Hey guys, it is Wednesdays with Chaseypoo and today we are talking about coming out than once.
I have had to do this.
And I don't remember what this is actually in relation to completely one hundred percent.
Ehm I remember seeing a post... maybe. I don't know. Whatever.
I'm going to talk about how I originally came out as bisexual, then lesbian, then trans, then trans lesbian...
... then queer and now what the fuck. I don't know.
So I knew that I like was attracted to girls when I was twelve.
But I didn't tell anyone, because I was like: "This is disgusting!"
But then I told all my friends and my... I had two best friends.
One of them was like: "Oh, whatever. My brother is gay."
And then the other was like: "That's disgusting!" And I was like: "But we're still friends? Okay... bro."
I'm kidding... bro... that's rude.
And then like after a while... I don't even think I came out to anyone as like lesbian.
I think it just like... Everyone just realised that I was only dating women.
And they were like: "I see you."
But like fuck man. I was the only one in my whole school.
They wouldn't even let me fucking start a gay-straight alliance.
And then the second we graduate like eight of y'all fucking...fucking people come out.
Thanks for leaving me alone. Thank you.
But anyways. I had... I didn't really come out as like a lesbian, but like people just knew.
And I was the only one out of my school of like three thousand fucking kids.
Ehm but there was this one guy. And he was like: "I'm not gay, I'm metrosexual."
And he was like: "I'm bisexual." And then he was like: "I'm gay!"
And I was like: "Oh my god! I know! Trust me, this is what everyone goes through."
"Oh no, I'm just a butch." "Oh no, I'm just bi." "Oh no, I'm a lesbian."
I feel like this is such a common thing when people don't want to admit it.
Except this is like a while ago, right? I graduated high school in 2008.
Oh my goodness, I'm old.
I'm kidding.
Ehm but kids these days are coming out as like queer and pansexual when they're like fourteen.
And I'm like: "Where were you when I was young?!"
Seriously though, what the fuck?! Where do we live? What kind of amazing place do we live in now?!
Anyways, ehm there is still a lot of hate though.
But I think it's really cool that like kids are able to express themselves more.
And be like: "Yeah, I'm pansexual."
And I'm just like: "You know what that word is?"
I didn't even know what that word was until I was like nineteen or something... or twenty-one.
Ehm but anyways... So I did not come out to my dad as any of these things.
He just kind of found out.
He was like asking me questions one day about school. And then he was like: "So, do you have a girlfriend?"
I was like: "He knows!"
And then it was kind of the same thing with trans. 'cause, you know, didn't tell him.
And he was just like ehm... found out on Facebook.
And then he called me and he was like: "What are these pills you're going to be taking?"
Oh, do I have anything in my teeth? Oh that would suck. I just filmed like six videos.
What is that? It's disgusting. I'm sorry, oh my god.
Can you imagine? Because I had things in my teeth before, 'cause I had a smoothie. Oh my goodness.
Oh my goodness, I've got stuff all over my teeth. This is so embarrassing!
I've been working really hard at making these videos.
I have a lot of anxiety right now too.
Ehm but I believe that ehm coming out more than once happens to a lot more people than we think.
Ehm some people have to come out as straight and cis and that's really hard for th...
I'm kidding. I'm such an asshole right now, sorry.
I have like a smoothie and I'm like jumping.
And some maple syrup, so I'm all like sugar all over the place.
But ehm... what time is it? I'm hungry. It's eleven o'clock.
It's eleven o'clock. Do you like grilled cauliflower? 'Cause that is like my new favourite thing.
I think I'm going to make that with sweet potato. Hmmm...
Ehm what the hell is the topic of this week again? Ah yes, coming out more than once!
So I think that that in relation to different identities is a thing.
But I also think it's a thing for people having to come out as trans to like... more than once to their parents.
Not because they have two parents or they have three parents or one parent or anything like that.
Because sometimes they don't get it and you have to be like...
You like come out to them and they're like: "Oh okay." And then they like completely forget.
And you have to be like: "Hey do you remember that time I told you I'm tran...
... Like could you respect that?" And they're like: "Oh, no you never told me."
And you're like: "... I told you."
So that sucks! And then having to come out as trans over and over again to all of your family.
So you could do me... You could do me, haha. Hey!
You could do something like that I did. I wouldn't do what I did, but this is what I did.
I didn't tell anyone. They just found out.
Now, there's pros and cons to that.
I have a lot of anxiety and I have a problem like telling people.
Like I could barely... Oh my god, I don't know why I was so embarrassed to be like: "I'm trans."
And I feel like people didn't take me seriously, because I didn't look male.
Ehm but now, which is very fucking problematic. I'm very aware of that.
But I feel like I told... Like my dad and my stepmom knew and then my aunts found out.
And I think they spread it to the family, which is just like all my cousins and like...
I've talked about my cousins before and it's just weird because like....
How did... I just always want to know like... How did they know. How did they find out?
Who told who? How did they say it?
And that's the one thing. A part of me really wants to know how they said it.
But I don't want to know, because they probably said: "'Old name' wants to be a boy."
Something like that, which is actually probably exactly what happened.
I'd rather not know, because I feel like I'm like starting to have a relationship with my family again.
Like my extended family, which I grew up with, like my aunts.
Because I didn't have any siblings when I was younger, right?
And I didn't have a mom, so it was like my two aunts and then all their kids, which were like almost all girls except like three.
So it was like interesting to grow up with them and then like not talk to them for like eight years.
And then now talk to them, because we went to a funeral and then a wedding together.
But I don't know, it's interesting. Also damn that lighting right now just looks so good.
I think it's because my camera wasn't plugged in and then I plugged it in.
And now it just looks really bright and I'm like hmmm.
Anyways that's what I have to say about this week's topic about coming out and stuff like that.
And it's a really interesting topic, though. Thank you for whoever suggested it.
Maybe it was one of us. Who knows?
But yeah, let me know what you think. And like have you ever had to come out multiple times?
As different identities or the same identity, like the same fucking people or like different people in your family?
Like some people write letters to their whole family.
I don't know. I don't know, whatever.
I was already not talking really to my family anyways before I came out, so...
'Cause they lived far and it's like whatever.
Anyways, I'm bad. Have a great week. Love you, bye!