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- My name is Shawna Murray Browne.
I am a native Baltimorean.
I'm an Integrative Psychotherapist.
I'm a Liberation-Focused Community Healer.
My work is to help Black folk
and those that care for them
remember how to heal themselves.
I work from the premise that Black folks especially,
and the Indigenous folks and other folks of color,
come from a lineage history
of having natural ways of caring for,
of nurturing, and of healing.
Systems or -isms
like racism and capitalism
have made money off of our ongoing oppression
and us not knowing that we have these innate powers.
I could say individually,
our reaction to and the generational harms
that have been passed on and has transformed into a culture,
not even having the ability to ask the right questions
to know how to gain access to this information.
The way that we've been trained is so Eurocentric
and is grounded in Eurocentric values.
It makes sense
that even the practitioners would feel like,
"If I could fix the thing, then it would be better."
In the beginning,
I was just using the usual evidence-based practice models,
but I felt that it was consistently missing the mark
based off of what I was hearing
from folks within the community.
The turning point for me would be
when my brother was murdered.
He was diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia
while he was incarcerated.
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I had dreams about my brother being murdered
before he actually was,
and I thought that it was residue
from seeing so many hashtags
of Black men and women and children being killed.
And so the first part of that is that there is seldom space
in mental healthcare and the way that we are addressing
these traumatic experiences
to contend with the multiplicity of experience.
After I returned to work after grieving my brother,
and what I felt as a professional
was that I had to make a decision of my profession
or my personal life and family and lived experience,
or how I was gonna advocate against the system
on behalf of my brother.
I had this really challenging experience
of feeling that the mental health system
was not created for Black folks
that were actually enduring systems of oppression,
because it didn't allow me to show up as my full self
and it required that I dehumanize myself,
to treat myself as an object,
in order to hold space for the folks that I was serving.
But I did decide that I would be out of alignment,
out of right relationship,
if I did not use my voice to talk about the harm
and the system of harms done to my brother.
And so that early stage experience
of having to make the decision and making it out of fear
while being surrounded by professionals
who did not know how to engage with me,
their colleague, their therapist.
They are the instructors.
That's when I started to shift
and decide that I was not going to be silent
about how the culture of mental healthcare
permeated and upheld systems of racism
and white supremacy by virtue of the way that we're trained.
How do we ensure that what's happening in the therapy space
is actually raising critical consciousness?
We can advocate.
We can be anti-racist in our individual practice,
and we can do that in a way that will illicit
a level of individual success or individual freedom
for the folks that we're holding space for.
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