I am the winner which is what is
wonderful in life because everybody
feels looser and live like a winner - I
was the queen like everyone else who has
invited my country I was intrigued by
the fearless Sheila I have served thirty
nine months in prisons and that should
be enough this is Pavan Rajneesh a
popular Indian guru who ran a commune in
Oregon in the early 1980s fifteen
thousand dedicated followers gave away
their wealth to build a city for him a
Netflix documentary reveals the secrets
of the Bhagwan and his personal
secretary ma an and sheila was the
mastermind behind the Guru's success and
I wondered if she had changed was she
happy and does she have any regrets
she'll I invited me to her home and I
found out Bhagwan had a good carrot in
front of his people meditation and
enlightenment when he had enough or when
he wanted to help me with finances so my
work becomes a little easier he dangled
the carrot of enlightenment he declared
few people enlightened who's a hoax in
that sense yes but this were the same
people who ran after this hoax so don't
just blame Bhagwan blame the saint
people
I was never interested in his power in
his position one my love for him no
other reason and sex was never a issue
between us I had enough lovers of my own
after yours as his closest confidante
the inseparable Bhagwan in Shilla fell
out
Bhagwan accused her of being the
mastermind behind the series of crimes
she a former secretary of the Bhagwan
large nation faces charges of fraud and
attempted murder in Oregon my only
question to her was why you know they
were innocent people I mean why I don't
want to discuss for only one reason I
have served 39 months in prison and that
should be enough people cannot punish me
rest of my life but mentality of the
people they only want to go on on
scandals because their lives are full of
scandals do you think it was offenders
well but one created enough scandal and
I am courageous enough to me say that I
even told him on his face whoever wants
to accuse me I have done no criminal
left and I look in your eyes and I say
it with conviction same conviction how I
had loved one
and saddest moment of my life was when I
heard that Agron gave in to his anger so
badly against me there is no logic and
you want logical answer it cannot happen
and you have all made up your mind that
radishes were wrong for exercising well
I'm telling you but you're not ready to
accept my answer better to leave the
team here over two decades on Sheila
lives in Switzerland where she manages
to care homes I live a simple life
because what I have the experience under
my belt no woman can say that they have
such experience
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yeah I enjoy working I enjoy being with
people there's nothing different there I
was working with certified same people
here I work with certified sick people
good more people are the same
people's being is the same when
existence in nature has so much trust in
me people can say what they want to
regardless of what people think of her
it's really hard to know who the real
she lies thirty years ago this woman was
found guilty of poisoning people
I don't regret I will never regret she
says she has no regrets but is this new
life
Sheila's way of redeeming herself
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