Let's talk about the loss of this.
I mean, everyone expected you to win.
I expected you.
I mean, the world expected, you expected to win.
So going into it, what was different?
Like, were you, did you feel good going in, or
was there something different this time?
>> I mean, it's always crazy going into every fight, you know?
There's always so much chaos and so many things going on and.
Things weren't perfect, they never are and I think the one thing that I was different
was it was my third title fight in nine months and I don't think anyone has
ever even attempted that before and- >> That's a lot
>> Yeah, but I don't make any excuses or
anything like that I mean I've fought in worse conditions but
I think the one thing that I know that is different is I kinda felt tired but
other than that I've been more tired, I guess, I just.
>> So when you get hit that hard, what happens to you?
Like, do you feel it at the time or there's so
much adrenaline you don't feel it.
>> Well, I got hooked in the >> Like the first exchange, so,
I was knocked out on my feet like the first time I got hit, and
>> That must have surprised you?
>> Well, it's hard to really know what's going on, and so, on that first hit,
I cut open my whole mouth and I knocked my teeth loose and, you know, guys fight for
five five minute rounds, they're teeing off in each other's faces the whole
time and nothing like that happens and there's just destiny and
it had to go down that way and.
It was weird that I had like, no perception of like,
I felt like almost like I couldn't see, like I can see but I couldn't.
So, like how far my hand was on my face or how far she was for
me like when you sit you're not moving and
you're still not aware of where your body is that's like a part of your brain that's
telling you where you are in space and it was like that kind of turned off.
I was like swinging blindly, I knew she was out there but
like it was I don't really remember most of that.
>> That must have been really scary then because you are aware that that's
happening and also that's like in a split second you are aware that and
you're still trying to protect yourself.
>> Well, you are aware of that and
you have to try not to make it peers that for her.
>> Right. >> Because if someone can tell,
then they're gonna swarm in on you.
And so I was trying my best to kinda hide the fact that I wasn't even there anymore.
>> So, how long does a headache last after you're hit like that?
Do you have a headache still?
>> No. [LAUGH] I didn't have a headache at all.
It's not about pain or things happening.
It's just, things stop working.
You know?
My brain stopped working properly, and my teeth didn't really work that properly.
>> And how was it that your brain was not aware of that?
How long did that take to settle down?
>> Probably til like the next morning.
>> Wow, I mean did you worry for a minute, could this be permanent?
Did I really hurt myself?
And maybe I won't do this again.
No, to be honestly, in my thought,
in the medical room when I was down in the corner I was like,
what am I anymore if I'm not this?
Literally sitting there and like thinking about killing myself and
then exact second I'm like, I'm nothing.
I'm like, what do I do anymore?
And, no one gives a, I mean without this sending.
To be honest, I looked up and I saw my man.
Travis is standing there.
And I was looked up and I haven't.
I was just like I need to have his babies.
I need to stay alive.
>> [LAUGH].
I was like, I really that was it.
>> [APPLAUSE] >> You need to stay alive.
>> [APPLAUSE] >> And I hadn't told anybody that.
I think I would have told him that.
But that was what I was thinking.
Like, I was meant to have him when I was at my lowest for sure.
>> Yeah. >> I don't know if I would have
made it without him.
>> To have that support system, sure.
That makes, it breaks my heart to hear.
Anybody looking at you, you're such a brave woman and so many ways and so
obviously strong, physically and mentally to do what you do, so to hear you
say that, I actually think it's a really great thing and I grateful that you
say that cuz there are lot of people out there that have thoughts like that.
And they're looking at you going, wow, if she can have thoughts like that.
So you just did a lot of good for a lot of people.
So thank you for saying that.
>> [APPLAUSE] >> [LAUGH] Well, you know?
I did a lot of thinking, and I'm like, why did this happen?
Why does this have to happen like this?
Cuz I do believe all the best things from the worst things.
Every worst thing that happened in my life, it resulted in the absolute best
things, and I'm trying to think, what is the reason of all this?
And I'm thinking like what my actual purpose is,
and maybe just winning all the time isn't what's best for everybody.
And I felt like maybe my role is,
everyone has their moment of picking themselves off the floor.
And I'd gone through several of mine, but no one had actually seen me go through it.
And maybe I just had to be that example, picking myself off the floor for everyone.
And maybe that's what I'm meant for.
And I really do believe I'm still undefeated because being defeated is
a choice, everybody has losses in their life but I choose to always be undefeated.
>> [APPLAUSE] >> Good for
you, good for you.
So, this is, so you're going to fight again, clearly,
that's what you're saying, and who do you want to fight next?
>> Of course I want to fight Holly.
>> Right. >> I want to beat her, and
make everything right again.
>> So Holly's gonna fight somebody else next, and so
I'm assuming you want Holly to beat that person so that no one else beats Holly.
>> Of course, I want to be the one to beat her.
>> Right, okay, so poor Holly, look out, I mean.
>> I don't feel bad for her at all.
>> Yeah, all right.
Well, listen, I think you're amazing and you know that.
I told you the last time you were here.
But you just won me over even more.
You know, I think showing vulnerability and showing that just because
you're strong doesn't mean you have a soft side and a vulnerable side.
And I think it's important to have both.
You can't, if you're just strong, you're not a human being.
We all have everything that you're showing.
So thank you for showing that.
We have to take a break, and we'll come back and
talk about this amazing sports Illustrated.
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