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hi hi dad
what's cry aloud hey gel-like zero
okay yeah okay so I was just walking
around the Westwood and I stopped by a
sign that said to call someone you've
lost touch with and tell them what they
mean to you I'm professor Fraser I just
wanted to thank you for being such a
great mentor really help them get on the
right path to med school and everything
yeah give me a call sometime Audrey yeah
hey it's me Jen Jennifer from last year
how are you
I was just calling to say hi and you
know I love you
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and I with you
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hey Paula this is Scott how are you I
just want to tell you that I love you
and I want to be able to talk to you
more often than every three or four
years okay love you want to tell you
like thanks for putting me through all
that to help me become a better artist
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and thanks for being like our mom you
know you're my dad and I want to be
around you and I want to have
experiences with you I want that as well
okay great
also ever since grade 8 we've just
always stayed great friends even though
our paths have diverged so much so thank
you for always being there for me and
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people that I love the most from back
home and you make home such a special
taste for me you and I I guess we've
never really super close growing up even
though I do see you we're gonna mount I
do feel like we should talk more okay
yeah we're good I think great well I
guess I'll see you in a couple weeks for
holidays so we definitely need to have
kind of like an All Hands stand we're
needing to just get everything out get
everything out and then we can move
forward
it was awesome to hear you and I'll try
to keep in touch tomorrow right
love you and they love you lots
love you love you bye
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so Tara and I were married for seven
years and two years into it we had an
active ani you know we had a few good
years I just think that at some point
you know we stopped watering the plant
and you know with anything a plant if
you put poison on it it'll just wilt and
I my parents have been together for 45
years divorce was never an option for me
so these were painful times hard it's an
awful feeling to not be with your child
every day of their life some point she
started seeing somebody after we were
done yeah at the time of the divorce I
didn't consider Jamie finding another
wife that triggered a lot of emotions
it was gonna be around my son
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the idea of Jason being a co-parent was
the easiest thing I mean it he's
completely born to be a father so for me
as next stepdad when I introduced him I
never call him my stepson like this is
my son and I let Knack know immediately
when I married his mom like you're my
son
you're my blood he fully embraces him
goes to his basketball games goes
through homework gets gets I saw him cry
once when my son wasn't telling the
truth about something I saw Jason might
even be hurt like he's invested in him
like we play around a lot but a lot of
it at this stage especially being 12 and
13 and it's like how you move through
this world as a man Jason has this way
about them that's very something I don't
have which is like structure by the
grace of God I was blessed with a new
husband
and Jamie was blessed with anyway I
don't care who these other people are
with my kid it's just not me so I love
Jamie and I love Natasha but it's not me
and and so that's my struggle like
that's that's where I fall apart all the
time
not knacks relationship with Natasha is
great he just has a huge heart and kind
of accepts a lot of people into his
world and she makes it really easy
music is a big part of this family just
keeps it really fun and light and and
loving too
you know and I think that's a big way of
how nak and I have bonded being kind of
like a new friend in his life as well as
a new parent in his life but still
keeping it loving and fun one of the
things I'm gonna do today is I wrote
Jason a letter which opened up a lot of
stuff about how I feel about him as a
man and as a father to neck a co-parent
I haven't had the opportunity to really
sit with Natasha and thank her for all
the incredible work that she does with
my son she needs to hear it and she
needs to know
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a long day are you supposed to be
someone I hate aren't you supposed to be
someone that challenges my own manhood
this new woman in my life a new pair of
arms that my son would be cuddled in I
knew I was not being replaced but you
were only adding more laughs into Mac's
life you're a man of integrity a man of
skill a beautiful husband you are so
kind
tender-hearted woman who I could clearly
see loves not from her core I admire you
and I'm grateful for you there's this
thing about happy wife happy life but I
also believe that your love for Jamie
makes him a better dad Fornax he's so
lucky to have you I know how powerful it
is for a boy to see that his mother is
loved because that's how he's gonna
treat his wife can you're doing that for
him
you're doing the things I didn't do
and I love you for that man I'm supposed
to not love you for that but I do and
thank you for being who you are and for
loving my boy you are truly already a
wonderful mother and our journey has
only because this lovely surprise let's
meet thank you thank you my man I just
want you to have that
you ain't gotta say nothing bad just
want you to feel my mother thank you
neck has always wanted a big family one
with lots of brothers and sisters and
now look what has happened for him
dear Noreen dear Alex hey Veronica
dear pops you were my bestest childhood
friend you were a second mom to me you
are the best brother the whole family
tell me very similar see that I just
like your dad
we called you tricky Alex because of all
the pranks it you pull on us the main
entrance to your house was that stairway
and you always run down Jessica
everybody say you can't dance and they
show me love videos I used to be groovy
hey remember when you would scale the
walls in the kitchen and when some would
come around the corner you'd be there in
the middle of the doorway waiting to
surprise us you had got us sir mix-a-lot
teeth and we all listened to it in your
room when you opened it we were just
jamming having a good time
you had the most beautiful garden it was
a lot of work all the time with me and
my friends if you were here today I
would imagine you still probably
volunteering even with helping the
elderly I would imagine you would be a
doctor you would be teaching art
absolutely I would be in your class go
into the library together I know you
liked reading you'll be helping me with
my career you're just full of energy and
a lot of life when I found out about
your passing I was at home by myself
after school doctor came in and
you said you were gone but I thought you
had a heart attack the Torrance high
school she told me to show she was like
well your father died he had overdosed
on pills or whatever and we were
supposed to see each other that weekend
so I broke down in tears confused mainly
because I had just spoken to you and I
wanted to physically save you
I wanted to save him and I didn't really
know what to do
a lot changed I grieved a lot it was
like a complete void at that time I just
know I understand you could take a life
like that
did you think about us or maybe you
didn't so it wouldn't change your mind
they're just so much pain it's
unbearable pain I got angry because my
best friend your daughter changed after
that until this day every time I step
foot in that house I still look up those
stairs I still hear your dad is still
looking for peace I wish you were here
today coz there's ways that we still
need you I know I need you cause like
I'm still a young man I got a long ways
to go I wish I knew why you felt the
need to just completely leave somewhere
in the decision-making process you
figure that everyone would be better
without you and that's not true you're a
good son you are a good friend you know
you would love me
you're the heart of the family
you matter you always did you ways well
Alex you were a little brother you were
full of life and full of energy you were
a good person I know you're with me
every day love the old buddy and then I
love you I love you and I want always
treasure our friendship and for that I
love you
you I love you I love you
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do you remember the last time you cried
Wow Wow I don't really cry right out
remember what date no to three weeks ago
I just cried today
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this morning when I accidentally hit my
knee on the bed rail
my dad farted in my sister's face I
laughed so hard I cried so I found out
today that we got Hamilton tickets and I
think I cried a little bit Oh like
sometimes when I when people hurt my
feelings I'm a really emotional person I
am actually a big crybaby I used to be
embarrassed about that but now we know
what the hell I'm gonna cry whenever I
want I'm gonna cry right now no I'm not
as fake crying for sports I remember
like I didn't qualify for a certain meet
that I worked so hard for and I should
have made and this is like so
disappointing you're watching some
cheesy movies make me cry end of rope
one
better call Saul that Heineken
commercial my mom got in town last night
from Canada and there were some tears at
the airport I get emotional about a lot
of things you know I I get emotional if
I see a bad news you know things that
are going on around
and was that a friend's unexpected death
I went to an audition to be somebody who
was homeless and I showed up looking
homeless and I was treated as a homeless
person and that was an extraordinarily
humbling I was driving from Las Vegas
the day my mother died and it just burst
out of me probably a few months ago when
I thought of something about my dad I
saw some pictures of my mom yeah when my
mom passed David about a week after my
father passed had to a place of just
being angry I just like been through a
breakup and it was like my first real
relationship that I had put in like a
lot of effort into was just like so
angry I didn't know where to put it and
I just came out in tears I just cried
and cried my eyes out for like a
straight five minutes and after I was
done I felt it was like a massage to my
heart
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