How do you talk about this I really don't know I'm just gonna dive into it
I decided to share my whole experience about egg freezing with you guys.
So here's my story.
This is where the doctor will be able to see my uterus.
He uses that thing to put in my you-know-what.
Diagram recording says: In the area just below or to the side of belly button.
Here goes! You have to insert it at a 45 to 90 degree angle.
And then press down on the medication
For the most part the needles are about this size.
Can you see them? These are all packaged. I haven't opened them yet.
So listen, if you decide to do cryo egg preservation and you're scared of needles...
you're fucked.
The IVF stuff is going pretty well.
I'm definitely getting fatter because of
(A) lack of exercise and (2) the hormones tend to have that effect on you
I was crying a little bit ago because the hormones kind of started to get to me
Umm, so I'm emotional for no reason.
Listen, you're pumping yourself with like a lot of hormones it can be like an
an emotionally fragile time for you so my advice is just to like stay active make
plans with people. Don't become a couch potato.
I'm here at the fertility center. Week 2 of preservation.
Going into to week 2 is when shit really starts to get real so
So I'm about to have follicles checked out to see how big they are. They want them to be
a certain size before the actual retrieval day, so you're getting constantly
monitored to see how much they're growing inside.
The other side of this is getting my blood drawn pretty much every time I'm here by the sweetest nurses ever.
Umm, you're in pain from all the shots and just like the medicine actually makes
you feel really tight and stiff in your abdomen.
How does it feel? (sings) Under pressure. It's like everything from here down
is going into like pop or just explode at any moment.
To this day, I am twenty thousand dollars in the hole from egg freezing.
I've nearly squared up on all my expenses and bills.
I'm not exaggerting here, every time I've had
do shots or have any medication delivered by the pharmacy that does all
of that, it's between $500 to $1,000 a night just for my meds.
Today is the day, the day of my egg retrieval.
I wanted to ensure that I could have the healthiest
baby possible and that's how I really got into this.
Let's just say I'm ready to get back to my normal life and just feel like me.
Are you nervous?
YES.
Just want to make sure that it works because I cannot imagine going through this again.
I'm sure everything will be okay
I'm reading gossip on DailyMail to calm me down.
I'm nervous.
So how you feeling? A little woozy but otherwise okay. It went by so fast
I don't know I'm just like once I got the anesthesia I was out.
Yeah it was so quick, I didn't think I would be asked to come back so quick.
How long were you waiting? It felt like five minutes.
But it was probably like, I don't know, 15 minutes, maybe.
That is crazy.
So where are you now? What was it like?
I'm at home now. The whole thing actually went by pretty quickly once I
got into the surgery room and it seemed to be over in just a few minutes but
they say that the actual retrieval takes around 15 minutes and then you have
about an hour while you, you know, come-to and come back to your senses.
so really kind of like, the longest part is is having the anesthesia wear off.
It was really easy. I think the toughest part was everything leading up to it.
The only pain that I feel is like some cramping and tension in my abdominal area.
I did find out roughly how many eggs they got but they're still telling me it's not
confirmed until the nurse or doctor calls me a little bit
later today. It's weird...it's super weird
So you're probably wondering, after all of that, what was the result
Well, my doctor was able to retrieve eight eggs and of those eight eggs seven
were mature eggs. So, seven of my eggs were frozen to be potentially used to
have a baby when I'm good and ready to do it. The only problem though because
this isn't totally a happy ending here, is that seven eggs isn't really enough
in my doctor's opinion. He thinks that I should have between 12 to 15 eggs, which
is pretty much what every doctor will tell you to have the best chances to
have a baby. But at my age seven eggs it's like kind of normal because as you
get older you produce fewer eggs. So I'm left with this question of whether I do
another round of egg freezing and go through all of that all over again...
to have an egg Bank of hopefully twelve or more. I know that all sounds really
complicated. It sounds really complicated and a lot
to me and it's taken me a lot of time to like really think about and process.
I don't know if I want to spend another twenty thousand dollars. I don't know if
I want to emotionally, physically and mentally go through that whole process again.
I don't know if it's really gonna help me have a baby in the end. So it's a
lot and I'm not gonna pretend like I've made a decision at
this moment. But I did want to you know encapsulate this whole
experience for you so that you know what truly is involved. It's not like you
freeze your eggs and it's over and you're good to go. It's not at all that.
It's always a gamble with egg freezing. There is no guarantee and that's
important for you to know because a lot of people hide that from women
So anyway, I do you think this was a positive experience for me. I'm not sure what I'm
going to do but what I want to do is wish you if you're on this journey the
best, most amazing experience that you possibly have. And I hope that you get a
lot of eggs out of your retrieval. And if you don't, listen, don't give up. Just make
sure that whatever decision that you make for yourself, your body, with your
partner, alone if you don't have a partner, is what makes you happy at the
end of the day. That's all that matters.