ESSIE: I'm scared.
I'm terrified.
Marie is walking up to these houses
not knowing if someone will come out with a gun or run us away
or what.
She called you and said she was around there?
On there? OK.
I know another house she may be at.
OK.
I'll try back around there.
He said she running at another house.
Oh, God.
That's a damn trap house.
I'm not scared because, in my mind, I want my mom.
I want to make sure she's OK.
I'm not thinking about the area, the neighborhood,
and what can happen.
Hey, have you all seen Lula?
She at the yellow house?
OK.
Thank you.
Hey.
How you doing?
Is Lula here?
MARIE: Mama, where are you been?
All I'm thinking about is laying eyes on my mom
and trying to get her to come home.
I've been worried about you.
You've been gone for two weeks.
MARIE: Yeah.
Where you been, man?
ESSIE: Hey, Lula.
MARIE: I've been worried about you.
MARIE: You've been gone for-- mama, like--
MARIE: I ain't heard from you.
Come down Diana house and talk to me.
MARIE: Come on. And I'm get you--
Come on down now.
MARIE: Nah, I ain't got 20 minutes.
I got-- well come down here.
Now.
MARIE: She didn't want me here at the damn trap house.
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MARIE: She ain't coming out of there.
MARIE: I feel real [BLEEP] right now.
She had no intentions on coming when she told me that.
FRIEND: No.
ESSIE: No.
Yeah.
I'm not coming back.
I'm not coming back over here looking for her.
FRIEND: I don't want you in this type of environment
and you get hurt.
And she's still going to come back.
Yeah.
I'll be dead in my grave.
She'll cry over me one day.
And the next day she'll be right back.
Right now I feel like my mom's addiction is winning.
She can't fight the addiction on her own.
She needs medical help.
It may be the last time I ever see her again.
ESSIE: It's hard.
It's hard.
MARIE: Yeah.
You know, just-- it's like-- like, you know,
it's just so much like [SCREAMING]..
You know, like [SCREAMING] [BLEEP]..
You know, like, ugh.
I can't take no more.
Like, how much more can I possibly take?
Me being a mental health provider,
you know, I often see other people,
you know, go through therapy and counseling.
But I never take the time to see about me.
So now, with everything that I have going on,
I am going to make sure I get therapy to find balance.
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