Okay, let's do this, baby. I'm pregnant. I am six months pregnant as of tomorrow. When you're
watching this video, tomorrow I'll be six months pregnant. And this channel, I know I talk a lot
about business, but also if you've been here a while, you know that I also have shared a lot
about my life. I'm a very private person. I've become more and more private as I've grown up.
But it would be very strange for me not to share this with you because there is
a sense of community and there is such a huge sense of family
on this channel. And I think also just being really transparent about this journey I think is
important. And I've learned so much and have such a deep respect for this process now that my goal
is also, I hope this makes, maybe if you're watching, you feel a little less alone in it,
maybe you can relate a little bit. And also I think it's hard to know what's
really going on behind the scenes for people, especially when people are private. And this
is a reminder for myself, but also for you, you have no idea what season of life people are in.
And this has come from one of the most difficult seasons of my life,
of my family's life, my husband and I and I wanted to share that too. And
hopefully it breeds a little more connection, a little more empathy for everyone around you.
And again, that's a reminder for me too. But I'll start back at the beginning. This whole
period of my life, it was a few months. It sort of feels like I disassociated from it. So it's
kind of the first time I'm really digesting it or processing it by talking about it in this forum.
But if you remember, I got married in 2020. It was a wedding we planned in one month.
It was really chaotic, but it turned into a really beautiful night and a really beautiful
start to our marriage. But the reason that we got married so fast, I didn't really share.
But my husband's father was diagnosed with cancer and he was given a very short timeline
to live. And so it was really important for us that he was at our wedding.
And the night of our wedding, he actually took a really drastic turn for the worse
and we didn't think that he was going to make it much longer.
He was able to see us get married, and then things got really bad. And then we were really like,
I would say, gifted time with him. And he ended up being with us for almost two more years.
And he ended up taking a very drastic turn for the worse in August.
And he passed on August 26th. So that was obviously a really hard time for our family.
And not too long after that, about a month after that, I
found out I was pregnant and then found out that I miscarried. That time
was one of the most challenging things I think I've ever been through, my husband
and I have ever been through. It was just a lot of sadness. It was a lot of grief at once,
and I still needed to show up. So I took my time, I digested, I processed in my own way.
I got the help that I needed. We got the help that we needed, but life had to continue.
And so I didn't realize how much it was going to affect me when I miscarried.
And it really, it crushed me. And it was really early. So I have heard so many stories now,
and I have so many friends who have been through infertility struggles, have found
other ways of becoming moms. And I just think whatever way is meant for you, respect. Because,
yeah, it's not easy. And I know I'm probably saying what a lot of you already know,
but it devastated me, obviously. It devastated my husband. It was also just such a crazy time
because we were dealing with layers, upon layers, upon layers of grief. And then October 29th,
I found out I was pregnant. And as I mentioned, I'm six months pregnant tomorrow. And I've kept
this very secretive and very private because I felt incredibly protective of myself, my heart,
my husband, my family that knew, because I felt a lot of fear. And it wasn't this big massive
celebration when I found out, to be totally honest with you, because I was like, I hope this works.
And I think that's important to talk about because I think oftentimes, especially on social media,
we see these big celebrations, these big reveals and all these things and
sometimes that's not the case. And it depends on the person and whatever's right for you is right
for you. I just had a lot of fear. I had a lot of nerves. And so the happy news is I am now at this
place on the journey. I won't lie, I still have my little moments. But I've really tried my best
to embrace the journey, embrace the process, embrace how I'm feeling, embrace my new body.
And I do feel a lot of peace and joy, but I also know that there is someone watching this right now
who is probably going through a far greater struggle than I've been through with this.
And I don't want this to come across by any means I'm trying to compare. I just wanted
to share my story because I found that when I talked about this with the people in my life,
especially the women in my life, in the early days of this happening, stories just kept coming out
of the woodwork. The amount of people I know who have had a loss, a pregnancy loss, is staggering.
And I don't know if it's something that feels normalized because it is so private and so
painful. So I just wanted to share that. So here we are. I'm so excited. I am so
overwhelmed. I am really just still a little bit in shock and feel like this is surreal
and just can't wait to meet the little human that we're growing. I know there's going to be some
questions. We don't know sex, gender, we don't know what's going on, but this will be a surprise.
And in addition to that, this whole process has just been such a ride to say the least.
And we were like, it's fitting, I think. And we both totally agreed,
it wasn't even really a conversation. We were like, we don't want to know. We just want to
be surprised and how we're so grateful that we're just going to have a baby.
And as far as the pregnancy and how it's gone, it's been knock on wood and please don't hate me,
it's been really smooth. I didn't have really any nausea. I was really exhausted the first
trimester, which I think is completely normal. I know it's completely normal,
but I feel good. I feel healthy. And I feel really grateful and really lucky at that. And it's given
me this wild new wave of just focus and clarity in terms of why I am here and my focus in what I
do and how much I love and appreciate the people I work with and my clients. And oh my goodness,
my clients are so incredible. I have clients who work with women on everything from fertility to
pelvic floor therapists, which I didn't even know that was a thing. And now I know that's a thing.
Breastfeeding, lactation, sleep consulting, there's a whole network of people that I
have helped create programs. And I'm like, I will be taking them.
So it's really cool that that's the community that we've built, and
it's just really exciting to know that there's like this new reignited, reinvigorated fire
inside of me for what I do. And hopefully making this little human even more proud of me
and of what my husband and I have created and who we are as people at this point in our lives. And
I know it's going to be challenging. I know that. I know it's going to be a journey. Ignorance is
not bliss at this stage for me. I'm sure in some ways it is. But I'm 35. We waited and
it was scary to do that, but I feel, and I know you never feel ready,
but I do feel ready for this chapter of my life and I'm really, really excited.
So yeah, I just wanted to share this with you because I've shared so much over the years.
And if you're new here, hi. Welcome to me bearing it all. And yeah, I hope this gives a
little insight to what this last year has been like behind the scenes of everything. I hope
it also gives you some insight to, you just never know what people are dealing with and
what they're going through, and if they're maybe in just a season of pure survival.
But yeah, just wanted to share that, wanted to share this update. And listen, I'm a sponge for
advice right now. I might regret saying that. But parents, any advice you got for me around how to
navigate this moving forward in terms of balancing it all, which I don't think balance really exists,
I'm all ears because I feel like I'm in for a doozy of an awakening.
Anyways, I love you guys. Thank you for being here. Thank you for watching. It's a very
different personal video, but here we go. New chapter, feels like a very full circle moment.