I always like to be out in the barn and work with the horses
than, like, being inside.
My mom always told me that I'm the tomboy.
And I was.
Like, I always liked to--
I'd more rather, like, do boy's work than girl's work.
[MUSIC PLAYING]
This is where I put my makeup so my mom won't find it.
I got some eye stuff and lipstick.
I like my makeup, and that is a big no no for the Amish.
And it makes me feel, like, so glamorous if I put
makeup on and stuff like that.
I want to leave the Amish because all we do,
really, is work and sleep, and we're not allowed
to really go out and have fun.
We live a strict and simple life to be closer to God.
I never been to the beach, and I never, like, saw the ocean.
And I never even had a bathing suit on.
I really want to, like, go and try those things out.
I'm going to go to Florida with Maureen.
It's a really hard decision to make because you don't
get to see your family anymore.
You don't get to see, like, your nieces and nephews.
My biggest fear is, like, I'll get,
like, shunned or my parents won't talk to me anymore.
They'll just consider me, like, not their child.
Like, that's the biggest part that I'm afraid of.
I don't even think you understand.
When I leave, nothing will ever be the same.
I'm going to put feed in here for the horses
because I'm going to be leaving for Florida,
and I want to try and get my chores all done before I leave.
I'm going to go in and tell my mom what I'm doing,
and then I'm going to get my stuff and leave.
[MUSIC PLAYING]
[VIOLIN MUSIC PLAYING]
This might be the last time I'll be allowed to come home,
but I just don't want to be Amish anymore,
and I think I'm making the right decision to leave.
I'm what the English would call a feminist because I can
take care of my own self, but all my life I was told I'm
only good enough to be a wife and a mother.
I feel like I can do so much more.
Like, that's why I don't want to be Amish anymore.
Today, I have a date with Nick, and I'm so excited.
I never had a date before or a date with an English boy.
This is exactly what I want in the English world is
to be the girl that goes out on a date
with the boy that likes me.
(SINGING) I think of days when we were young, lying together
beneath the summer sun.
We're here.
I think it's going to be a lot of fun.
Nick picked me up to play miniature golf.
I never really played it, but he said he'll learn me
how to play, and I'm excited to try it because it's something
that I've never done before.
I hope you know I'm about to be very competitive.
- Oh, yeah? - Oh, yeah.
And I don't know how, so.
Like, I know, like, kind of how.
I never played it, but, like, people told me about it.
Yeah, sure.
Ooh. Too powerful.
You got those big muscles.
I swear, you're better at this than me already.
You got a lot of hidden talents.
Good at golf.
Pretty.
I think that was, like, the way
he went, like, to it to let me win so he
can tell me how amazing I am.
So you having fun so far?
Oh, yeah.
NICK: Oh.
Come on, grow up, dude.
Real mature.
You're a big tough guy.
Nice.
Nick is really jealous because someone
told me they liked my dress, and he flipped out on him.
I'm sorry about that.
You shouldn't have to deal with that type of stuff.
That guy's just a stupid jerk.
I don't care.
Ooh.
Nice and easy.
Beautiful, beautiful shot.
Not as beautiful as you, but a beautiful shot.
Oh, look, our balls are kissing.
Maybe that's a sign.
I don't think so.
No?
No.
Sometimes these lines work on English girls,
but I guess not on you.
I'm smart, like, I know what's weird and what's not weird.
Hey, there we go.
All right. We finished.
We're done.
One high five.
There we go.
Wasn't too bad, right?
No.
Gosh, you really are so pretty, though.
Oh, thank you.
Can I give you a kiss?
No.
Oh.
Yeah, no.
I did have fun, but he was trying too hard to,
I think, to turn me on or something.
Our balls are kissing.
Can I kiss you?
You're so pretty.
Look, I'm sorry.
I really am.
Oh, it's OK.
It was just-- it's just awkward.
I had some fun, but it was not for me.
I think I moved a little too fast.
It's just a cultural difference that I
really didn't fully understand, but I'm happy to know now.
And I wish I didn't cross those boundaries.
The Bishop always said that guys are only after sex,
and I think he was right.
If I ever hang out with him again,
I hope Claudia is, like, with us because I'm not going
to hang out with him by myself.
[MUSIC PLAYING]
I had to go tell my mom that I'm leaving the Amish.
I don't know, like, how she's going to react to it.
I was so relieved because, like, some parents,
like, don't have anything to do with their children.
Like, they wouldn't let them come home or anything.
But my mom said I would be allowed
to go home and visit and stuff.
I called Claudia to help me.
And when Claudia told me that she has friends that will do
my makeover, I was so nervous, but I'm excited because people
can't see who I really am in this dress,
and I'm never going to fit into English
until I look like they do.
Whatever you want, they can do for you.
I'm very excited.
I know, it's going to be so fun.
Feels kind of weird, like--
[LAUGHTER]
It's definitely a weird feeling.
Filing's always the weirdest part.
Do you like your nails?
Oh my gosh, yeah.
I really like them. - I love them.
They're so fun.
So we could do your makeup if you want?
Yeah.
OK.
How does it feel?
Yeah, it is cold.
Cold, right?
You already look like you're glowing.
Look at you.
It feels so great to have a group of friends
like Claudia and her friends.
I never had a group of friends that made me feel so special.
Well, we can take your cap off.
This is so exciting.
OK, are you ready?
One, two, three.
[GASPS]
Oh my god, that's so pretty.
It looks good.
Gorgeous on you.
It looks so good.
So good.
I think I like this one.
You like it?
Yeah, I really--
Beautiful.
It complements your makeup so well.
And it--
Do you want to see yourself now?
Come on.
Yeah.
Wow.
I look a lot different.
I like my hair, like, curly.
Like, I never had it like this, and, like, makeup.
We were never allowed to wear, like, short dresses.
Gorgeous.
This is now how I want it to look for, like--
Oh my god.
Oh my goodness.
Looking completely different.
You look beautiful.
Wow.
Rosanna is hot.
She looks absolutely gorgeous.
You look like a totally different person.
You're actually smiling.
[LAUGHTER]
When Rosanna came out dressed English,
she had a huge smile on her face for the first time
since we met her.
It's just, like, I feel like myself now.
This is you.
Yeah.
This moment, as I stand here, I finally feel like the real me,
an English girl named Rosanna.