(melancholy music)
(Julie exhales)
- I don't even know how to do this.
Hey, everybody.
I have tried to make this video
several times
and I just couldn't find the words.
(Julie exhales)
I just,
I wanna hold myself
accountable to me,
and you,
and I owe it to you and me,
to take responsibility for my actions.
(Julie exhales)
I wanna pre-apologize to you
for what I did in the future.
I haven't technically done it yet,
but I just,
I wanted to cover my bases
and kinda get ahead of it,
in case something came out, (sniffs)
because it seems like these videos
are kind of like a best practices
for YouTubers getting out of jail free, so...
(Julie crying)
So I figure it would just be best
if I just had one.
And I don't know who you are.
I mean, maybe we've met,
or maybe we haven't,
and I don't know what I did
so it's not like I can prevent it right now
'cause I'm just, like,
kind of like stabbing in the dark a little bit.
Like, I don't know if I accidentally tripped you,
or, like, I tweeted the wrong thing,
or, (sniffs) or maybe I, like, spit in your coffee
'cause I was really worked up about something.
And I'm so sorry. (crying)
I was dumb and I was naive.
Probably I probably still will be 'cause I am now.
So that's not likely to change in the future
but I promise you
that I am not that same person anymore.
I'm about to be,
and then afterwards, I will not be.
And I will prove to you
that I am better than that.
I am not that person anymore.
Right now, I'm not,
because I'm not there yet.
And then afterwards I won't be because I will work at it.
I would not be here without you guys.
You have been so supportive of me.
Like, when I launched my merch last week,
you headed over to julienolke.com
and you bought a ton of it.
This is just an example of a cute shirt
that you could get over there.
And I'm just so grateful.
But this is this isn't about me.
This is about the people, or person,
that I hurt for some...
It's for what I did, or should have done,
or maybe did a little bit too late,
or maybe I did it too early
and then that caused the issue.
It's really tough to know at this point,
but I just am truly sorry.
(poignant music)
So I hope you can forgive me.
And if you have time,
and you feel so inclined,
you can head to julienolke.com.
But I'm not,
this isn't about me.
This is about my apology.
(gentle poignant music)
(camera clicks)
(playful jaunty music)
All right, glad I got that out of the way.
Now I can thank today's sponsor
who I'm a huge fan of.
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That's BetterHelp, H-E-L-P.
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They're doing this one.
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Thank you so much to BetterHelp
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Thank you guys for watching.
Remember to like and subscribe.
Head over to julienolke.com
(Julie giggling)
for some of my merch
and I'll see you next week.
(playful jaunty music)