- I feel a bit sad filming this video (laughs)
I don't know why, I need help.
Hi guys, welcome back to my channel.
Today I'm going to be filming my one month postpartum update
and baby Jackson's one month update.
I cannot believe he is already a month old.
And I feel a bit emotional about it
because I'm such a loser.
But I've got this bin of clothes that every time
he grows out of something I'm putting in this bin to either
give to charity or someone that we know and every time
I've put something in I'm just like (fake crying).
Anyway, exciting news. Since my last update,
Jackson has smiled and I don't care what anyone says,
it is not wind. I guarantee he is smiling
because it's when I talk to him or if you're looking at him
and then he suddenly clocks your face,
he would do a big smile.
He also really loves when you tickle his head and
he will smile from that and that's not wind.
If you just tickle his head, he will smile
and it is the cutest thing!
And he's also already trying to chat to us,
like I can just see it when I'm chatting to him.
He's trying to get some words out,
he's trying to communicate back.
Another big thing that's changed since my last update
is Jackson now has a bedtime routine
that is the same as his brothers at the same time.
I've even put him in the bath with the boys a few times now
which I was really scared to do. And if someone has asked me
two months ago if I would ever put a newborn in the bath
with them, I would have been like "No Way!"
But they're so gentle, they totally get that he is a newborn.
So they've actually been okay.
Like once Caleb poured a bucket of water
on little baby Jackson's head,
but other than that they've actually been quite sensible
and stuff when he's in there.
And it's kind of like I'm doing them anyways,
so I'm doing the baby. So I kind of get them all in
and I wash them all and then I get baby Jackson out
and I sort of change him. And while I'm doing that,
then the boys can play in the bath.
So we do that and then I will feed Jackson
and my husband will take the older boys
and then I'll put Jackson down about six-thirty or seven.
So we're actually putting him to bed in his bedroom as well
and then when we go up to bed,
we are picking up the Sleepyhead
and then bringing into our room into the SnuzPod
which is the cot that is attached to our bed.
He's also napping in his room now because the boys
are just so loud and he does sleep through a lot,
but there has been a few times when I'm just like
"This isn't fair. Like how can you
have a good sleep with the crazy amount of noise?"
So I'm now letting him nap in his room
and I'm using the baby monitor.
We have this super-duper baby monitor
that is an Angelcare Monitor
that monitors the movement and the breathing so if
there's no movement for 20 seconds an alarm will go off.
It also has a video and sound and all that
bells and whistles. It cost me 150 pounds, but it's amazing.
He's also now sleeping on his front all of the time.
Midwives don't recommend that you let them sleep
on their front until they're older
because of cot death and things like that.
But I just knew that he wanted to be on his front.
Whenever I laid him on his back,
he would do the crazy, the reflex with his arms,
and he just would squirm and he looked so uncomfortable
and he's had a cold.
So when he had a cold, I was letting him nap on his front
if I was with him in the day to help drain the snot out
and I just noticed he slept so much better by doing that.
I just knew that he wanted to sleep on his front
and now that he is, he's going five hours a night in a row
rather than the three hours that he was going.
So he's a lot more comfortable and that means
that I only have to get up in the night like once or twice.
So in the day he still feeds about every two to three hours,
and sometimes it is only every two hours
but I really don't mind feeding as much as he wants
in the day because he's sleeping so well at night
so I can just feed him whenever.
I have been caught out a few times on the school run
where I've literally got to the gate to pick up my eldest
and it's three o'clock and I'm waiting for him
and then he starts crying.
And you know when it's the hunger cry
and I know my nipples are leaking and it's just like
"Oh my god, get me out of here!" (laughs)
So I sort of grab Fraser, run back to the car
and feed him in the car That has been the only tricky thing
about breastfeeding this time, but it's only happened
a few times and it's only gonna get less.
He still loves being in the sling on my chest which is great
because when I take my toddler to play groups
or gymnastic classes and things,
I just put Jackson into the sling.
And I'll be walking around for the hour class and he would
just sleep on my chest and then I can really
give Caleb some attention which helps with the mom guilt.
We have now as well signed Caleb up for two days
of nursery a week, he was only doing one day.
Which means I get two days with Jackson so I can actually
give him a little bit of attention and hopefully
in the future do a few baby sensory classes.
And they're days when I get my cleaning, groceries, videos,
stuff like that. It's really helping with the balance.
Since my last update as well,
Jackson's hair has all been falling out.
Every time I change the bedding on his Sleepyhead or cot,
it's covered in hair.
You can see that he looks like a little old man
who has no hair on top and it's funny
'cause this is exactly what both of the other boys did.
They were born with dark hair,
it all fell out and then it came back blonde.
So it just looks like he's doing the exact same thing.
He still looks a lot like them,
he has these big blue eyes just like them. But it is funny
'cause he really looks like a little old man.
He's also got a little bit of baby acne this week
so it's like he's going through baby puberty losing his hair
and getting spots, but he's just got a few on his face.
He's not looking his best this week,
but I know from experience these spots sort of come
around three or four weeks and then they will go
so I'm not too worried about them or anything.
Lots of people also comment on how strong he is.
He has a really strong back and neck
so when you're holding him, he kinda is like bolt upright
and then if when he wants to feed,
he will literally just headbutt me. He's so strong.
So overall he's a really chilled, sort of zen baby.
He takes everything in his stride.
He doesn't seem to mind the boys poking and pulling at him
and stroking his head nonstop.
He takes it all really, really well.
As for me one month postpartum,
I'm feeling really good in myself.
Bleeding has stopped, doing my pelvic floors,
I'm still breastfeeding exclusively
which is going really well, but I do get a lot of leaks
so I've got to be careful with that, TMI.
My main priority now is to start losing weight.
It's been a month now and although I have lost some weight,
I really feel like I want to kickstart it now.
So on Monday I'm starting a 30 day detox
that is breastfeeding friendly
so I will report back to you on
how I get on and my progress.
I will doing before and afters and I'll show you it all
at the end when I've hopefully lost the two stone
that I'm carrying at the moment.
But that's sort of my priority.
It is just the way I feel, I just don't feel good
because still my pre-baby clothes don't fit and I'm in
this awkward stage of my maternity leggings fall down on me,
but then my normal leggings won't go up on me.
So I'm in this middle ground where I have no clothes
but I don't want to buy loads of clothes
because I'm hopefully going to lose the weight.
But I know it's just myself,
no one is pressuring me to lose weight or anything.
I just feel really fat now.
I'm round as well. I'm also not feeling any anxiety.
With my first son, I definitely was a bit of a psycho mom
if someone wanted to hold him or about his routine
or about cleanliness. I was really like (gasps) wired.
And I found out I guess a lot of people are
with their first newborn
because it's this amazing special little person
and you want everything to be perfect.
This time around, I've been a lot more chilled I think
and there's things I can't really fight
like the boys go to school and nursery
and they're going to bring germs home.
So I'm keeping on top of all of that but I'm not
being the normal psycho about it if that makes sense.
I don't know what I'm trying to say,
but I'm trying to say I feel quite sane this time.
Alright, so I hope you like this update
and seeing some up-to-date footage of baby Jackson.
All is going well and I will do my next update
when I'm two month postpartum and he is two months old.
And yes, thank you so much for watching
and I will see you very soon. Bye!
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