL TOGETHER.