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Mooji
Zmar
Silent retreat 27.09.2014 Session 1
Vast is the Sangha of One
When Resistance Comes - you are on to something
[Mooji:] It is because
you're onto something
that resistance has come.
You see.
If you are moving about in regular life,
you'll probably not feel
this type of doubt or resistance.
It's only as your attention has turned
inwardly,
towards the source;
then whatever was not perceived before
now starts to come.
By the light of consciousness
it's coming now to the surface,
and deep feelings of discomfort can come,
you see.
Because you're hitting the hard core stuff.
Now hard core stuff is nothing also.
It's only something
when the person is fighting to stay.
The person is fighting to stay.
It says, 'Look, I've been with you
for so long.
You're not going to leave me now.'
[Laughter] You see?
And we are confused because
we identify with the person.
We being what?
The pure Self.
And the player called existence
gets identified with the person;
personhood.
Then it has some affection
for what I call the 'infection'.
And it deeply believes
it is person;
'I am this person.
Outside of my experience,
you know, what is there
to aspire for?
I don't know that place.'
It speaks like that, you see.
That's called sleeping.
So, my encouragement;
don't give up;
don't give up now.
Because if you give up now,
that resistance is going to stay
embedded somewhere
in your consciousness.
And you will not come past this limit,
this sense of a limit.
It's not a true limit;
it's an imagined limit.
Something will say, 'No, no, no,
I don't want to experience that again.'
And the mind will record it
and exaggerate,
you see,
this sense of struggle.
It's a small thing.
You must go past it.
Every true being
who has awakened to the Self
has gone through these feelings,
I'll tell you.
It can seem like,
'Whoa, the rest of my life
I cannot spend like this.'
Like what?
In this exaggerated state, you see.
So, I encourage each person,
please,
be aware of this.
You have read, some of you,
about the life of the Buddha,
or of Lord Krishna,
of Christ, and so on.
They are just examples.
And many, many others,
who as they were somehow reversing
the attention into the Heart,
into the Source,
into their God Self;
so many temptations,
so many doubts come.
You see.
But,
you persevere.
Why? Because another presence is there
that reminds you,
'Keep quiet.'
There's a passage in the Bible,
I remember we were always reading
from childhood.
They got us to,
what you would say,
we had to remember it.
It's a Psalm.
It says,
'Yea, though I walk through the valley
of the shadows of death,
I will have no fear of evil,
knowing that you are with me.
Your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.
Surely goodness and mercy
shall follow me all the days of my life.
I will dwell in the house
of the Lord forever.'
And what kind of experience
did such words and such plea come
in a moment like,
when you're feeling your weakest?
You're thinking, 'I don't,
I can't do this.
I just can't do it.'
You see.
And I'm feeling, you,
even this 'you' who can't do it,
you just have to hatch
out of this 'you'.
It's happening.
Grace brought you here.
Rumi say also,
'That which brought me here
must take me home.'
Isn't it?
What is this home?
Some far away place? No, No.
Here.
When we are not, somehow,
aware of our inmost being,
then we are in exile from the Truth.
It feels like that.
It's not actually true,
but it will be experientially true,
because then somehow,
we're walking in the forest of mind;
in very unstable place.
So this why I encourage you,
don't...
it is because something,
something is deepening in you
that these fears come;
don't panic about it.
Sit it through.
All this is soon pass.
It will pass.
If you're going to buckle,
bend,
wobble,
fall,
every time
life does this at you,
then you will move very, very slowly.
Be bold and courageous.
Say, 'I am. I am the Self.'
'All the true voices remind me,
"You are the Self."'
Even if you feel, 'But I am only child',
I am the child of God;
not the step child
of God, [Laughter]
not the son-in-law,
not the daughter-in-law;
you see?
So you have really nothing to worry about.
Stay put.
Continue in your seeing.
I have not asked you to perform
any spiritual gymnastics.
Just quietly within your own being,
allow my words
to point you to the place
that you can never not be,
only you imagine.
And all this world,
all of it,
is dream!
I don't dismiss this dream.
It's a divine dream.
This ordinary seeming world
that we see,
is not the way you perceive it.
It's miraculous.
It's magnificent.
It's divine.
It's the body of God itself;
the prana of God itself.
But to recognize this,
your eyes must be spiritualized,
has to be open again.
You see.
When it is, then you'll say,
'Oh my God!'
'Now my life is so wonderful
and everything has become beautiful!'
It hasn't become.
It has always been like this,
just your eyes become
mature enough to see;
from purity, from love again;
and to see the ever-present
and unchanging beauty
of the Supreme.
When our eyes are dirtied
by limited association
with the impermanence
of the mind,
then we are in a state of delusion;
you don't see.
We don't see.
Someone who has
a lot of desire and intention
does not see what is really on offer,
you see.
You only are fixated upon
fulfilling your projections,
so you don't see.
Only when you're empty,
you will see.
And you need not
be thinking about seeing
a world of objects.
You'll be seeing the subject.
You'll be seeing the subject,
but not as an object.
All these things are going to become
sparklingly clear for you
if you persevere
with the encouragement I give you.
Don't doubt.
Doubt is not
original to you.
Doubt is not, you see.
You must define that
which is beyond doubt,
and beyond belief;
even beyond conviction,
so powerful is the truth
that you are.
Some people say,
'Satsang's too long.'
[Laughter] Okay.
I know this feeling, you know.
I know this feeling.
Also myself in India,
I was sitting at my Master's feet.
Sometimes, something is wriggling;
it's wriggling.
One day I came to Satsang,
already people were going in,
and this idea come,
'I don't want to go today.'
'Today I want to go to the town.'
[Laughter]
So I slipped off,
jumped in rickshaw.
[Makes rickshaw sound] 'Rrrrrrrrr'
[Laughter]
Going down.
I felt great! I felt great.
Whoa! Yeah,
I could have done this long time ago.
I feel the breeze coming.
'Rrrrrrrrrr' [Laughter]
[Makes horn sound]
I got into town. I got out rickshaw and
Oh! I feel free, free! [Laughter]
And I walked into the town
looking at, looking at CDs.
'Hmm, hmm,
Hari Prasad Chaurasia, oh okay.
I like him, I like him.
Can you play this one for me?'
I'm listening, but inside I felt bad!
I felt bad.
Looking around,
trying to buy more clothes.
I already had too much clothes.
Looking around,
and something was missing in there.
After half an hour;
rickshaw. 'Rrrrrrrrr'
[Laughter]
'Rrrrrrrr'
I tell driver, 'Hurry. Hurry up.'
'Rrrrrr' [Laughter]
I just went back to catch Satsang. Phew!
[Laughter] [Mooji laughs]
You don't worry.
You're fine.
Some people,
they have only really been introduced
to Satsang through YouTube.
And of course,
we are so happy for this medium,
YouTube, you know.
Myself, I cannot tell you how happy I am.
I am not very technical person,
so initially when it was, you know,
brought to our attention
about this YouTube,
it was completely new.
And I said, No, no.
Not that kind of technology.
I've very, you know, I have this side,
you know, Not a microwave. No, no.
They said, 'No, no, no,
actually it's good, you know,
because many people can ...'
So we did one,
and then somehow some response came,
and it was very powerful.
Because one person wrote,
wrote to me,
and say, 'I am,
'I am terminally ill,
and I am not able to leave
this room in hospital. I cannot go.
But you came into my room
and showed me freedom.'
And I was so touched.
This is the beginning of all of this,
just because, I said, We have to,
we have to do more.
Because this person, I have never seen
face to face in this way;
and yet such a profound encounter
at the same time.
Then I began to appreciate,
but this is good,
it's a good thing.
So many people have been introduced
to Satsang through YouTube, you know.
And as a result of that,
maybe some of you are here.
But you didn't realize
this was going to be such a long YouTube.
[Laughter] [Mooji laughs]
So they say, 'Oh no, no, no, I can't.
This is too, it's too long.'
[Laughter]
'We can't sit for so long.' [Laughter]
And I'm reminding you
why you are here;
for liberation.
[Silence]
See it through.
You may feel,
'Oh, I am going through so much.'
And I say,
it's more that it's going through you.
[Laughter]
You're not going through anything.
You are just here.
Everything, the whole universe
is going out.
And I said I don't want to emphasize
teaching, teaching,
building up more knowledge,
collecting, you know,
because we are already
constipated
with so much information.
I don't want to give you
more information.
Satsang effect
is more like a laxative.
[Laughter]
You see.
So, big diarrhea!
[Laughter]
And what remains is this thing;
this beautiful thing,
isn't it?
The pure Self
in the play we call existence
gets identified with the person,
then it has some affection for
what I call the 'infection',
and it deeply believes it is a person.
To walk in the forest of mind
is a very unstable place.
Be bold and courageously say,
'I am the Self'.
I am not asking you
to perform any spiritual gymnastics.
Just quietly within your own being
allow my words to point you to
the place that you can never not be.
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