- Yes, very much so.
I was just being myself the whole time.
- Say it again, Shakera.
- Use what you got to get what you want.
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- Through a friend.
Well, a former friend.
No. (laughter)
- Never do it.
Never do it.
- As a viewer, I would click on this shit.
Like I am watching every second of this game.
As a participant, one of the worst things I've ever done.
- How do you guys feel about games of chance?
- No, I don't trust that.
- Like, rock, paper, scissors.
- No! - What?
- Uh-uh - No.
- Throwing it out there, I'm throwing it out there.
- It was hard, they...
People are mean, myself included and I realize
that when it comes to money you're just cutthroat
and you really don't care.
- I didn't actually enjoy this experience at all.
People are very interesting.
It wasn't especially comfortable.
I don't think it was for anybody.
- Abbe, you should go next cause (laughter)
using the money for a plane ticket
and act like you can save for that
and if you really wanted to go, you can take the bus,
you can take the Greyhound, you could AmTrac...
- Drive!
- You could drive.
- I think it got oddly greedy because we all needed it
and it got really, kind of like cutthroat
and a little bit mean.
- I feel like it got very, very catty at times.
Like, even me, like, I'm a very straight forward,
joking, open person but there's like maybe there were
some things that I, like, said that I wouldn't normally say
and it's crazy what people will do for money.
Like, I don't know if I deserve this.
- Like, that's what she said. - Oh!
- Like that's what, she said it.
- I mean a guess a little bit more order.
I feel like everyone was talking above everyone else
and it was so hard to get a word out there.
- You coulda played that baby hard.
My baby ain't got no diapers, my baby got no wipes.
- That would probably worked on me!
- I'm out of breast milk!
- That would've worked on me!
- God, it was like who could yell louder, you know?
- Like, I think everybody's been in a confrontational
situation and the chemicals in your body start going,
your heart beats and you're hearing different things
from different people and I think nobody was trying
to be malicious, I don't-
I truly don't believe we were.
Before the video was shooting, we were all laughing
and having fun together but as soon as shit gets real,
and as soon as you're trying to defend your life
to somebody else and they're pushing it back at you,
it feels like you're being attacked
and that is very uncomfortable.
That is very uncomfortable.
- Like, everyone had problems.
Everyone here wanted the money.
It's weird, halfway through I was like
I don't belong here.
Like, tearing other people apart just because I want money.
- It's like a zero sum game so you know, you have just like
a bunch of people who have a certain goal and they're trying
to convince other people that they don't want that
and it's kinda crazy cause, you know,
the whole point is everyone wants it.
So it's kind of like a lost situation where it's like
you have all these random people that you don't really know
and by the end of it, it's just like is it over?
I was fine, I don't really, I mean, I don't know.
What if we donate the money?
- I know who needs to go cause you say to charity so...
- He's number one.
- Someone has to be the first one to go so.
- It can't not.
You can't ignore one of the biggest issues
that we face on a daily basis.
- It didn't get contentious around race until Chris
was talking about how like,
he can't get hired cause he's black,
and when he said that, I was like oh, yeah.
Like, I can totally see that happening and then Abbe
came out of nowhere, was like, well that doesn't happen.
- I don't see how anyone could say that.
That's not legal.
- Because you're white.
- Yeah, it happens way too often.
I just felt like she just cut into my soul
and I was like you don't get to cut this black person down
because that's never happened to you.
And that's when it started, like, I felt like
started playing out for everybody else, too.
- I think it was played pretty fairly.
- I hope so, it's not hard, I need rent money so.
It's not a hard story to understand.
- I think it's all about perspective.
To me, all of this is a thousand dollars stopped being
money, it started being like a ticket out of something
really bad and I saw that I didn't,
I didn't need that ticket
because I already have other ways to do it.
So I don't want to say some people's pain is not valid
or worth more than others, it's just about the people's
pain that you understand.
- You need to realize that everybody has their own struggles
that they go through everyday and then
yours may not be as bad as somebody else's.
So that's what I learned today.
- I'm very thankful for the decision that they made
and, you know, how everything played out.
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(cheering and clapping)
- I did end up winning and I just wanna say something
cause I don't know if people
who participate are gonna see this.
Like, I'm happy with the choice that was made
but I don't wanna take away from anyone that your pain
or your problem that you're going through
or you're going through at the time isn't valid.
Not at all.
I played it genuinely and honestly.
Like, I wasn't lying, I wasn't making up things, or...
I was just genuinely being myself
and being genuine and honest
but I guess, just, maybe at sometimes I might have said
little stingy things or funny things that, you know,
without taking in consideration the person or you know,
validating what they're going through, that was just,
that was just my competitive side.
That's the only thing I probably wish
that I would've done differently.
- I plan to pay bills, I plan to make sure
that I have a roof over my head next month,
and I'm going to be okay.
That's what I plan to do.
- Good learning experience.
I suppose.
It was just, seemed like a lot of investment.
I wish I hadn't told my story because it didn't matter
and now everybody knows.
So that's pretty much it.
- Yeah, I need the money but it's not worth
feeling bad about getting it.
- Shakera needs the money a lot more than I do
and I'm happy she has it.
- Yes.
No one deserved it more than she did.
- I'm happy that she got it.
- I think it was...
It went to a good person.
Yeah, I think they're all good people.
- No, Jesus Christ, no.
Are you kidding me?
I didn't even, no, no.
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