Questioner: Sadhguru, when I’m into the height of my emotions,
surrender seems to be the nearest, sweetest thing possible.
When so many other things overpower me, it goes of… out of my vision.
Can I consciously do the Sharanaagathi (Surrender)?
Sadhguru: Don’t try to surrender because what will you surrender?
What is it that you are going to surrender?
If you bend down, that is not surrender, that’s good exercise (Laughter/Applause).
If you declare, I have surrendered, that’s a horrible ego.
So, how will you surrender, what will you surrender?
What have you got to surrender first of all?
It is out of a certain realization that surrender happens.
It’s when you..
see that...
See these words are very (Laughs)...
can be very misleading
because you have always been taught,
self worth, self esteem,
confidence,
isn’t it?
These are the valuable things to make your life.
Surrender is against all these things.
Only when you are worthless, you can surrender, please see.
If you have self worth, self esteem, confidence, how to surrender?
But can you live without confidence;
can you live without self esteem
or some sense of self worth?
Right now, no.
See, I have no sense of self esteem
or self worth that’s why any moment I’m willing to...
if necessary next moment, I’m willing to go
because I don’t think this is worth anything (Laughs).
Personally I don’t think, this is worth anything,
keeping this on but because it’s...
it seems to be useful for many lives around us, we keep this going.
But there is no self worth
because the sense of self itself is gone, so where is the worth?
Self is not worth anything
and to that which is not worth anything,
if you add esteem,
that’s lots of trouble.
And because of this esteem,
this worthless thing, if it becomes confident,
that’s real trouble.
But for the sake of survival
because people believed
people only believed, it’s not true…
People believed unless you believe in yourself, you cannot survive.
It’s not true.
It’s not true in an essential way.
But people believed that and it’s become true for them
because whatever you believe,
if you add sufficient focus and emotion to it, it becomes real, you know?
It becomes very real.
All kinds of nonsensical belief systems around the world have become absolutely real for lots of people.
Not for a small number of people.
For a vast majority of population, it’s become real.
They believe it and it is so.
So, because of belief, these things have become real.
But whatever you believe and whatever you empower with your thoughts and your emotions,
has no existential basis.
When you talk surrender, you are talking about
passing...
passing from the limitations of one dimension to another.
You knocked your head on the wall sufficiently,
now you understand
that unless you become like thin air, you will not pass.
When you have realized this, that in your present form, you will never pass,
when you realize this...
See, suppose you are imprisoned
and the doors are thick and nothing happens, you can’t go.
There is a gutter, filthy gutter,
if you crawl through this filth, you can get out to freedom.
Will you choose to crawl… crawl through the filth or no?
You will, right?
Yes?
If that’s the route to freedom, through the most horrible filth, you will crawl.
It will go into your nostrils and your mouth and everywhere but it doesn’t matter,
it leads you to freedom so you will crawl through filth.
That’s surrender.
That’s surrender because you have realized you can’t cross the prison walls standing
that is why you are crawling.
So, surrender is a certain realization
that you realize in your present form,
you cannot pass the gate.
So you find a more intelligent way to pass.
That will not come by cultivation,
that will come only by a certain realization;
either out of your intelligence
or..
because life has ground you sufficiently
or..
that you’re insane enough
to fall in love in an unbridled way,
not in a conditional way,
not in a sensible way,
not in a nice way,
in an insane way.
Insane like a Ramakrishna or a Mirabai, or Akka Mahadevi.
There have been any number, these are the known names.
There have been any number of them, who are insane.
They are not sane,
they are not nice, not at all nice, I want you to know (Laughs)
but they are fantastic.
That which is fantastic need not be nice.
Usually it’s not nice.