- So this is from two years ago.
- Oh my gosh.
- Oh this was such a cool day.
- Where am I?
(Freddie laughs)
- [Devin] So I found this old iPhone,
and I saw all these amazing old pictures
back from when I used to live in New York City.
Oh my god,
it opened my eyes to how much I've grown
literally in the past two years.
So then, I thought wouldn't it be a cute lady like video
if I took pictures from two, five, seven,
- If it's like eight years ago, absolutely not, canceled.
- And ten years ago, and surprise the gals.
- I thought it was five?
- with the pictures,
and they have to give us the context for it.
- Cool cool cool cool cool cool cool.
- Because I didn't wanna surprise myself with my own photos,
cause that's not really that fun.
I had Chantel source pictures of me.
Also, I just kinda find that when you look at old pictures,
you take a couple selfies and you're like,
oh mm I don't look the cutest today,
well whatever, I'll post this anyway.
Or like, oh don't take a picture of me today
I don't think I look super cute.
But then, you see that picture years later
and you're like what was I talking about
I was like a (bleep) show.
And I just wanna kinda have those moments
where we look back and be like,
god I was one hot 19 year old.
So this is from two years ago.
- Oh my gosh.
This is from when I'm trying on wedding dresses.
I mean I look back at these now
and I'm like I didn't look bad at all.
- No not at all you look super cute.
- Ten years from now I'm gonna look at this video
and be like I did not appreciate how cute I was.
It never ends, it's a vicious cycle.
- So this is when I was officially a homeowner.
It's in one of our old offices, just like, in the lobby.
My realtor was like "hey do you want the keys I can come by
and drop them off."
And I was like, yes.
- So I just went blond, this is right before thanksgiving.
So we're running away from LA to go to his families house
up in San Francisco,
and this was at a rest stop,
and I found these trucker glasses
and I'm modeling expertly.
I found my light and my pose in front of some pistachios.
- This was taken by a photographer named JD
and he shoots a lot of BuzzFeed talent.
He's a really incredible photographer
and his lighting is on point.
- I was wedding dress shopping
so like I wanted to get a bunch
of photos to kind of show people.
Because I was doing all my wedding dress shopping
in one weekend,
and I didn't know if I was going to find a dress,
and I was like very worried about picking the wrong dress.
So my mom was like mm I don't know
and then at the time I was like,
I wanna make a fashion statement with my wedding dress.
I wanna do something out there,
that hasn't been done.
This is also back when I did this pose for everything,
now I do like this pose for everything.
But at the time I was like,
I have one pose and it's hands on the hips (bleep).
- And so then I was holding it
and I don't even remember who took this picture.
Someone walked by and I was like
"Can you take a picture of me holding these keys?"
I didn't have any water or electricity on yet
I think I just went that night to be like,
this is where I'm going to put this,
this is where I'm going to put this.
- I think I took this picture in front of some pistachios
because I was bored as hell,
driving up to San Francisco
and I was like well I want people to like me.
- I thought there was more to the story there.
- Because this was one of my first photo shoots
that wasn't like in studio,
we were out and about
and there were people walking around
and they usually stop, take a gaze.
So, I was a little self conscious with that,
but in general I really enjoyed the photo shoot,
It was happening during magic hour,
so it was like,
ahah prime time lighting baby.
- Is that smile fake?
- Yes, because I was very stressed.
Wedding dress shopping is so stressful.
- No, this was so happy.
Cause it was really cool, it was a big milestone.
- This is not a real smile,
this is a very calculated post.
And I think I made it trying to get people to laugh
or to like me.
- I was happy in this picture.
I think I was excited to get some really nice photos
and head shots of myself.
- Cool times.
- Well are you ready for a pic from five years ago?
- Five years ago?
Two days after this photo was taken,
I was fired from my job
and that set into the events that lead
to my being hired at BuzzFeed.
- So this picture,
the thing is my face always looks the same but,
I just look so tiny.
- So many lives I've lived.
In college, I started this comedy group
with a bunch of my friends called Star Kid Potter
and we did, at the time,
Harry Potter parody musicals.
- This is a bathroom at 30 Rock in New York City.
I was a NBC page during this time.
For those who don't know a NBC page
is a post grad program with NBC
where you walk around in different departments
and try out different roles
to see where you would want to kind of have a full time job.
So I did that for a year.
- Wow, I look so good here.
I'm not wearing makeup in this photo which is wild.
This is a genuine photo.
I remember for a long time being like,
this should be my dating profile photo,
If I still had a dating profile.
- In between here and college,
I was freelancing on award shows.
And the main thing that I would do for award shows
was be on the dressing rooms team.
One of the shows that I got to work was the Emmy's.
Who was I with?
I also don't remember who took this picture.
- Its funny that you picked this picture,
because I was always curious about being a blond.
I would just like put it on
and be like am I Taylor Swift now?
- This was the first really big like designer bag
that I bought for myself.
Like I loved taking selfies in this mirror.
- I always think that it's funny to do the,
oh look I'm holding the Tower of Pisa,
or like,
oh let's make it look like I'm touching the Eiffel Tower,
but they're like not.
And so that's what I did with an Emmy,
cause I thought it was funny.
- If you had any advice of 2018 Kristin to 2013 Kristin
what would it be.
- I think it would be,
don't worry you're going to have a job
by the end of the summer.
Cause at the time I was like,
am I going to be stuck in this terrible job forever?
I guess so.
But then, honestly getting fired was the best thing
that could have happened to me at that particular moment.
- The advice that I would give her is just like,
don't worry about it.
It's gonna happen you're gonna do your thing.
- Don't take anything personally,
because everyone's scared.
And everyone's just trying to figure it out.
And also to the next couple of moves
you're gonna have to make in your life are big steps,
so don't be too afraid.
Aww.
- This is not on Instagram.
- [Devin] No, it's on Facebook.
- Ah Oh.
I didn't know you were going to
other social platforms Devin.
- Ahah!
- This was me at Howard University.
- [Devin] I love how professional you look,
but also stylish, that yellow sport coat.
- Yeah. Y'all this is how everyone dressed,
everyday. Like people didn't wear sweats,
running shoes to class like,
at Howard, people got dressed.
- Kristine, you don't have any photos from 2011.
I looked for them.
- The thing is I didn't have a smart phone in 2011.
I actually don't know how many photos of me
from that time even exist.
- Oh my god yes. Look at me I'm a steady broad gal.
- Look at your little hands!
- This was before I had Instagram.
- Yeah I had to find it on your Facebook.
- I was in Verona.
So I was like,
oh let me get like a cute little photo to commemorate this.
So I sat on a ledge and was like,
Does this look good?
- [Devin] This is my graduation from college.
Wow this is a terrible picture of me.
And I didn't wanna go to my English one.
I was a double major.
I majored in English with a concentration in Shakespeare.
Didn't want to go to my English graduation.
Cause I got most of my English degree, in England.
- This look, these glasses, this hair.
In front of the fine arts building
artists would be painting portraits
and drawing portraits of people.
It was so cute y'all. Oh I miss it.
- And I didn't really know anyone in the English department,
but my mom cried when I told her
I didn't wanna go to my English Department graduation
and then my dad pulled me aside at the restaurant
and was like, you're going to go to that graduation
because we paid for it.
And I'm like, god dammit.
So I wasn't super happy
about going to the English department graduation.
But I'm glad I went actually,
because it had like the best speech.
I remember my dad was waiting for me
right after I got off the stage
and he snapped a picture real quick.
Paint a picture can you tell me a little bit about Kristin
from 2011 if you had any advice for her.
Man, it's gonna be fine,
I know you think it's not gonna be fine right now,
and you were real sad.
Ooh wow you were so sad.
- Hmm
- You're in a hole right now,
and you keep digging the hole and making it worse,
and it's gonna take a second
for you to start to build stairs.
- I would say it's okay to be green.
And by the way, green means in this industry,
being inexperienced, and it's okay to be green.
- It's okay to not know stuff yet.
And it's okay to just be young and enjoy.
That's why I spent all my money studying abroad,
and I came back when I had nothing left.
- Save some damn money.
From your refund check in that damn savings account.
- Speaking of time traveling.
- Okay.
- Let's go back ten years.
(laughing)
- One thing I will say,
is sometimes it's hard for me to look back at old pictures.
And I'm sure this is the case for a lot of people,
but at old pictures I had a pretty bad eating disorder,
for about, seven years.
And so, I was pretty sick at this point in my life.
- This is in my college dorm room.
I remember standing in front of my brand new MacBook.
And then, taking this picture.
- Those kinds of pictures, iMac dorm room photos
- Yeah
- Are going to be iconic image for our generation.
- I look exactly the same.
This is when my hair was dyed black.
- I think it's an adorable picture of you.
- I will say this is probably the one photo I look back on
and I'm like I was not cuter than then I am now.
So I was at Northwestern when this photo was taken.
- [Devin] Beep Beep Beep. Beep
(laughing)
- I had a little leg up,
and so, you know, this took coordination.
This was definitely a Halloween photo.
- My hearts beating.
This is my senior year,
of high school with one of my favorite teachers of all time,
Mrs Sevino, and my best friend Christine Hopsin.
I don't even know why we took this photo.
I guess it was probably Spring of 08.
Like we were like oh no we gotta get pictures
with all of our favorite teachers before we leave.
- I don't love the fact that I was like pretty sick.
But at the same time,
I do really appreciate the fact that I was still trying,
and still participating in my life.
I was fresh out of rehab when this picture was taken.
I look back at it and I'm proud of myself.
Is that smile fake?
- It probably was.
I definitely was like, oh me?
Taking a photo? I would never.
- No I mean I wanted to take like a cute little picture
cause I thought that I looked cute in my little 50's.
Throw my lipstick on her, looks the same.
- Like the exact same.
- I think I might be a little sad in this picture.
Cause we were graduating.
But I loved her she's the best.
- Man it's weird to look at photos at myself.
And be like I remember seeing all these flaws
that I had at the time and now I'm like,
ah man I want that back.
Except this person I don't wanna be this person again.
- Ah this was fun.
I was worried about getting emotional
cause I'm on my period.
- It was cute.
It was fun.
I like that you mixed in some Facebook gems.
- Just keep following your heart
and then you'll get where you wanna go.
And I'm sure that's what I'll still be telling myself
ten years from now.
- It's also cool to see how far I've come.
Looking at high school Freddie versus now,
I had no clue where my life was gonna go.
And I would say that I'm pretty happy.
Like I didn't think that LA was a possibility for me.
I didn't think that leaving the East Coast
was really even a possibility for me.
But I made it happen and it's really cool
to sort of see that growth.
- [Devin] Yeah look at you now. Beautiful. Cut.
(somber music)