♪
(indistinct shouting)
♪
(flames billowing, indistinct shouting)
Well, racism means... (clears throat)
MILES: A race... feels that they're superior
to another race.
JUMOKE: It makes you feel like
your life is worth less, it really does.
I don't know, I just wish there was, like, a solution already.
♪
MILES (on recording): A large part of a race feels like
they're superior to another race.
Not only do they believe that, but they act on it.
RAKESH: ♪ Probably making new (bleep), never get the credit ♪
♪ Sliding into...
My name is Rakesh,
and I should be judged about what kind of person I am.
Rakesh means the sun and the moon.
♪ They don't want you, they just wanna try to... ♪
RAKESH: I think the policemen are
the safest people.
I guess I had a naive perspective of racism back then.
JUMOKE: Oh, you know,
cops are your friends, you're supposed to... you know,
they're here to protect you--
but all I'm seeing is the opposite.
I was just looking at my expression, um...
(on recording): So how can I not
be afraid when I feel like I'm being hunted?
Obviously, I was very angry.
I also kind of see this subtext of longing, this real desire
for things to not be this way.
Don't mind me.
The fear, the frustration,
the fatigue, all brewing and boiling together,
constantly bubbling at the top, always threatening to burst,
but, don't erupt.
Stay... cool.
MYLES: As I got older,
I saw that there's like so many different types of racism,
so I think that was one of the things I would probably
tell myself to look out for.
♪
JUMOKE: Imagine that,
your words worth less, your life worth less.
Can you imagine the kind of rage
that that would inspire?
RAKESH: ♪ And I think to myself...
JUMOKE: And you were here when truth was killed.
RAKESH: ♪ What a wonderful world
When I was in fifth grade,
I didn't know half of this stuff that we were talking about.
(kids chattering)
MADDOX: Especially in school, I feel like
they find a way to sand the rough edges
of slavery and other
discrimination against people of color.
♪
(people shouting)
DON: I felt so much of these feelings
when I was kid, like...
In 6th, 7th grade, we're reading these history textbooks.
We open the page to this painting,
and this is the symbol of manifest destiny.
But those of us that are Brown, that are Indigenous,
that are Black,
we are literally chased out of the frames of these pictures
and then forced to, like, invest in that emotionally
or believe in that?
All of it, when I think about it, when I sit with it,
it's, like, crazy.
♪
There's a narrative that, that we're dangerous.
I mean, every day, people are getting killed, so it's, like,
it's hard to be hopeful, to be honest with you.
♪
MARVIN: I can't watch another video
of a Black and Brown person
being murdered by police officers
with impunity, I just can't do it anymore, like,
I've reached a breaking point.
♪
DON: Many moments
did I encounter my blackness and have to decide whether it was
something to be proud of or something to be scared of.
You know, just something to have to reckon with.
♪
MILES: An interesting conversation I was having
with my white friend was just the acknowledgement
in the difference of our race and the impact
that plays in our relationship and our lives individually.
Five years ago, I was still chasing whiteness.
I realize that that's futile now.
White supremacy has taught me that, like,
the world is destined to a certain group of people.
I've worked to undo all of that.
And I have a language to address this stuff
that I don't believe in.
♪
MILES: I've always been taught to think critically,
to always question authority, question orthodoxy.
And I am still learning
and trying to figure it out a hundred percent,
but I'm understanding that...
racism is a tool.
♪
DON: I have no more time
to deal with chasing institutional space or, like,
agency over, like, some art career
that, like, really means nothing
because it's all founded in a farce of an American dream
that I no longer believe in.
MARVIN: Call it as you see it, but don't make your voice
too loud, we don't want scare the white folk.
Even though when we scream and shout and voice our pain,
many of them seem to think it's a joke,
and then they want to tell us
about hope... or community.
JUMOKE: It's important to name your emotions,
but the naming has to be followed
with the decision as well, right-- I'm angry.
What do I do about that?
♪
- There goes Malik!
Malik!
♪
I'm honestly surrounding myself with Black people.
It goes a long way to know that someone is feeling
the exact same way that you're feeling.
It makes you kind of want to advocate for yourself.
It makes you understand that you have value in a way.
DON: I'm fortified in my history
and my ancestry.
And I have only but one way to go from here.
♪
JUMOKE: Being in this constant state
of discovery and exploration,
it's really restorative for me,
especially when we're living in a time of so much trauma,
so much violence.
This feeling of self-determination,
it kind of guides my life.
How do I want to be in the world?
How do I want to feel, what do I want to do?
♪
I think all Black people are inherently activists,
in our existence is radical.
MYLES: When I was younger,
I didn't really see that, and I kind of had that,
that thought in my head that, "Oh, this is not my fight.
This is not my battle," but it is."
(sneakers squeaking, people cheering)
MILES: I think I have a duty not only to call out
anti-Blackness, but to also lift up pro-Blackness
and lift up my Black peers.
♪
DON: For so long, I'd been vying for like a seat at the table.
JUMOKE: But as I've gotten older,
I've realized I don't have to live in that structure.
I don't have to look at myself by how whiteness looks at me.
DON: There's all this stuff we can do on our own.
And with each other.
♪
MALIK: I came from Black people.
I got my identity from Black people
and it would be disgraceful
not to step up for people being oppressed.
I am included in that.
♪
JUMOKE: We're constantly finding
new ways to access levels of freedom.
It's not so much about how we excel,
despite all odds in this society,
but how we find room to breathe, how we find room to dance,
how we find room... to love.
♪