so in 2016 I started to not feel well I
started to have extreme stomach issues
and started going to the doctors my
pancreas was starting to fail so they
were putting me on medicine but then my
liver was my enzymes were really
becoming problematic and I just kept I
just was kind of avoiding the whole
issue because I was working very very
hard at the moment and so by 2017
I started ending up in the hospital on a
regular basis and my liver was failing
to the point that I ended up in in and
out of the hospital but then finally at
the end of April I ended up in a
hospital in Rochester New York for two
weeks and they basically told me I
needed a liver transplant they did not
know what was going on with me they did
not know why I was having severe pain
digestive they didn't have any idea why
my liver was failing so when I came home
from the hospital I was 82 pounds 90 85
90 around there and my yoga community
came to my house and several people sat
down with me and said you need to learn
Joe dispenses work and they showed me
his book and I'm looking at the book and
I said hold on a second and I go back
into my house we were on the porch at
that point I go back into the house and
I grab his book from my shelf a book I
had never read and don't even know who
gave it to me never opened it so I came
out and they're looking at me like so
you've read the book I go no I don't
know who gave it to me I don't know why
I had it so they started to show me
little youtube videos of his work they
started to teach me his you know just
seeing your future and I you know kind
of pushed it aside but then dabble in it
and they were on me so they were
beautiful people to do that and so when
I knew that I really needed a liver
transplant and that was it and they were
gonna put me on the list and I had to
now go to another hospital because the
one in Rochester told me if they gave if
they did the liver transplant I would
die because I had had a previous surgery
from a car accident in my
so they said if they did the liver
transplant 90% chance I would die sober
they were gonna send me to Cleveland
Clinic to see if that doctor would be
willing to do the transplant and all I
kept saying was I'm not a liver
transplant recipient over and over and
over and I'm said this isn't my life
this isn't my life this isn't what I
want I don't want to live this life and
I started and it was like end of July of
2017 and I just started doing the work
and I started meditating I started
envisioning my future and everybody that
came in contact with me had to talk to
me about my future and I would tell them
what my future is and then they would
have to talk to me about it so we're
going to Italy next year this is what
we're gonna do in Italy this is we're
gonna ride bikes we're gonna kayak and
over and over and over and the people
that refuse to do the work they would
say no I want to ask you how you are and
what's going on and I'd say I won't talk
to you and I for that month of August I
cut everybody out that couldn't do the
work with me and six hours a day that's
all I did was envision my future in pain
and tears and disbelief and throwing up
on a daily basis and I go to Cleveland
Clinic for my appointment and I was sure
that I was healing and the doctor who
really wasn't a doctor but he was a
healer the way he looked at me I knew in
his eyes that he knew that I could heal
myself he didn't say that but I could
just feel it and I could tell he was
talking to source I don't know why but
he would turn to the right when he would
think about something and he'd look at
me and I just knew he was talking to
somebody other than his inside of his
head and he said you have to stay here
and I have to put you on a nutritional
feeding tube and I looked at him I go no
this isn't my life and he said you have
to stay here you're gonna die and my
husband left me and I was furious
because I had done all this work for six
hours a day and I sat there and I go and
I wouldn't talk to anybody for the seven
days I was in the hospital I wouldn't
take any call and talk to any family or
friends I was in
pure anger and then the last two days of
the hospital visit I go no this isn't my
life there's a bigger future here
I went home on this nutritional in you
know infusion and I did the work and I
continued to do the work and then I
started to orchestrate what the next
doctor's visit would be and I stated
every single thing the doctor would do
say and how it would go he would hug me
when I walked in he would tell me I
would look great and this was all
everything I was telling myself and he
would say your blood work is normal I
don't know how you did it but I don't
want to see you for another year so I
just said it over and over I'd make my
husband say it we said it as we were
walking to his office and now my
husband's an engineer who doesn't
believe in a lot of this we walk in and
the doctor did every single thing I said
every word everybody in the room did
exactly what I said and the doctor
looked at me and he goes I don't know
how you did it I don't want to see you
for a year and we walked out my husband
goes I guess this is how life is now you
just predict things and then it just has
been happening ever since that I can
just say how visits are gonna go and
everything we did around my health from
then on I would just say no I'm gonna
walk into this doctor's visit and this
is what he's going to say and that's how
my life has been since then so that was
2017 and I'm normal I've never gone back
and I'm scared by the power that I've
had to heal myself and that is an
amazing feeling but once you know you
can heal yourself you know you can heal
others then