I'm probably gonna cry a few times
during the course of this thing I'm an
emotional guy
funny though because I always get the
question of like you're white
how did you start rapping and to me it
was never like a weird thing I guess as
never thought about it like that
I got obviously I knew like yeah most
rappers aren't white but I wasn't like
should I be doing this on the other side
I think ivory I get a benefit from being
white I think that white kids can see me
and see themselves like I could be me so
I mean I think that was a huge boost for
me and a guilty thing when I was coming
up like oh [ __ ] am I only here because
I'm white is that that the only reason
so yeah I thing I had to prove to myself
that I was more than just a white guy
that was lucky cuz white damn magnetars
super lonely in New York nobody lives
with him just having his two kids see in
my old days I would hire someone for
this but trying to get real life
experiences drove my own u-haul
everyone's got to grow up sometime
but I was easy target
I admit that like I don't know what
changed I think I think I just got more
conceptual with what I was doing
people just started maybe getting how
real everything was to me
I'd say I think I just kind of started
giving more of myself and who like who I
actually am you me like like a little
bit like reverb and I think it also
became one of those things where like I
got so much negativity that it almost
became like okay there's no point to
overly hate on this dude let me actually
see what he's doing
and when you look in there's some good
music there you know what's why does it
I always have respect for my peers it
almost becomes like if the people you
love [ __ ] with me maybe you might not be
correct in your social yeah
daddy should've woke up once work but I
didn't I probably should have saved a
little money I shouldn't be high every
day
summary product it's my hats often to
like all the people that did like
champion me and did say you know
whatever like we [ __ ] with him and it's
real I came for whoever's in charge just
gonna get self a weapon in the car I
need some copy I think for me I just
want to get it far away moms that could
like I went out there I started
recording maca Delic and I just loved
the environment and I was like I'm
saying certain energy out there that is
beautiful and unmatched anywhere else so
I think I just you know I caught the
vibes you know like look your
[ __ ] bathroom and just wanted to
ride it out and see where when and it
went to places that could never imagine
to have all that space isn't pro-ana con
depending how you look at it but it's
really just something within myself that
was the thing that initially got liked
for a while but that's more dangerous
than actually la he's just kind of just
sitting there by myself all the time you
know just becomes like it becomes a
toxic it started by me just sitting
inside all day and then it's like then
you get bored then you're like well I
could just be high and I could have a
whole adventure in this room I'm always
like if someone's like you want to try
this I'm like yeah sure and then it just
kind of [ __ ] you up when you have a
bunch of money cuz like you try drug you
like it and you can buy a lot of it you
know so I went through about everything
include a couple things here there's a
lot a lot of talk about me being on
drugs look at me do I look like I'm on
drugs to you not on drugs drugs are on
me alright that was that was a [ __ ]
quote that was the quote at one point we
didn't relax me from everything it made
me more paranoid about all the [ __ ]
happening right so like I needed to get
a drug that was a little more numbing if
you will and let's like in your head so
yeah that's I think that's really what
sparked me doing other drugs is because
I hate being sober I wanted a drug to do
now this is too much though like this is
the pure that's how though what you're
not listening to it yeah I know it's not
it's not even the one that did you think
is it hey I was doing that that's that's
really it what would an active listen to
me a little brother this right here I'll
chase it Allison you're gonna miss a
couple of show no way that's it this is
perfect
I'd rather be the corny white rapper
then the drugged out mess who can't even
get out of his house overdosing is just
not cool
there's no legendary romance you don't
go down in history because you overdosed
you just die when you stop making
excuses for myself that's really when it
was when it's like I step out and look
at how this looks to someone who doesn't
have any idea that I'm famous whatever
just like walks in and lips in situation
they're gonna be like this is [ __ ] up
you know being able to to admit that
that that's not the way to live and now
you can still have fun I mean I'm not
[ __ ] sober I get [ __ ] up like let's
keep it real I get super [ __ ] up still
all the time that will never stop I'm
just in control of my life
I'm not [ __ ] up right now I'm chilly
I spent a lot of time in Pittsburgh
towards around there finishing the album
just like hanging out my friends that I
grew up with and everyone in going out
and drinking and being around people
I've known for a long time
and that just feels that feels nice it's
great to drive around without GPS it's
great to [ __ ] know where to go to get
anything at any time it's great to go
back to places you ran around as a kid
as an adult oh man if there's no better
thing than having your hometown love you
I think they love me I hope they do I
love them please don't go International
recording artist and it's per
Mac Miller Steeler Nation wave those
terrible time
I want to be positive as a human being
and through music but I also want to
have low points you know it's like an
ascension and there's moments and I get
dark because it's not nothing is all
good roll around like I've run this [ __ ]
I got a system filled up with toxins a
broken heart and I was [ __ ] that [ __ ]
getting how to deal with my parties I
was not having to cut all highly
drug-induced albums definitely are they
great definitely you know I'm not gonna
take anything away from the [ __ ] that I
went through to make these albums I'm
not gonna write them off just because I
was on drugs because I went through too
much emotionally and mentally and
negative against me physically to act
like it was for nothing I went all over
performing right but there's something
special there's something that's the
most important there's something that's
my favorite thing in the [ __ ]
world to perform in Pittsburgh
when I come home I want to see [ __ ] be
the craziest and I've ever seen and my
mother [ __ ] run yeah my real rapper
yet that's why I am about here I
completely have confidence in my ability
I'm not I'm not tripping on having to
over flex for anything I've have
accomplishments and they speak for
themselves not music and it speaks for
itself and I must be a real rapper be
new we're not wanna say I mean
yeah man for the laying off fàbregas la
get a check right down to one single for
face you don't leave it up to tangling
like what I get your to Russia