H: Hello
H: I am taking a bath
H: As you can tell from the title of this video, I've been feeling really burnt out
H: And I'm sure a lot of you can relate to that
H: The past few years have been difficult for a lot of people
H: And that's obviously one of the reasons that I'm feeling burnt out
H: I'm sure all of us are feeling burnt out from everything that's been going on
H: In the world, but there's also personal reasons that I'm feeling burnt out
H: And it's probably not what a lot of you think it's going to be
H: So we're gonna talk about it today in our video, Shane is going to join me
H: To talk about it after my bath, but I'm here, I have my candle
H: I have my switch for my videogames, I have a book
H: I have my bubble bath that's in the bath with me
H: I am ready to relax, so I'm gonna do that
H: If you are feeling burnt out I encourage you to maybe take a bath while you watch this video
H: You can do whatever you want, but it is awfully nice
H: And then we'll talk about my behavior the last couple of days
H: And why it has been that way
S: Hello, burnt out beyba H: Aw, is that my name?
S: Yeah, the other day, a couple days ago, Hannah said to me
S: Proclaimed to me, "I am never making another Youtube video again"
S: "I'm done, I'm over it, I'm done, I'm so over everything"
H: Yes S: Something to that effect
H: It wasn't really a proclamation, it was kind of like a wail, I was wailing
S: A wail, and not a decree, but I hadn't heard that from her in like... years
S: She used to feel that way when we began the channel
S: And we were experiencing people being mean to us for the first time
S: Back then, every once in a while, you'd be like, "I'm done, I'm over it"
S: So, something is going on, to resurface those feelings
H: Yeah, and it's not really a mystery, I know exactly what it is
H: But there's a combination of things, it's a mixture of things
H: So where do I begin? S: It began a few days ago
H: Yeah, this thing that Shane's talking about was a very specific incident
H: Like there's probably one person that I can point to that did this to me
H: But it was right after we posted the video of us chatting in bed
S: Which, I should say, we're doing Vlogmas and daily videos by themselves
S: Have been a big source of stress H: Yeah
S: Getting them done, so on that day that we posted the in bed video
H: I was already tired cause I'd edited a whole video already
S: Uh huh H: Along with all the other stuff we're doing
H: Oh, okay, then there's Chloe
H: Along with all the other stuff we're doing, it's a huge, huge thing
H: So I was already stressed, but we film this video, it's fun
H: It's just a very relaxed video, easiest thing we could film
S: And it was so natural because you just got that speeding ticket
S: And we came in and we were like oh man, so annoying
H: Yeah, exactly, I mean that was also annoying
H: So I was annoyed about the speeding ticket, but I was just tired
H: So we filmed that video, it was funny, we put it up
H: And I was reading the comments
H: This is like the first video I've read the comments for, I don't know why
S: In a while, yeah H: In a while
H: I just don't usually read the comments on Youtube because they're generally not...
H: I'll see a couple of negative ones and it'll really upset me
H: So I just avoid them, so I was reading the comments
H: I think I did that because I thought the video of us chatting in bed
H: Was so not controversial S: Yeah, innocent
H: Yes, such a "this is literally just us for 10 minutes being ourselves"
H: "There's no topic, we're not telling you to do something"
S: It's like we were having a conversation with our friends
H: Well, I'm gonna get to that
H: So basically, I'm confident about this video, which was really fun
H: And I see comments from people being so utterly rude
H: Like ruder than I could ever imagine being to another person
H: And I have never gone online and left a rude comment on a video
H: And I'm not talking about people saying that we're fake, Shane is gross
H: That is not what I am talking about, I am talking about people saying things like
H: "You deserve a ticket, get over it, what an entitled little brat you're being"
H: "Get over the ticket, stop talking about it, it's so obnoxious"
S: "Follow the law", you know?
H: Yeah, and the thing is, we film these videos as if we're talking to our friends
H: That's what we're doing, and we get a lot of feedback from people
H: And it reinforces that, and we feel like we're friends with you guys
H: And you feel like you're friends with us and it's great
H: But when you talk to your friends and you get obnoxious, rude and nasty responses
H: You don't want to be friends anymore, right?
H: Like there's only so many times that I can like "oh my god, I got a speeding ticket"
H: Which is a very normal reaction
H: In my friend group we don't go "you know what? I deserve that speeding ticket"
H: "I'm just gonna smile and be happy to pay to the law"... what the fu--
S: I felt a slight Southern accent H: That's what both of us do
H: We put on a Southern accent, I don't know any other accents
H: So that is not what I'm gonna say, because I'm not talking to a police officer
H: I am talking to the camera in my bedroom
S: And you were genuinely annoyed about getting a ticket from a camera that you didn't see
H: In the mail, that I didn't know about S: Very reasonable
H: Did I say "I will not be paying this ticket?" No
S: Alright, now we're getting into it H: Anyway, I'm just saying
H: People were upset that I was upset about the ticket
S: And they expressed it in as rude of a manner as possible
H: That's the thing, I can't imagine going up to one of the friends I have in person
H: And saying "I got this speeding ticket and it is so annoying"
H: And them going "get over it" S: "You're being a privileged little brat"
H: I wouldn't be friends with them anymore, do you know what I'm saying?
H: So now I have to make this video knowing that there are those people
H: That I don't want to be friends with, and I'm talking to them
H: So it's just really difficult for me to talk to, the people that were really nice
H: And the people that I want to talk to and want to be friends with
H: When I also know that the nasty people that I don't understand
H: Are on the other side S: Yes
S: I think big picture, Hannah's been feeling the criticism and rudeness
S: From people more lately, and that led to the video that we put out yesterday
S: Which was like things that we wished people understood about us better
H: Yeah S: Or I think we called it, I'm not his mom
H: It was like a quote from the video
H: Yeah, I did not read the comments on that video so I have no idea
H: What any of you said, I'm sure most of it was nice
H: But I'm sure some of you are not lovely, I don't know, I deleted the app off my phone
H: This day where I was like "I'm never making another video", Shane was like
H: "Just delete the app off your phone", because I do like the making video process
H: And editing and all of that, it's just I can't deal with the people
S: And you know that overall, it's mostly positive, and we appreciate that
H: Yeah S: And what we're doing is important
H: And I want to do it S: And like you said, fun, yeah
H: And it's not even people that are saying we're fake
H: Those people honestly do not bother me because it's so absurd, like whatever
H: But the people who pretend to support us and then...
H: I just don't understand how you criticize someone in that rude of a way
H: Who does that? The tiniest little thing? S: And pick apart everything, yeah
H: I just don't understand, but then they'll be like, "seriously, love watching you guys"
H: "But this was just disgusting"... what? Why would you leave that comment?
H: I just don't understand S: Wait, I have a follow up question
H: Oh
S: How would you respond to what I know we're gonna receive for this
S: Which is, "well you're the one that wants to put your life online?"
H: Yeah S: "That's what you signed up for"
H: That's like saying, if you're getting bullied in school
H: And me going, well then you shouldn't go to school
H: You go to school, you know bullies are in schools, why are you complaining?
H: Like that's not the point, we're all humans on this earth
S: That's a good analogy, yeah
H: That doesn't mean that signs you up to be a victim of people being rude
H: Just don't be rude, that's just complete victim blaming
S: Completely
S: So let's try to keep the comments as positive as possible
H: And if you have a problem, at least be polite about it
H: If you have a genuine problem, be polite
H: But if it's just to tell us that I look ugly that day, or Shane sounded weird
H: Or you think that my shirt is hideous or you think that he talked over me too much
H: Just those kinds of things, they're just not constructive
H: And I honestly won't be reading it so you can write whatever you want
S: But I will, I'll still be reading, so keep it nice for me please
H: Keep it nice for Shane
S: So this is Hannah's birthday weekend and we've been trying to have just
S: A more relaxed fun time, so that we can get her back out of feeling burnt out
H: Get my mood back up there, yeah
S: Which is hard because we're still doing daily videos, but we are challenging ourselves
S: To do that H: And something interesting about
H: The whole being burnt out thing is, a lot of days I'll get messages from people
H: This is also in comments, I'm sure most of you have probably seen things like this
H: But I'll get literal messages from people warning me, I mean some of them are nasty
H: And some of them are under the guise of trying to protect me, it's a wide range
H: But it's basically people being like "you shouldn't be with Shane"
H: "Because he is going to burn you out, there's no way that you can take care of him"
H: "And be happy, there's no way that you could ever have kids, he's such a burden"
H: All of these messages S: Makes me feel really great
S: Just picks me up H: Uh huh
H: And I think it's interesting because those messages and these people
H: Are the things that are burning me out
H: I do not get burnt out in my relationship with Shane, I have never felt burnt out from that
H: But message after message is such a burden
H: And I'm like why are these people... it's the ultimate irony
H: For them to be repeatedly telling me that I am going to get burnt out by Shane
H: When I'm like "oh my god, I can't deal with another one of your messages", you know?
S: [laughs] That is the ultimate irony H: It really is
S: Maybe that's the title of this video
H: I don't think that's going to be a clear enough title
S: The ultimate irony H: The ultimate irony
S: Hannah's burn out H: Yeah, it's a long one
S: Alright, so that's where we're at H: I do feel better today
H: Which is why we're making this video
H: Yesterday I wasn't speaking out loud, I was just like a lump, poor Shane
S: Yeah, it's been really fun, it's been a fun weekend
H: No one ever messages Shane
H: Telling him that he's gonna regret his relationship with me
S: People are afraid to say things like that to me because of my wheelchair
S: I have a feeling
H: And because they don't think that I am a burden
S: Yeah
H: Because they don't know that I'm like rolling around the house moaning
H: And crying S: You should see the burden that I bear
S: Anyway, we're gonna go play in the snow
H: Wow S: And then have dinner
S: And then watch a movie H: Yeah
S: And then tomorrow's your birthday H: Tomorrow's my birthday, I'm excited
S: Happy pre-birthday
H: What video are we gonna do on my birthday?
S: Hannah's birthday extravaganza
H: Maybe we'll just film me having my apple pancakes, opening my presents
S: It's gonna be a documentary of your day H: [laughs] That'll be good, I like that
H: But see, this is so sad because I want to read the comments
H: I want to read comments S: Well I'll read you the good ones
H: We'll have a nightly reading where Shane will read me out loud nice comments
S: I do do that, I used to do that, we'll do that again
H: Yeah S: Alright everyone, leave a comment for Hannah
S: Make it nice H: To be read to me out loud
S: Please make it nice [laughs]
S: Alright, have a good day H: Bye