- [Narrator] Mark.
- Yes.
- [Narrator] We're here in Montreal.
- Yes we are.
- [Narrator] When I saw you guys first,
I could tell you're maybe gonna set up some cardboard boxes.
To sleep on the ground. - Well, you either sit on,
sleep on, because if you sleep on the concrete
it makes your bones cold.
You learn quick, you know,
you put any kind of insulation under your body.
Cardboard is the cheapest, most available thing going.
And it really does save a lot of body heat
and that keeps you warm,
that's everything when you're cold.
Warmth is everything when you're cold.
- [Narrator] So, you're homeless here in Montreal.
- Yep.
- [Narrator] And how long have you been homeless?
- Oh, jeez.
40 years?
Or off and on.
Straight to, probably good 15 years.
15, 20.
I'd say 20.
- [Narrator] 20 years homeless?
- Yeah.
- [Narrator] So, tell me about it.
- It sucks. (laughs)
What's to say, it sucks.
I have a problem, people abuse you in life, and,
you think you got it figured out
and you make up your own mind about people being
good and bad, and you don't trust people,
and after a while you just don't wanna be around them
because everyone is fucking you around
or ripping you off, and,
you know, you just don't wanna be around them no more
so you go find your own,
and after a while
you just don't believe in good people anymore
and you wanna be left alone,
and you gotta make your own way,
so you gotta keep doing what you gotta do.
- [Narrator] Yeah, but we met tonight
and you believed in good people.
- Yeah, I know that, yeah.
I've been telling myself that for years.
- [Narrator] Yeah, yeah.
- Yeah, that's few and far between, trust me dude,
it's more fucking assholes and fucking everyone out there
than there is good people.
- [Narrator] Yeah.
- That's true, yeah, just the way it is, hey, you know.
- [Narrator] So.
- Can I drink?
- [Narrator] It's up to you.
- Yeah, I mean like, good people are few and far between.
Asshole are a dime a dozen, that's the way it is.
- [Narrator] So what's life like?
- Life is what you make it,
I mean, if you got hope then you can make it.
I mean, you know yourself, you know,
you're gonna make it from here to there.
And don't depend on nobody else but yourself,
that's why you gotta be on your own.
And somebody comes to you in the city,
hey, trust me, and I'm gonna help you do this and that,
nine times out of 10 you're gonna get screwed,
so you're gonna end up being a loner
and hating the world
and having to do what you gotta do to get by,
if that means doing your own, being antisocial, fine,
that's what it takes and that's what you gotta do.
- [Narrator] So, is there any support
to get you out of homelessness.
- For me?
For me,
yeah, I would've been staying in school and
not getting fucked up, I had a lot of problems in my life,
abuse and,
yeah, and a lot of it I didn't talk about,
I just kept it in and I just made up my own mind that
that's the way the world is, I didn't talk and,
it just,
later on it just festered in my mind that I'm fucked up and
other people fucked me up,
and I'm trying to straighten it out, but you know what?
I can't, I'm fucked up. (laughs)
- [Narrator] I think you're pretty nice,
you're really awesome.
You took me to a place and we handed out socks together.
That's pretty cool.
- Well, to be real, you know,
people need the socks, you know?
- [Narrator] Yeah, but I was a complete stranger, you know?
- But you're a nice guy, I like that.
- [Narrator] Anyways, I enjoyed meeting you.
- Thank you, Mark.
- [Narrator] And, you know, I understand, you know,
you had abuse,
and trying to forget.
- Yeah, get on with it, you know.
That's it, you gotta get on with life, you know.
Shit happens to everybody.
It's how you handle the humps, man.
- [Narrator] If you had three wishes what would they be?
- My life back,
my life back,
my life back. (laughs)
One, two, three.
- [Narrator] Thank you very much for talking to me.
- Alright, you're welcome, Mark.