We're gonna have a pool party I think it'll be fun
I'm excited to see Colton but it's super important that I get time to talk to him
today are we doing because last time we talked on the great day it was a total
train wreck so I'm hoping we can clear the air and get a relationship back to a
good place are we doing this week has been a little more emotional than what I
thought it was going to be I had some conversations that made me you know sort
of question my instincts and I hope that my heart doesn't lead me in the wrong
direction I'm also hoping that I get some more clarity on that today so
canceling the cocktail party in hopes to lighten the mood a little bit let's have
some fun I appreciate it
we look so good with the shirt off it's like like Prime now you need some oil
this looks really sexier though now you look good are we getting in the
pool or what oh yeah two days in a row Colton no shirt on I'm like sign me up
I'm like honestly he doesn't even need to wear a shirt to the rose ceremony I
will be a-okay huh
Baby Talk - no have you no pie I'm ready so ready yeah are you gonna tell him the
truth about the situation cook you-let's I don't want to talk about her there's
been like a lot of petty girls drama things it's been a rough few days but
I'm dying with Kalin this is like I'm not doing this anymore now well I think
you want to progress with your relationship I continued dwelling the
same thing yeah and then we can just like have fun because there really a
relationship supposed to be fun and it has not been fun this week what are you
drinking a jalapeno margarita just killed me who knows what she's talking
about but she's not saying she loves you my fear is that she's gonna go talk crap
about you and then he's gonna believe that if Kayla's talking crap about me
she got everywhere there's a beautiful monster inside of me and today we have
to let it out okay what mm-hmm I say there's a tank of rage
well right now it is full your fault oh and the base is about to come out
okay let's just get into it what are we getting into I want to be honest so
Hannah and I do have like a past and it's not like an easy breezy past by any
means um what it's shaking I don't like this
um we were really close and then I noticed like when I was like getting
more attention in terms of like Miss USA stuff is like when she started to get in
her head because I was first her I'm Miss USA but
she didn't place and that's like in that moment she started to talk and started
to like do things I was like manipulation deceitfulness and talking
not kind things about me it's just such a pattern of behavior and I've noticed
it in a house too where she kind of spirals whenever I have like the
slightest bit of success which I hate because I love to be happy and like have
like happy people in my life and whenever I feel like someone toxic is
coming into my life that's when I kind of pull back slightly you know I never
want to like throw under the bus or like do anything like that but I wanted to
make sure that you know like I want to be here for you and focus on
relationship and I don't want I just wanted to be honest yeah I mean I
appreciate it and I think I think while I try to stay focused on our
relationship I mean you saying those things does
concern me because I did have a one-on-one where I did get to know her
and I didn't see that so my god I'm just I'm really trying to
process everything right now and I think that's where it's like frustrating for
me because I'm trying to understand I'm trying to understand it yeah
yeah I like him a lot especially after our one-on-one and the time that we
spent but Kaylin tells me that Hannah is manipulative toxic and all of those
things are very concerning there are powerful words I'm gonna feel caught
off-guard and it makes me sick to my stomach thinking about it
so I do want to get some answers I do want to get some clarity and I do want
to know that I can trust my instincts how are you good Heather do you mind if
I talk to Hannah here yeah how are you good I'm good how are you I feel better
today the past few days have not been good I know I can agree today I just
want to hear from you I mean I just I want to move past this because I want to
get back to like where we were the night of our one-on-one okay but when Kaelyn
talked to me your character did come into question and there just were some
alarming things in my opinion that were said okay the words that I'm caught up
on manipulative toxic and deceitful like that is a big deal and that is something
that I'm not looking for I'm not I'm not deceitful
I'm not manipulative it's lies that just aren't true if it's not true
why would she say I think because she's manipulative and fake she can put on a
show of whatever Kailyn wants to be whatever version she wants to be for
whatever goals in mind she's not showing all of who she is
so when she's with you and I honest to goodness like believe that if you picked
her at the end you would never see the full person it makes me consider it like
Mick breaks my heart for you and that's me being real in his eyes as possible
yeah I mean it's just a lot for me to absolutely I mean I know like hearing
your deceitful and you're saying she's being deceitful I feel like I'm going
round around in circles like that's why I like for me this is so frustrating
because I just don't know what to believe just freaking trust me I'm
telling you the truth
sorry I just need to take a moment
this is my worst nightmare today I was hoping I would get our relationship back
on track but instead I had to defend my character and that sucks my fear is that
Colton listen sterilize and he sends me home tonight I'm frustrated because I
still don't understand this no the last thing I wanted to do today was spend all
day at the pool party talking about this do you know work all day well I still
talk in Hanabi what have they been talking for great they've been talking
for like a very long time tonight is the rose ceremony so that's not fair to
everyone I'm she's taking up the whole a great pool party
I like Hannah and I value her opinion but I'm not getting clarity at all and
with Kailen it's the same thing how many people haven't talked to him I have it I
have it if I don't talk to him I'm going home tonight I need to talk to him right
now where is he it's two completely different stories so
I don't know what to believe it's just confusing so no all right yeah are you
frustrated I'm frustrated cuz I like both of them
it's just two different stories that I keep hearing what do you feel like
you're missing I was hoping to have some sort of clarity I still don't
yeah I feel like it's gonna affect my relationship with Hannah and Kailyn I
mean a statement like Hannah said is if you pick her you're not gonna see the
full her like that was a fear of mine coming into this but can somebody take
advantage of me do you think it's gonna affect your decision tonight could
I just need to figure out what I want to do
you