Are you sorry?
Sit down!
Cross your legs
Stand up
Turn around
Bend over
Knees on the floor
Hands on the floor
Look at me!
Lay down
Sit up
Raise your hand
Higher, higher, higher!
Make a fist
Stronger. Stronger!
Look at it!
Go sit down
Could you be a mountain?
Yes
Show me
Could you carry me?
Yeah, I could carry you
You could carry a mountain
No
Go sit down
On the floor
Be a mirror
Is it called quicksand or sandstorm?
I don't know
Stand up!
Are you understanding or just standing?
I'm just standing
Are you understanding or are you just standing?
I'm just standing
Sit down!
Wait
(paper being crumpled)
Are you sorry?
No
Do you feel conditioned now?
Not really
Would you like air conditioning?
No thanks. I'm okay
Do you believe in God?
No
Do you pray?
Yes
Lucky number
Seven, eight or nine
Do you drink?
Yes. Every night
- Do you smoke? - No
- Are you a container? - No
Close your eyes!
- Do you feel conditioned now? - Not really
- Would you like air conditioning? - No, I'm good
- Do you believe in God? Hands up! - Yes, I believe in God
- Do you pray? - No
- Lucky number - 73
- Do you drink? - Yes
- Do you smoke? - No
- Are you a container? - No
- Where are you from? - Centerville, Iowa
Feet off the floor! Where are you going?
Nowhere
- Where do you want to be? - Home
- Where is home? - It's where I grew up
- Anywhere or nowhere? - Nowhere
- Are you worried? - Yes
- Are you lonely? - Yes
- Are you a good friend? - No
Give me advice!
You're damned if you do and you're damned if you don't
- What do you love? - I love my parents
- Are you an anchor or an arrow? - I'm an arrow
- Brothers? - Yes
- Sisters? - No
- Sinking? - All the time
- Are you tired or are you trialed? - I'm trialed
- Waiting or weighed down? - I'm way weighed down
- How much do you weigh? - Way too much
- Do you feel conditioned now? - I feel heavy
- Would you like air conditioning? - No, I'm okay
- Do you believe in God? - Yes
- Do you pray? - Every night
- Lucky number - 74
- Do you drink? - I drink
- Do you smoke? - Yes. I smoke. I hide it
Are you a container? Where are you from?
- Centerville, Iowa - Where are you going?
- Where do you want to be? - No place
- Where's home? - Everywhere
- Anywhere or nowhere? - Nowhere
- Are you worried? - Yes. I'm very worried
Are you lonely? Are you a good friend?
I'm not lonely
- Are you sorry? - Yes
Show me!
- Where were you? - I was right there
- Who were you with? - I was with you
Sit down
Close your eyes
What is between us?
We're getting older
What's between us?
Forgiveness
What's between us?
I need to clean out my bag
My keys, old makeup, my notebook
It's full. I have seven pens
a pack of cards, a flashlight that needs batteries
- old receipts, a movie ticket - What's in front of you?
A reminder
What do you remember?
I remember the town I grew up in
Wanting to be alone but not wanting to be lonely
Feeling like a cliché Needing my clichés
Crossing my fingers and pointing them to the sky
I remember that I've come a long way
I remember that this is all I have
My heroes, my teachers, old phone numbers
0528292427
5152928647
8054523137
I remember holding on too
I remember that I'm my dad's eyes
Unknown promises, that I'm brave,
that I'm strong
and the fireworks
I remember the great, huge damn fireworks
I remember needing to carry heavy things so I wouldn't have to feel my own weight
My thank yous that were selfish
The fear of not giving enough
I remember praying every night
Dear God or the stars,
Please keep my family safe
Please keep me in my own bed no bad guys, burglars, murderers,
kidnappers or killers come to Ames, Iowa the town I live in,
to the street I live on but more especially to my family,
my brother Jason, me Bobbi, my dad Lyle and my mom Denise
Please help me to have a good day tomorrow and not to gain any weight
Thanks for today
I remember being a believer
The liars and the lights
Being hopeless, slow dancing and making love,
breaking my own heart, needing to break my heart
I remember all of our messy, messy hearts
I remember that things aren't that good and that things aren't that bad
It's now or never
The endless boxing match,
building a fire
Tilting to get closer to the ground, my secrets
I remember limousines