[music playing]
So now, I'm running.
And I have no plan.
And no idea where I was heading.
[screaming]
And my heart is literally just pounding through my chest
to the point where I think I'm actually
going to have a heart attack.
I just kept repeating to myself in my head I was like, I just--
I just can't get caught.
I can't get caught.
Stop!
I've got into sort of like this undergrowth.
And I was getting scratched all over my face and my arms.
[heartbeat thumping]
I've come out the other side.
And you know, I'm like a yard.
And I've seen a hole in the fence.
I'm halfway through this hole.
I think I'm going to make it.
[gun cocking]
And then I hear this voice.
Stop.
Don't move.
And at that point, I knew it was over.
I knew if I'd done any sort of sharp movements
and that he's probably going to pull the trigger, you know?
And I'd be dead.
He then kicks me.
And before I know it, there's like three or four of them.
They're all just like kicking me.
[grunting]
[screaming]
They marched me back to the vehicle.
Then, I'm seeing O just casually chatting
to this police officer.
And I was just in complete shock.
He betrayed me massively, like probably
the biggest betrayal you could have
in that-- in that business.
I was just seething.
I was fuming inside.
I just wanted to grab hold of him.
But the future wasn't in my hands.
They give, you know, life sentences,
and you know, the death sentence for drugs in Thailand.
And I am like completely [bleep] to be honest.
So after that, I was taken to a safe house.
You know, my mind just still going round and round
and doing somersaults.
I remember thinking I'd come to Thailand, you
know, start a new life, build the relationship back
up with my dad.
And here I was.
My dad would find out the hard way when any word got around
about what had just happened.
You know, I was just left handcuffed to this bed.
And I was there all night.
And my body was craving ice.
I was going through like cold turkey, basically.
There's only one place that I'll be going.
They call it a Monkey House, a hell hole, basically.
[speaking thai]
You know, they eventually put me back in the truck.
[speaking thai]
And they drove me to a prison in Bangkok.
[dog barking]
I remember seeing like the wall.
I just didn't know what was on the other side.
That was the scary bit.
Are they going to sort of target me?
Is anything can happen to me?
This could be my future for, you know, a very long time.
I didn't know how long.
[speaking thai]
And they basically said take all your clothes off.
It felt awful.
Your self-dignity is just gone.
And they're sort of checking in my mouth, in my genital area.
Just don't even feel like you're a person anymore.
You know?
You just feel like a bit of meat that, you know,
you're just being treated that way.
This place was just like, you know, a living hell hole.
And this was now my new reality.
The officer has taken me to the cell block.
Got all these prisoners, you know, they're
[speaking thai],, which is like Thai
for-- they say for foreigner.
And I remember looking over and seeing
two Thai inmates in front of this guard
who was holding a stick.
The next minute, and he's just smashed it down
on the fingertips of the inmate.
He's going to smash, smash, smash.
No emotion at all.
At that point, I thought there's no way I want
to be causing trouble in there.
That's for sure.
It was actually dark at that point.
So it's like, what now?
And then, one of the guys, he was like, you.
He's like, you sit here.
[speaking thai]
It was just so crammed.
And like, there was just no space at all in there.
I was sleeping on a hard cold floor with a water bottle
as-- as my pillow.
It was just soul destroying.
I felt really agitated.
I was getting the cold sweats because my body
was still craving ice.
[moaning]
Got this guy, at the same point, shouting.
And you know, he's having some sort of nightmare.
[shouting]
That was the most depressed and helpless
that I've ever felt in my life, to be honest, at that point.
Everything that I'd heard about what these Thai
prisons were like, it was true.
And it was happening, you know, in front of my eyes.
And it's like your worst nightmare.
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