- And I remember a time when we lost our baby at 16 weeks
and Henry is a worship leader and he actually was due
to go worship somewhere.
And he's like no, I'll stay home with you.
And I said, no I think you really need to do this,
it was an important thing.
I said, I'll be fine.
And as we was driving to this event,
he's like, God, why, like why?
And then he just remembers the Father saying to him,
don't ask why Henry, don't ask why,
fill the why with worship. - Beautiful.
- Because right now your son,
- What a statement. - worshiping around the throne
I want you to worship with him.
And I think sometimes we only think worship is singing
because we love Him or we're just in a service
and we do the three songs, and I said,
there's a part of worship that connects us
to be intimate with the Father, mostly for me,
when I'm in my darkest hour.
I don't know if that's--
- Oh, it's beautiful.
- As you were even just saying that, I'm thinking,
when, between Catherine and Sophia,
I had a miscarriage as well, but I had a pregnancy.
We'd gone 13 weeks, I told everyone.
I remember I had gone and I was with Joyce,
my spiritual mum, you know, gone to see Mama Joyce
and I flew home all excited,
and we'd had our Hillsong conference
and Joyce was coming for the conference.
So she'd seen me, we're all excited,
you know, Chris is having another baby.
And I get home, and I had an appointment
to go to see the doctor just, and it was so rushed,
we had a conference coming up, Joyce is coming,
I'm hosting, doing all the other stuff that we do.
And I'll never forget lying on the bed
and doing the test, and the words you don't wanna hear.
You know, Mrs. Caine, we can't hear a heartbeat.
And I said, well there must be something wrong
with your machine, I mean it didn't even occur to me
that, it didn't even pass my brain.
Anyway it happened and I had to, you know,
wait a couple of days, Joyce flew in Sunday
and I had gone into surgery that day.
Came out, and I said to Nick, we're gonna go pick her up
and so we go straight to the--
from the hospital to the airport.
She comes, she's coming from the plane out through security
and immediately puts a hand on my stomach,
Chris, our baby, how's our ba--
'Cause we're all like, the whole world knew.
And I just, okay, so I'm stuck in that moment
and you can imagine, she's just so beautiful in that moment.
But we had the first night of the conference
and it was when Matt had written that song,
you give and take a away. - Wow.
- You give blessed be. - Yes.
- So I'll never forget it,
Joyce was gonna speak Monday night.
And I'm in the front row.
I couldn't even sing right, like I'm just,
I'm just out, I've still got the hospital band on my hand.
And everyone's like, so you can imagine how many,
congratulations, Chris, I'd had that day,
all the way through the thing.
All I can say though, this is the powerful.
All this is to go to the power of worship.
Certainly I know so many women are watching this program
and their pain is huge.
But this is why somehow despite how we feel,
if we can get into that zone.
'Cause I remember I couldn't even say the words,
like I couldn't.
I would just let it wash over me.
And then I don't know what happened,
and there's no natural explanation.
But over the course of that song
it would, I would begin mouthing just,
you give and take away, you give and--
I mean I cried out, just you know,
you give and take away, and still my soul
- That's right. - and blessed be.
And in this instant, as supernatural
as any supernatural encounter I had, I can't explain it,
Nick was standing next to me, Joyce was here,
just my tears are streaming down, my hands just went up.
I had gone from like grief (snaps fingers)
it was like it lifted, to a declaration,
you give, you take.
All I could say to you, is I walked out
a different human being. - That's right.
- I don't know how to explain that.
- So I think that's the currency of heaven.
- It is. - That, the raw worship
of declaring who God is in those moments.
I don't know if you guys have lost a baby,
we've all lost children.
I won't get into mine but I just remember
you can believe in miracles, I believe God can do
whatever he wants to do and to speak life
into the baby inside. - Totally.
- Inside your womb is, God can do it all.
But what do we do at those moments,
- That's right. - when we trust,
when you're told to trust.
Because we have such a small perspective
and we don't have what God sees.
You know, and some things will just never,
we're never gonna understand til he tells us
face to face. - That's right.
- But it's those places and those times, man,
when you don't understand and you worship anyway.
- That's right. - Whether it's worshiping
through serving, - Totally, totally, yeah.
- It's not just all music.
- Yeah, worship's a lifestyle.
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