(cards shuffling)
(mouse clicking)
- (laughs) Do your best impression of me.
We're both gonna do this, so yeah.
- [B. Hawk] Best impression. - [Sir] Go ahead! Go ahead!
- [B. Hawk] (laughs) - [Sir] Go ahead!
- Hey, so what's up?
My name is Sir of Black Trans TV,
and I just hope you have a great and spiritual,
beautiful, blessing day.
- That's me.
- Sir out
- (laughs)
- You know what I'm--
Something like that. - Yeah.
- Something like that. - Yeah.
- You always do the pray hands.
You do that a lot.
- I do, I do.
- Okay, I gotta do an impression of you
- Now you gotta do me.
So, go ahead. hit it.
- This is gonna be--
I have so many options.
Let's see, maybe.
Like, okay, so like you'll be on your phone
enjoying your story
and you're like,
"Hey, so.
"Just had an amazing day. - (laughs)
"Oh, my eyelashes look so good.
"Oh, yeah, wait.
"Pay it, pay it, pay it." - Pay it.
- Still don't know what that means.
And you're just like, "Yeah, so."
"I don't know what wig to wear, but like
"it's gonna be a beautiful day - Okay.
- "and I want you to go out there and enjoy your day."
- That's you.
- Wow.
Who said I wore wigs?
- (laughs) Oops! - Wow!
No, I'm joking. - Sometimes you wear wigs.
(both laugh)
- My hair changes so much. - No, I'm saying--
People know. - I mean, sometimes.
It's so obvious.
- No, you just outed me, it's fine.
- Okay.
- Is it my turn?
- Yes.
- That was a great impression of me.
- That's what I wanted to hear.
- That was cute. - Thank you
- That was cute. - That was cute.
- I'll give you your props. - All right, cool.
Cool, I pay attention.
- You just don't know about style.
- (laughs) Yeah.
- What have you been hesitant to tell me.
- I'm hesitant to tell that I'm scared of you dying.
Or, like, scared of finding out
that you're gonna be murdered.
You know what I mean?
Like, with all the animosity towards people like you.
- Yeah. - Which is the reason why
I call you every night.
You know, I wanna make sure that you get home safe
and that you're good.
Like, you're one of my best friends, you know?
- Mm-hmm. - And close people to me.
So, I don't know if I actually
said that word to you.
Like, told you that I'm scared of you dying.
Which is why I really cherish our friendship.
- Yeah.
- Especially with a lot of
- Black women and femmes being murdered
- out here in these streets.
It is intense.
And you, being a black man. - Yeah.
- It's hard for us in general.
- I think a lot of my friends think that, now.
I think now that I'm definitely more visually
in this like Femme Mode aesthetically
I think people are definitely way more concerned.
And, I think we're more concerned
with each other as a whole. - Yeah.
- So, yeah. - Yeah, so.
- Well, thanks honey.
- Let's have you here another day.
You know? - I appreciate you.
Every day is a blessing. - Yeah.
Amen, amen, amen,
- It's my turn?
- Yeah, unless you wanna do--
Wait, can I ask that question to you?
- Yeah, sure.
- What even was it?
- (laughs)
- Yeah, what have you been hesitant to tell me?
- A part of me is jealous of the bond
that you have with your sibling.
Yeah, I just love the dynamic that you have
with your family.
How close-knit you are,
and how it's such an inspiration
to see black love be so genuine
between, like, your mother, and your sister, and--
You know, it's just such a powerful
and beautiful dynamic that y'all have,
and loving dynamic,
and I think I've learned that--
through you, how to express my love for my family.
Cause I haven't heard, I think, from my mother,
"I love you."
Like, my entire life.
We're not a very mushy family.
So, it's always beautiful to kind of
see other representations of black families
that do express their feelings
and who sit down,and have conversations,
and talk to their parents and their siblings every day, so.
Kinda change that cycle.
- I feel like you're getting closer to your mom at least.
I don't know about your sister, but--
- Yeah.
My sister, she's a Pisces, so. (laughs)
- Yeah, but you're having
more conversations with your mom
in like a open way,
and I think that's really good - Oh, no absolutely.
- And hopefully she says, "I love you" one day, you know?
And my mom says it a lot - (sighs)
so maybe I'll have to, like,
take one of those I love you's
from my mom and just toss it your way.
- I mean, I jokingly say it with my mother
- (laughs) - just so maybe
she'll say it back, but she never does.
It's kind of weird.
- Does it hurt? - Hmm?
It doesn't hurt, I just think it's weird.
It's just kind of like awkward, like--
So, you're not gonna say it back?
But her parents never told her that either,
so it's just like an ongoing cycle
that I have to be the one to break.
But it's tough.
You know, someone in their 30s like,
"Okay, I gotta break this cycle, now."
- Yeah.
- But you know you gotta do it.
- Ready for the next question?
- Yeah.
- All right.
When do you feel people judge us,
and why do you think they do?
- (laughs) - That's a good question.
I feel like every time we're together.
- Every time we out, because it comes
from all different forms and aspects of people.
Like, feminine people are probably like, you know,
"Oh, why is he with them?"
and duh-duh-duh-dah. - Yeah, yeah.
- You know what I'm saying?
Or, and then masculine people are like,
"Why are they together?"
Or, you know, "What's going on there?"
Like, everything is a question for people.
Yeah, I feel like we're constantly
getting judged and looked at.
Especially me, so.
- Yeah, I mean I think those are the moments
where it like really pisses me off, you know?
- Yeah
- I feel like the number one assumption from both women,
especially black women and black men,
is always like, "Oh, so they're together."
And then it's like,
well why is it an assumption that someone has to be
with somebody just because you can't figure it out?
You know what I mean? - Yeah.
- And it's just like--
It does anger me inside,
but I've tried to not show anger
and just, like, smile at them.
Like, what are you gonna do?
You know? - Right.
- Cause you're not gonna do nothing with me here.
You know? - Yeah.
- No one's gonna bother you with me by your side.
That's a guarantee.
- Security
- Yes, yes 100%.
- (laughs)
- But you know, it's just homophobia and transphobia
within the black community
- Absolutely - Because white people
don't look at us weird.
It's not that same experience.
- And I've told that to my mother and she didn't get it.
Maybe because she's straight.
(laughs)
She's like--
I always tell her, I'm like, white people don't judge me
most white people don't look at me,
or judge me in a certain way.
They're more like,
they're more interested in knowing more.
They're not like taken away or
just shocked and staring - Staring and looking at you.
- And gawking. - Yeah.
- I feel like a lot of people of color
aren't used to seeing someone so confident
and living in their true form,
so I think it is really tough for them
to kind of be like, "I don't get it.
"But I want to know more,
" but I don't want to seem like I'm interested
"in knowing more."
Because to them, or to a lot of black people,
that I'm a little bit of a freak show, you know?
- It's great to have you as a friend,
cause you're a guard from the bullshit,
you know what I mean?
- Okay? (laughs)
- Like, I'm like
- I already know you're not accepting of all black people
I can't be around you, you know?
Cause I gotta be conscious of my energy,
so I'm just happy that we're friends, yeah.`
- The community's getting better.
I think we're becoming more open and honest
with our thoughts, our emotions with each other
and communicating that.
- For sure, so I'm happy we're friends.
- (fingers snapping)
Snaps for the black people.
- Let's keep fucking it up, all right?
- Okay, shake the table.
- Shake the table.
- What is the greatest lesson I taught you?
I feel like we answered that.
- Well, not necessarily.
- Okay, the floor's yours.
- The greatest lesson that you taught me
is to live authentically, and to be free.
I'm still working on the free part.
I feel like I've gotten to a level of freedom
where I'm cool expressing myself
through jewelry, and makeup, and clothes.
However, I feel like there's a part of me
that I'm not ready to be completely free with.
So, I'm working on that.
And that's just me dealing with inner-turmoil
and trauma and stuff like that.
Especially being being a black man, so.
I am grateful to have you as my friend
cause you've helped me understand what freedom looks like.
- Yeah.
- So, I thank you.
- Thank you, Sir Night.
- Would you like me to ask you the question?
- Sure.
- What is the greatest lesson you've taught me?
Or I taught you.
I didn't read that right.
(both laughing)
What is the greatest lesson that I taught you?
- The greatest lesson you taught me
- Yeah.
- To know and be more loving of my blackness,
and my black experience, and my black history as well.
- You have grown, so I'm happy I taught you that lesson,
- Yes.
- because we've come a long way.
- We have come a long way.
- Jesus Christ, yes.
- Yeah, it was tough. - A long way.
- We was talking about police brutality
and officers and-- - Well, that was the thing.
You didn't agree with
the whole police brutality. - Well, I don't think
all police officers are bad.
And I still don't think that
to this day. - Next question.
Next question.
If this were to be our last conversation,
what's something you'd never want me to forget?
- Whoo.
- I know, that's a good one.
- Geeze.
That of course, I love you.
You are dope, you are brilliant, you are amazing.
You are a gorgeous, sexy, black man.
You are enough, and--
(clicks teeth)
I ain't gonna do it.
- Don't cry, Nibby.
Don't cry Nibby.
- No, you just, you mean so much to me.
You mean so much to me, and I'm so appreciative
of every time that we spend together.
And I just want you to know that.
- Sweet.
- Love you so much.
- Yeah, I'm gonna retort it back to you.
So, throughout that last conversation,
I just want you to know,
and I feel like I treat every day that way,
- Me too.
- cause I am worried about you out there in the world.
- I've got my will ready just in case.
- All right, cool.
(laughs)
- I ain't scared, you know what I'm saying?
- No, I'm not scared of death either,
I guess it's just like,
I would hate for you
to not ascend to where you're supposed to be in this world
because someone wanted to clip your wings.
But you're amazing, you know?
And I just want you to know that your legacy will live on.
For sure. - Thank you.
- Thank you, my king. - No doubt.
- Thank you.
- Hey, guys.
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