there's something we listen to on a regular basis the problem is we think
it's us so for example you look at a Vase and it says godlike that's a very
interesting shape but I don't really like the color that much it reminds my
grandmother's vase and all of a sudden we have somebody narrating and talking
inside her head that is not that's not you yeah right more and more as I watch
that I realize it never shuts up that it talks about everything it judges
everything it thinks about everything right because that so far we can't say
what you are because that's a thought right right that's just you know you're
not the thought why cuz I'm watching it yes you are they're watching these
thoughts and sometimes people say to me but which of those are me none of them
are you you are the one who's watching just to separate what you're not from
what you are if you don't do that right you're gonna stay lost the self is
spiritual the one who's watching is the gateway to spirituality so if you
continue to just get involved in the mind and then thoughts of the mind this
true spiritual path doesn't take place at this stage of my growth Who I am
is the one who's in here who notices the thoughts come up who notices the
emotions come out of the heart and who sees whatever is in front of my senses I
am the seer I am the one who see that you can have a lucid dream in which some
people know about that that instead of you're lost in your dream that sometimes
you know you're dreaming beautiful all right so you are then more conscious in
that dream than you normally would be right because you're awake in a sense
you're awake within the dream yes that is what the loose itself is and now do
that in your real life that your mind is continuing life is following in front of
you but you are aware that your mind is moving that the world is unfolding but
your seat of consciousness is transcendent to that it's centered at a
deeper level and all of it just goes right by and you don't have the same
relationship with it that you used to have it's something you're watching not
something you are so basically event is happening outside
you're talking to somebody enjoying the conversation and all of a sudden they
say something that hits something inside of you a soft spot and your whole mind
your heart starts to close your mind starts to figure out why didn't they say
that did I say something wrong and you go south
you know summers right and you notice yourself starting to get involved in
that reaction and so at that moment you have to decide do I want to solve this
does this need to be solved and do I need to think about it or am I willing
to just relax and let it pass the moment it starts with that chitter-chatter my
mind my first reaction inside is to relax and lean away from that to go to
the sink just you can use words I just relax and lean away from it okay right
yes it's true you end up leaning into the seat itself okay I lean away from
the noise the mind is making by seat itself I mean that awareness and that is
my mind speaking yes so you're gonna do one or two things one it's a start
you're either gonna lean into and get involved or service do you have the
right you have the right to relax and lean away and what you're gonna do is
start to get some space and you will learn over time that that's the smartest
thing you ever did why because you gave it room to pass
through and it will pass right through all you have to do is get to the point
on your everyday life every moment of life is a spiritual experience I know
you know that yes and so I'm here on time and the reason it becomes a
spiritual experience is because you've realized you are causing the vast
majority of your own problems due to your mental reactions so as life unfolds
on a daily basis you have the right to choose not to do that
you can still go to work you still take care of the kids you just lean away from
this this mess that the mind is doing to amplify and overemphasize I over
exaggerate whatever's going on and then what do we do lean into what that that
awareness is saying what will happen is when you let go of the noisy mind you
will end up in a seat of quiet which I know you'll have to talk about you'll
have the seat of quiet cuz that's what it is back there is a sinus still
stillness right okay my experience is that now you can look at reality and you
will know what to do just the fact you know I have all this static right yeah
means the quiet one who's clear will look at reality and it will be pretty
obvious what it is for you to deal with it or it basically happens is we've gone
to the mind and said I'm not okay how does ever
they need to be for me to be okay and then we have our devoted ourselves to
try and create that situation it doesn't work but we don't know that yet and so
we try to create situations that we think will make us be okay and when
things start changing that don't match that model yeah we get scared if we get
scared because it looks like it's not gonna work and either push it away or
yeah and let it go yeah right you can either avoid it and be scared of it or
you gonna let it pass right through okay fear comes up out of your heart that's a
very natural thing it's human all right you are watching you see it you have the
right to relax let it pass right through you if you don't do that
you're gonna try and fix it you know try and control situations outside so you
don't ever feel the fear and it all starts to bother you that's what it
means you'll fall and eventually you'll lose your consciousness you'll forget
your whole purpose and you'll just be scared you just get scared life is a
natural unfolding of reality you're supposed to harmonize and work
with it you don't give up and let it take over right you're like like if you
get on a horse and you're scared yeah not to be very good rider right but that
doesn't mean let the horse go over they want you learn how to interface and
interact with life in a wholesome participatory way fear didn't let you do
that so letting go of fear is not letting go of life when you're watching
see whether what that voice is saying is really helpful you know or is it really
giving you good advice or is it just an erotic voice talking inside your head
and you will find it in every situation you're in in life there's a higher way
to deal with the situation of course there are situations that are difficult
to deal with but there's still a higher way to deal with that situation than
being reactive which is the only thing the mines gonna do that's like if your
body started to hurt you don't say shut up you say well wonder what's wrong is
trying to talk to me that is your heart telling you something's wrong inside of
me you want to get it out and so you just appreciate life as your teacher and
then ultimately just we get it down how do you get it out you relax and it will
work itself out that is my experience you relax you relax and don't touch it
and relax behind it and it will come up and push its own way out it's almost as
if your heart doesn't want that inside yeah and so just like the body pushes
splinters out yes it will try to push it out
you won't let it because the moment tries to push out you push it back down
oh this personal growth thing it's real but the freedom you it's a lot somedays
I say Jesus don't teach me that new today because because you're constantly
every day with every experience have the opportunity to take that quote spiritual
path and buy spiritual we mean opening up yourself to better understand
yourself right and every difficulty every challenge is there to help you do
that it is the beauty is you do not have to work out every one of your issues you
do not have to slick oh my god I got so many I'll never do that you do not have
to what will happen is you'll relax behind enough times to wear your seat of
awareness will now be centered more in your seat of consciousness instead of
the issues keep pulling you out and when you do that you will start to feel
something open up inside of you I guarantee you you call it spirit call
whatever you want you will start to feel a strength of power behind you not in
front of you where the thorns are behind you where you've been leaning back into
yeah and it will support you and strengthen you and feed you and the rest
of the stuff will just fall away because it looks so meaningless where is God in
all of this for you at the end of that the source of that at the end source of
that energy of the seed of self yeah that's the sort of the seat of self you
start to feel this beautiful love and joy and just it literally like a vacuum
it starts to pull you up into it and I me God is the source of that the source
of spirit and as you come closer into it you get closer to God and it there's a
joy that can open up inside that is so strong that nothing will ever pull you
out your personal stuff will no longer pull you out there's no struggle anymore
right there's just this strength the spiritual strength you've turned the
corner and that's always there that's always available to you and that's our
connection to God yes and now you sit there and say how much better able are
you to deal with the situations that need to be dealt with from that place of
peace and you are from that disturbance how do you deal with these terrible
situation aren't they real they are real and you should
with them but first be ready to deal with them come from a space of peace and
you'll find that you can deal with anything you must die to be reborn
I love the Christ said you understand that there's a Christ words you must die
to be reborn it means you must be willing to let go of your personal self
of your psychological self of the complaining voice identity all that your
image your blah blah blah all that in order to be who you are
you must be want to let go of who you think you are that's what's meant but
you must die to be reborn and as you let that go and he will help pull it out
right and so you use it spiritually and and you will see that will help you more
than any meditation or anything you meditate so that you have the center so
you can let go of what life is doing the real growth is letting go that's perfect
that was great