- My phone always on do not disturb.
I don't really like picking up my phone,
I don't like texting for too long,
it'll give me anxiety.
I've been social distancing.
When I was making DND,
I was finishing up my album,
it's like the last song that I made for my album
and I know I needed something hard.
From "Die a Legend" I made a name
for making like heartfelt music
and real like sentimental music
so I just wanted to get them something
that was real hard but a mixture of both.
I was just thinking about like
in my neighborhood when stuff get turned up
whether it's a block party
or it's a altercation going on it's like
it's going to last for a nice little minute
before the police can get control of it.
I was just really thinking about
all the different type of people
that I encountered in life
and how I just know I want to stay away from them.
I done seen all different type of people,
rats,
snakes,
people that you just can't trust altogether,
so I just was being mindful
that I want to stay away from them type of people.
Going through the motions of being who I am,
seeing the real from the fake,
seeing how many people just latching onto me
because it's beneficial.
Sometimes I wish for a simpler time
where I can go outside
and only the people that know me
gon' walk up to me, like know me personally.
But now it's just a stranger,
complete stranger can walk in,
walk up to me and invade my personal space.
I named it DND because of the bar
that I put in there.
Make sure my phone on DND.
I keep my door closed,
it was just really wanting me
to give a reflection
of how I don't fuck with nobody.
Where we come from,
it's a lot of innocent bystanders get killed.
A lot of people just die on the daily.
It make it feel like
it's a dark cloud over the city.
For you to come out and
be in that type of atmosphere,
you can't really have too much fun
without thinking 'bout danger.
I used to come to school late all the time,
I'll miss a couple of my first period classes,
I'll come in and I'm late,
I just be high as shit
all in the back of the classroom.
I'm paying attention,
I don't do my homework a lot,
but I paid attention enough
so when it come down to test time that I'll pass.
As long as I was passing them,
I would pass the grade.
So I always did pretty good on
final exams and stuff like that.
Anything I do, it's somebody in the comments
or a vast majority of my comment section
probably that want to criticize me 'fore.
Not now though because
my fan base like rock with me heavy,
they show me love a lot, but.
If a blog posted or a media outlet posted,
then all in the comments it's nothing but negativity
and it's like they try to judge you
for every move that you make.
I'm telling my life more than anything
but then again I'm telling some other people life
at the same time.
It's like it's all a big connection on stories,
and what's your upbringing.
The street life ain't what it's cracked up to be.
When you in that and you ain't got no other choice,
it's like nobody can really save you for real.
Like you got to pull yourself out of that situation,
ain't no way out of that, for real ain't.
It ain't no looking back
when you really too deep into that stuff.
So I still feel like I got a lot of trauma
from my past situations that can't,
it don't necessarily just got to be street stuff.
It could just be just like the mental toll
certain situations took on me.
It still lingers on with me today,
I still have trouble dealing with it.
I've definitely used songs like this
as a like a therapy session for me.
I could be going through something in that moment
and when I
talk it out on the beat or write it down
it feel like a stress reliever.
Coming from where we from
everybody want to be like a hood legend
or everybody want hood fame.
Some people just naturally gain it,
and some people go out of they way for it.
But when you really be the mans
on the forefront with all of it,
you know it ain't all what it's made up to be.
I wake up every single day
trying to figure out like
what's the perfect mindset to have
or what's the perfect way to be.
I know nobody is perfect,
but it's just like trying to
really weave out my flaws mentally
like things that get in my way of growth.
Everyday that I wake up I got a agenda
to make myself a better person.