- If you can go back to the first time we met,
what advice would you give yourself
regarding being in a relationship with me?
(both laughing)
It's a great question right there.
(cards shuffling)
(button clicking)
- What do I do that turns you on that I am not aware of?
(both laughing)
Oh God.
- I don't know (laughing).
I don't know why I can't think of anything
that you're not aware of.
- I think I am aware of all of it.
- Yeah, if I'm turned on, then you're aware, I think.
- Right away. - Yeah.
Weird question, I love to get comfortable.
When you think about the first time we met,
what do you remember most?
- Hmm, the first time we met, I mean,
I guess from the dating site,
you really don't know what to think.
But meeting you for our first date,
I guess it was just like, obviously it was nerve wrecking
for me, it was my first date ever.
So obviously, I would be nervous but I think
what made it easier was when you were nervous,
so it made me a little bit more comfortable.
And then for you, I got you to open up more towards me.
It felt good to know that I wasn't the only nervous one
when I texted you before saying I was nervous
to go on a first date.
- Feels good to be the more confident one?
Is what you're saying?
- I guess, for now, I was just happy
to even just can't eat my wings, they're funny now.
(both laughing)
- That was the best part and I thought
that was like a rare thing, a girl eating wings.
- I love my wings, I don't know what to say to that.
What are your top three memories we share?
- Top three, probably the day I proposed,
the wedding day, and probably like going
on our first vacation together.
The day I proposed was easy to remember cause we we're here
in the city for that.
I just remember acting like an idiot on the train
making you laugh, and I was like, "I'm gonna propose
to this woman tonight."
- I thought it was gonna happen in the city,
but I didn't expect, I was like, after we left the city.
I was like, "Oh, I guess it's not happening."
- Too crowded, maybe just get lost in the shuffle mode
and noticed or cared.
- Yeah, I think it was cool in a way
because I didn't want all the attention of the people
in the city and I was expecting it in the city.
So to come home thinking that it wasn't gonna happen,
and then it did, that was a surprise, that definitely was.
- I didn't even have it with me.
- I know, that was crazy though.
- Too dangerous to bring it to the city (mumbles).
- But the way you did, it was just like,
- Surprise.
- What else, the wedding day?
- The wedding day was definitely, the first look
was my favorite, just when you were like turning around
and you start to cry, I was not expecting that.
I mean, yes, I know I was expecting it because I know you,
you're very mushy, but I was like, maybe not
on the wedding day cause it's like, a big day.
- Thought I'd be calm and composed.
- Yeah. - No.
- But you definitely showed the opposite that's for sure.
- Well, how was I supposed to react?
You looked amazing, the dress was amazing.
- Thanks.
- When do you feel closest to me?
- I mean, for us being close is different.
- When you get out of your chair.
- Yeah.
- When I drop you on my lap and then I can't get you off?
- When you throw me on the couch.
- Yeah.
- Like that one time when you put me on the couch
and I like literally fell face first.
- Oh, yeah, the couch must have been bouncy,
it just (mouthing sounds).
- That was funny. - At least that was one time
I think.
- For us, it's different because obviously, the disability.
It's just the whole showering thing,
the whole getting me dressed, putting me in and out of bed
and all that fun stuff.
Obviously, it's also for us because no one else
really gets to have that.
So its just like the whole disability makes us closer.
- Yeah, couples don't usually shower together.
- No, no one showers with each other,
unless you're going really, anyway.
- TMI right?
But no it's even like, doing the laundry
or like, I feel close because it's you doing stuff for me
when I can't do it.
When do you feel people judge us?
And why do you think they do?
- Luckily, I don't know,
I feel like we don't get judged too often.
- I don't think we do, I mean yeah people will stare,
but I don't know what you feel.
- Yeah, I mean, like in the beginning, I guess people judged
us more like, "Is this really something you wanna get into?
Is it gonna work out long term?"
like, obviously everyone has those doubts,
I had doubts, people in my family had doubts
but you're really not that dependent.
- No.
- Sure it takes a little extra time to get ready
in your whatever but it's really not a big deal.
- People do think that it's like, "Oh, well you're either
her caretaker,"
Like I see people and they just are nasty online,
and they just say sometimes that always in a just because.
Like they think it's the money or they think
it's like the insurance or this or that.
No, it's not, like, that's wrong for them to think that way
and it's not, like when you're with someone,
your with someone because of them,
not the stuff that comes with it.
- Exactly.
- So I just wish people would see that more.
- But once people get to know us,
like can see the love we have for each other.
- Exactly.
- I'm with you because you love me.
- Cause you just love to drive me crazy.
- Yeah, I love to go drive you crazy, I guess.
- Get me going.
- Yeah, it's fun, what are you hesitant to ask me?
- I guess, what do you want in the future?
What do you want out of our marriage?
- You're hesitant to ask that?
- Well, not hesitant, but I would like to know more.
- Like?
- What would you like in the future?
- Seriously?
- Yeah, seriously, serious future question.
- I don't know, I think I want one kid.
And like, but besides kids or just kids?
- Anything.
- Anything?
Just hire a butler to help us.
- Oh, my God.
- I just need someone to like help you with your stuff
while I'm taking care of the kid you know?
- Oh yeah I understand that, I see that.
- It would be a lot.
- You wanna be like a stay at home dad with me?
Instead of stay at home mom,
you wanna be a stay at home dad.
- Yeah, cause I have enough to worry about with you
and the puppy need to wait till he comes down you know.
- I think he'll be calm by that point.
- Eating my clothes while I'm trying
to like help you put your shoes on
and then baby needs a diaper change.
- The baby is gonna be just pooping all over the floor.
Yeah, no, I agree with you there.
- Say baby, then you, then the dog.
I don't wanna look like the dog though.
- What's one of your favorite things about me?
- Your surpportage, you're always there to like,
you're just always they're to talk to
like, you know, I can always rely on you to be the one
I go to with whatever, so my favorite thing is just that
I'm able to communicate with you about life
you help me, you help me with a lot, you talk sense into me.
- A lot.
- Yeah, I just feel like I need a lot of help
with going through life and just transitioning
into an adult, I feel like that's something
that I definitely couldn't have done without you.
So I appreciate that you've done that for me.
And Your smile, I don't know.
Nothing makes me happier than making you happy.
I don't know, my favorite thing about you would be.
- Is just basically making me happy.
- What does our love feel like?
Rainbows and butterflies?
- Oh no, what?
- It's a song right?
- No, but it's not like all rainbows and butterflies
just like any other couple, we fight, we argue.
- It feels like love sometimes right?
- Feels like love sometimes?
- Most of the time.
- Wow, sometimes okay.
It feels like love and it feels like we're closer
to each other then. - We're close.
- Like we're very close, we don't keep anything
from each other.
- No, do other couples close the door
when they go to the bathroom? - No.
- We don't, like we're really just so close.
- You shower with me. - We're beyond comfortable.
- I think that's, yeah.
How do you love me?
- How do I love you? - Yeah.
- By giving you hugs and kisses, right?
That's how you show love right?
- And what do you always say to me?
Like if we're mad, you're always like if I don't talk
to you, if we're mad at each other.
- Hi. - Well that too,
but you always make sure you say like, I love you.
Even when I don't say it back.
- I try to come up to you and make it better.
- Yeah, but you always make sure you say I love you.
Or like give me a kiss before we fall asleep.
- Like no matter what, no matter how much we fight,
like I hate when you make it seem like--
- You're the wrong one and I'm not?
- I know I'm always wrong, but like it let go
and let me love you because I do.
You always make it seem like I don't love you sometimes.
- I know, but I know trust me, I'm more like,
I know that you do love me, I'm tough.
- Yeah, I get it, I do stuff that annoys you, piss you off
but I never stop loving you.
- I know, me either.
- Hey guys, this is Ashika from the Skin Deep.
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