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Hi there everyone.
I sat and watched episode 2 of The Deep End series on Hulu
in free form, and again,
I wanna give you my unedited response to it;
So far the series is not turning out to be
what I was led to believe it would be about.
After seeing the power of what I do and the people I help
I was told, that the docu-series would be a "hero's journey".
I was led to believe that this would be
about the good work I am doing in the the world.
A docu-series that would make people think,
examine themselves,
and that it would be both inspirational and truthful.
That clearly didn't happen.
The first episode showed some of what I do,
but it was subject to an editing process
that misrepresented me, my teachings
and the different alternate practices I use and teach.
This second episode
shows that the viewer should make no mistake,
this series is not a documentary.
It is billed as a docu-series,
but it is designed as entertainment.
It is tabloid,
it is dramatic,
focusing on my personal life and character
at the expense of my professional mission.
It is ominous and spooky.
Just listen to the music...
it's a combination of Friday the 13th and the shining.
If they had used upbeat music,
it would have left a different, non-threatening impression.
Music is used in video productions
to get the viewer to feel a certain way
about what is happening in the scene on the screen.
Here they chose music
that left the impression that I am a bad person,
a cult leader...
And as a result,
it was very hard for me to watch.
They are trying to tell stories that didn't happen.
For example...
The series seems to be trying to build the impression
that I was jealous of Juliana.
This new episode showed a scene
that appeared to be me secretly watching her and Blake
walking and talking.
But that didn't happen.
The footage of me "secretly watching them"
was shot at a different time, in a different place.
They were cut together
to make it look like something happened,
that never did happen.
And it was done to support a dramatic narrative
of a story that is pure fiction.
This episode introduces Molly as the private investigator
and in this episode
she says that it is her job to find out if this is a cult or not.
That is actually not her job,
and she was hired by me.
She is not an independent investigator.
Since this episode, once again,
delved into suicide without much context,
let me remind you that based on statistics
the truth is that my methods are more effective
at helping those who are potentially suicidal,
than conventional methods.
Also, it is important to know that other cultures and religions
use some of the same criticized techniques
that I myself am trying to get adopted
into the mainstream mental health system.
The Dalai Lama himself says:
"Analysis of death is not for the sake of becoming fearful,
but to appreciate this precious lifetime".
This second episode barely touched on my teachings.
And instead, focused on my personal life
and there it misrepresented my personal life in important ways.
If you happen to watch it, please understand
that what they showed isn't what we do,
it doesn't represent how we think,
and it doesn't represent how we live.
It's a collection of more negative selective editing
out of context,
and even out of order,
to create entertainment.
What bothers me,
is that they present what you are watching as truth,
when it isn't.
And it's easy to prove these untruths.
Let me give you some concrete examples:
First of all, I want to talk to you about "the set".
Where the episode takes place,
like the set for any Hollywood movie,
this set for this episode, is an illusion.
While I support intentional community,
I myself, actually live in an ordinary house,
with my son, partner and my personal assistant.
In fact, Blake moved into his own apartment nearby,
in preparation for Juliana's arrival,
and so, surprise surprise...
Juliana, Blake and I never even lived together.
And all the other people I consider part of my community,
live in their own apartments in the same city.
The rolling hills and that mansion they keep showing,
it was the location of a week-long completion process training
and a week-long curveball retreat.
Not my life, and not my home.
But you'd never know it, watching this tv show.
They make it look like I live on a commune.
In the second episode,
they show an interview with a man named Jared Dobson
they make it seem like Jared was just a wronged follower of mine
who was not paid for his services.
The reality is that Jared was my boyfriend for a short time.
He offered to help me with my business,
and I was happy to have his help.
The relationship didn't work out,
for reasons you can probably figure out by listening to what he says.
So, what you are watching is an interview
with a disgruntled ex-lover of mine.
Let's round up your exes,
you know, from the relationships that didn't end well,
and ask them how they feel about you.
Notice that they never bother to talk to any of my exes
who I have a good relationship with still,
and who are still friends to this day.
Also, I want to make myself crystal clear:
I never told him that he should go kill himself.
That did not happen.
Remember that my life's work
is trying to help people to not commit suicide,
and commit to life, instead.
But this interview with Jared provides some context
for what my fear was about in the hot tub scene from episode one.
As a celebrity, anyone who comes into my life
automatically has a platform.
And to tell you the truth, it is terrifying
because conflict is an inevitable part of any close relationship.
Yet, it feels like I can't afford to have a conflict with anyone,
because instead of resolving things,
they can just turn against me publicly
to find both attention and validation.
Almost everything in this episode is edited and presented
to make all the characters, most especially me,
come across in the exact way they wanted us
to come across to the audience...
negatively.
I'm gonna be the first to call it out:
The way they have put together this episode
makes all of us look nuts.
There was a carefully edited scene in this episode
which makes it seem like Blake and I
have some kind of immoral sexual relationship
going on behind Juliana's back.
And that we are trying to keep it a secret from Juliana.
It makes it look like I'm saying
that we have a "special relationship" behind closed doors.
That is not true.
Blake was dealing with sexual attraction toward me at that time.
I took it as a compliment,
as I imagine it would be for any woman.
However, in that interaction
I was encouraging him
to not ruin his relationship with Juliana
who we all loved and cared about,
by telling her that he was sexually attracted to me,
because that would have been a recipe
for absolute disaster.
Also, unnecessary.
I was advising a close friend.
He had chosen to be in a committed relationship with Juliana
and to marry her,
which as you could tell by my reaction,
was something I thought was great.
Also, as an interesting side note,
I was in and still am in the same committed relationship
at the time that scene was filmed.
As a side note,
all relationships are different.
Be careful not to judge a relationship
just because it doesn't fit inside a box.
Blake is a physically affectionate guy.
What some people call "touchy feely",
he was physically affectionate with me for the 18 years we were close,
before he chose to strike out on his own
and find a different life.
But, physical affection is different than a sexual relationship.
Blake and I did not have a sexual relationship
after our romantic relationship ended over 17 years ago.
And Juliana was fully aware
when she came into this life in America,
that physical affection
was an element of my relationship with Blake.
It was not a secret,
and at that point,
she had agreed to it being fine,
and was quite physically affectionate herself.
Fourth: Okay you guys,
do you honestly think that if this is an accurate depiction of me
or of what my trainings and retreats are really like,
that I'd have so many people who follow me
and come to my events again and again?
Do you really think if this was the truth,
so many people would say that my work has saved their life?
I would be the first person to tell you
not to go to a workshop or retreat
like the one they have depicted on the screen.
The thing is, my retreats and workshops
are not like what they are depicting on the screen.
Notice that they only show you part of any interaction
that occurs at my events and out of context...
which serves what appears to be a predetermined narrative.
And notice how they fail to depict any form of resolution or healing
that is achieved at all of my workshops.
There is no storyline about anyone
who the director and producers watched go through my process.
I want you to hold the phone there.
It's a show about my work, and there isn't a single person yet
that they followed from beginning to end of the process,
so as to show the process of healing...
Yet they go to great lengths to discredit the people
who have been vulnerable enough to allow themselves to appear on film,
by selecting tiny clips,
carefully edited out of lengthy interviews,
which paints them in an inaccurate light
as being weak, insane, lost,
powerless,
easily manipulated
and like they can't think for themselves.
What an insult.
And yet again,
what does that tell you?
And this brings me to my last point for this episode,
and it is the one that upsets me the very most;
It is critical for healing work of any kind
to be done in a safe space.
When a group of people open themselves up,
by allowing their most intimate and vulnerable processes to be seen,
only to find those processes
depicted in a different way than they actually occurred,
or twisted to fit a negative narrative
about them, or the person leading them through that process,
it is damaging to the most sensitive parts of them.
That is just not right.
All this being said,
I'm not really looking forward to watching the next episode.
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I wanna thank you personally
for the bravery that you have to step into awareness.
I'll see you in the next video.