I guess more left brained part of you which is logical and smart knows that you're gonna
be okay, and knows that you can physically get out of bed, and that you're physically
going to live without that person.
Or even though you're going through a dark time, but the other side of you that overpowers
it just busts through, like no you won't!
And it takes over.
I remember I just sat down in the pitch black in the bathroom of my parents’ house.
I just got my guitar and just started singing this song.
As just, I don't know, almost like a nudge to myself, but also an acknowledgment of the
fact that things do or will get better one day.
Although I didn't see the light at the end of the tunnel, or I didn't even know where
to look for it, just the idea that there would one day be one is what helps me cope with things.
I was honestly afraid that I was gonna be in that place forever.
You kind of feel like you're spiraling, and I just remember not being able to get out
of bed, and feeling like I was being physically chained there.
Everything felt heavy.
It's a scary feeling, cause you kind of have to re-evaluate your entire life.
Therapy is an amazing thing, and it has taught me so much, but it also ... there's also that
little bit of pride in me, when I wrote that line.
It’s like, one day I won't need someone to sit me down and be like, “This is how
you're feeling.”
I wanna know how I'm feeling and I wanna be okay to figure it out on my own.
I talk to a lot of adults who have happy, good lives, and I always ask them, what the
key to it is.
They always tell me that it’s so simple, and once you find it, it’s easy.
So I'm still searching.
The usual thing when someone is sad, I would think, or at least for me, growing up, would
just be to fall asleep.
Going to sleep, or at least a deep enough sleep requires like turning everything off
and relaxing, and I couldn't do that.
I was just constantly worrying and thinking.
Time is ultimately the one factor, or at least the biggest factor that will help you get
through anything.
It takes you to a place where you can think about things in hindsight or like from a bird’s
eye view, and they just don't affect you the same way anymore.
King is even like bigger than the queen.
Like I don't wanna be the queen of misery management, I wanna be the king of misery
management.
Like I wanna be so good at handling my emotions that, there's nothing above that.
I think with every situation, whether it's a break up, or just something you're going through.
It's not gonna be right away, but piece by piece you'll get back to a place where you're
okay.
And you'll come back stronger too.
Jollities is the plural for jollity, which means like, the act or like the feeling of
being jolly or joyful.
I think it's a funny word.
It rhymed, and I like that people ask about, cause now they learn a new word.
Healing is not something that happens over night, and it's definitely not something that
happens all at once.
You know, you're gonna have days where you feel you're taking a couple steps back, some
days will feel like a million steps forward.
It’s very different for everybody.
Again, it just goes back to being hopeful, like you gotta hope that it'll be easy, because
if not, then what's the point of looking forward to anything.