and when you do say yes I'm gonna do nursing they become so lit up and happy
for you and they accept you okay if you gave an answer like you know I don't
know yet I'm just taking a break they're gonna be like oh it's okay you know what
I mean so to be honest I don't know what to title this video because I could tell
it two things all right why I quit nursing or why I quit college so I'm
kind of gonna so I'm kind of gonna blend the story into one and tell you guys why
I quit college nursing or is it nursing college school or the nursing program in
school all right so just a disclaimer before I get into this story you need to
know that I didn't even get into the program I quit before I even started and
the main reason why I quit before I started is because I woke up to the
truth all right guys so if you know me you know that I am a Filipino camasta I
kind of said it pretty American I think I am pretty Americanized I do not know
how to speak Filipino or speak Tagalog speaking econo let's not get into all
the dialects of Filipino languages but I grew up in Hawaii okay I grew up in
Hawaii and I'm a Filipino part of the stereotype of being Filipino is that
once you get out of high school you need to go to college and become a nurse all
right if you're a girl or you hundred percent you got to become a nurse or
else your parents are gonna disown you if you're a guy and you become a nurse
you are the epitome of the perfect Filipino man so what I'm basically
saying is that if you're a Filipino you're almost required to become a nurse
and if you don't become a nurse it's either you got to become a doctor
or you better be involved in church or something or something that's highly
hi Leon was that we're called highly prestige yeah I don't know the word to
say or not valued but yeah you know what I mean
you know what I mean it's like Filipino parents want to almost brag to other
Filipino parents like my daughter is this my son is that you know what I mean
oh my son's an honor roll my daughter's an honor oh whatever one of the things
about me is that I was never the son to brag about I was never the kid to brag
about I was an average student all right I hated school I hated I hated the fact
that I would be getting C's B's and these and I hated to read I hated math
can you just tell that I just hated school
just how many times I said hey right I know it's not good to hate but hating
school is fine in my opinion so yeah I'm a Filipino got out of high school and I
actually didn't pursue nursing at first I told myself that hey you know what I'm
gonna become a chef because I love to cook and I love to eat and that's what
made my heart happy so I actually didn't jump into the culinary program I told my
mom that hey mom I don't know what I really want to do if it's if it's um
cooking or nursing she is really she was really trying to like push me into
nursing and I was saying I don't know yet anyways I started doing the whole
associate's degree which is pretty much bullcrap in my opinion if you're gonna
do an associate's degree don't even go to school
alright that's just basically high school in college you're just doing
general education stuff you're just doing science and history and social
justice objects that you really don't need in order to obtain a career that
you wanna get into yeah Here I am wasting two years getting my associates
degree and while I'm doing that I moved to Alaska my family opened up a
restaurant I moved to Alaska to help out with the restaurant a year later they
sold the restaurant and I just stayed in Alaska just to live my life just to
experience Alaska Live this chapters ahead of me so while I'm here in Alaska
I continued my associates degree and after I got my associates degree I
pursued nursing so you must be wondering why did I stop the pursuit of culinary
and decided to jump into nursing and here is where I woke up well not really
this is not the moment this is like the pre waking up moment I was surrounded
okay I was surrounded by Filipinos in nursing and what I mean by that is that
Here I am in Alaska I just moved to Alaska I'm actually living with my
parents because save a lot of money that way and I get along with my parents
anyways Here I am in Alaska okay I am going to school my mom's a nurse I am
also going to a church where it's majority Filipinos and guess what the
guys that are on my age why are you going to school for nursing okay so it's
almost a given that I need to do nursing I need to chase nursing because the
people around me are nursing and that's what's accepted in my peer group so I
decided that ki I should do nursing too you know the you know it's it's on
demand nursing is on demand and the money is good and it's almost fulfilling
you know it fulfills my heart to help people and that's what I should do
nursing so I justified that I should do nursing because everyone around me
nurses and it's expected as a Filipino and also here's the thing like whenever
you meet a Filipino auntie or an uncle and they ask you hey what are you gonna
go to school for nursing the ecig they they expect you to say nursing and when
you do say yes I'm gonna do nursing they become so lit up and happy for you and
they accept you okay if you gave an answer like you know I don't know yet
I'm just taking a break they're gonna be like oh it's okay you know what I mean
but the thing is if you don't know what you want yet it really is it really is
okay so I started the nursing thing I started doing the prereqs before I can
apply for nursing school before this even happens I even did a caregiving
program where I an official caregiver and I got the
caregiver or CPA I forgot I forgot what CPA stands for it to be honest but I
became a CPA and I got my CPA degree and I even worked at the hospital for like a
week and dirty I wiped butts and I fed patients and I was basically an
assistant to the nurse so that I could see what the nursing area is like and to
be honest I didn't like it I did not like going into the hospital and being
in that environment and I I just I felt uncomfortable like I liked helping
people but not in that way when it just it almost it was a little depressing for
me you know what I mean I know at the end of the shift I did feel gratitude
towards life the fact that hey I have hands I have feet and healthy I'm able
to move and Here I am helping these people who does not have the luxury of
health that I have you know it gave me a sense of gratitude but at the same time
I didn't like being in that environment because it almost I don't wanna say it
brought me down but it just it didn't fill me up and bring joy to my heart in
the moment that I was doing it so I realized that while I was working as a
CPA or c.a.p CPA I could be saying it wrong but I just remember I was like the
nurse CNA ah that's the word CNA found it so I realized well as a CNA that I
didn't want to do this nursing school thing I didn't want to continue being a
nurse but everyone around me was becoming nurses they were going to
school to be a nurse my mom was a nurse my mom was proud of me with the fact
that I said that I want to become a nurse so I still continued to do my
prereqs to apply to nursing school so here's where it became very real for me
all right I had one semester left at UA until I
could apply at the nursing program at U hey and I took a long hard look at
myself I saw the people that were in the nursing program and they said it was
tough and and then I just saw the hours they were putting into studying and like
hearing the stuff that they're studying even the stuff that I was taking that
semester is like that shit did not interest me I hated it
I hated the thought of studying what I was studying learning about what I was
learning and I had to like imagine saying do I want to do that for the rest
of my life really you know I mean do I wanna do that for the rest of my life
and here's the thing guys academically I am an average student I average C's all
right C's and B's throughout the semester I was getting like B's all
right cuz I just did not care about studying okay but since it was my last
semester I told myself what if I put all my efforts and energy into what I really
want because I know that I didn't want to do nursing it showed it showed that I
didn't want to become a nurse by my grades what if I put all of my energy
into chasing my dreams so as a test I told myself if I can ace anatomy lab and
anatomy lecture it's basically the two courses that everyone hates all right
everyone hates that that that subject or that course in college again it is my
last semester so if I passed it I could apply for the nursing program but
anyways I told myself if I could ace this course and put all my effort into
it then if I channel that energy into
chasing my dreams I could definitely make my dreams come true then I should I
should not pursue nursing at all and I should just put my energy into what I
really want alright so here I am this semester last semester alright this is
the last semester and I ace both courses I aced my lab is my lecture alright and
this is something that quite a few is able to achieve at we've quite a few
people is ever able to achieve that unless you're a die-hard bookworm who
really puts effort into studying alright and this was out of my elephant this
elephants this is out of my elements I never put an effort into studying but
this semester I told myself go all-in aced this class and prove to yourself
that your effort is actually able to achieve big things and I put my
effort into getting an A and it actually worked I actually got an A I actually
aced my lab and my lecture while the average average 95 percent of the class
is like literally average students all right you have to be like a top tier
like three five percent to actually get an A in that class and for the first
time in my life I a stood and I was one of those students who excelled at it
because I tested myself I really wanted to see if I'm able to achieve what I put
my mind to so that woke me up all right that woke
me up I realized that I didn't not need to put all this effort into something I
hate and what if I just get out of this nursing thing and put all my effort into
something that I love so after a set class after i aced that semester I was
able to apply to the nursing program but I didn't I just didn't I was like I quit
I don't want to and I want years off from school
to realize where I want to put my energy into so where so I know you guys must be
wondering where is my energy being put into right now so I did quit college I
did quit the nursing program before I even started and now I'm serving in
bartending all right that's not what I want to do it is a great career path
it's a very lucrative career path for those who are doing it all right it
helps to pay the bills it helps you to save it's it teaches you life skills to
be honest more life skills than I had even learned from college it teaches you
to interact with people it teaches you how to deal with certain type of
personalities you know it also teaches you how to handle stress become more
resilient to pressure so get to the point so where am I putting my energy
now it's in these videos all right it's in these videos I even started my own
business last year with jerky all right I'm actually gonna bring it back into
production next month and I am basically but basically I am no longer a slave to
college and I don't owe debt into a career that I don't want to do and
pay money too you know what I mean because one of the things is a lot of
the guys that graduated college and got their degrees they end up not doing what
they graduated for and so they get out of college to graduate and they're
paying off a debt that got accumulated after four years of schooling or five
six years of their life that they can never get back because they thought they
wanted to do something because they thought they should do it so yeah my
word of advice is that if you're filipino don't feel pressure that you
need to be a nurse you really don't need to all right all in all our parents want
us to become what makes us happy or fulfills us and another thing is that
it's your life okay don't feel pressured to fulfill the
standards of someone else have high standards definitely have standards but
have high standards on yourself expect the best out of yourself what makes your
heart sing pursue that thing and find a way to create a living out of it alright
making these videos I get filled up like I feel fulfilled making these videos
having feedback from you guys knowing that my life experience is my thoughts
my views can help impact your lives and help you guys to broaden your views on
life this is just a quick video on why me as a Filipino quit nursing school
before I even started and if you guys are Filipino can you relate to me right
now can you can you seriously relate to what I am spitting at you can you pick
up what I'm putting down right now and if you are a nursing
school and you enjoy nursing school kudos to you I am happy for you and I
hope you become the best nurse you can be if you are in nursing school if
you're pursuing nursing and you really do realize that you don't really want to
do that then I highly suggest that you pick your balls off the ground and just
stop doing it alright don't be afraid of the
disapproval that you might get from auntie and uncle mom and dad and these
uncles cousins whatever you know what I mean let them do them and do what you
want right it's your life be happy live life impact people be the best human you
can be alright so anyways I just want to thank you guys for watching this video I
you guys can relate but if you guys do can relate if you do can if you can
relate comment down below say come on star and let me know if
you're in college if you're going to college if you're pursuing nursing if
you're not going nursing yeah also guys remember whatever trials you are going
through it's all uphill from here so thank you so much for your time as
always god bless you and have the best day ever