- To have my debut album out in the world
feels really (beep) good
because I've been sitting on this thing for so long.
The inspiration for 'if i could make it go quiet,'
I'm pretty sure it came from sounds
and just, like, this past year
and just, like, discovering new sounds, really.
Like, I don't feel like there was, like, one particular thing
or person or anything, really.
It was just, like, my love for sounds.
I feel like the mood I want to portray
in this record is just, like, every single mood.
Like, I feel like there are so many different moods.
I personally struggle with a lot of, like, never being stable.
Like, I've never had, like, a stable mood in my life
and I feel like this record is,
it's just so many intense feelings.
Happiness, love, hopefulness, all those moods.
I don't even know.
Hey, MTV News. Girl in Red here.
These are my top five musical influences.
My first musical inspiration was Daniel Beddingfield
with his song "If You're Not The One."
This song, I don't think this song has really inspired me
to make music or influenced.
I just remember very vividly being, like, six-years-old
listening to the song and bawling,
like I was crying my eyes out.
And I feel like that's, this is, like, one of the songs
that I have, like, it was probably, like,
the first song I listened to and I was, like, really moved.
Like, I was really, like, touched by the song.
So, I think this is, like, this is a very important moment
of me growing as a person and sort of, like,
like, figuring out that music can hit you this hard.
OK, my next musical influence or inspiration
was Hannah Montana, aka Miley Cyrus.
And this is kind of like a weird answer,
but I just remember thinking she was so cool.
Like, also I was really confused.
I didn't know the difference
between Hannah Montana and Miley Cyrus.
My first CD was a Hannah Montana CD from the first season
and I just remember rocking out to this song,
rocking out to this album, so much when I was, like,
I was probably, like, seven-years-old
and it was, like, my first ever CD.
And it was also, kind of, my musical awakening
when it came to buying CDs and listening to CDs,
and also just, like, obsessing over a person
for the first time and kind of realizing,
like, kind of idolizing someone for the first time.
But I fully supported her 2013, you know,
"We Can't Stop," "Wrecking Ball," all that jazz.
That was like, that was a pivotal moment for me in my life.
And Miley's apparently.
My next musical influence,
I would say that's The Smiths because in 2013 -
So, I've listened to Hannah Montana for a bit now
and in 2013, I started listening to The Smiths
after I watched a movie called
'The Perks of Being a Wallflower.'
And these guys, I would say they really influenced my music
because they made me listen to -
I went from listening to pop music
and then I fully started listening to indie music.
Listening to The Smiths, kind of, introduced me
to being a musician because I started playing guitar
after I started listening to The Smiths.
And I, you know, I was looking for fellow musicians,
so, like, I got a boyfriend who played drums
and I got a lot of girlfriends who played guitar and sung
and stuff like that.
So, I would say The Smiths are a very important part
of me growing as a music listener,
but also as a music creator.
My next great influence, music influencer, music inspiration
is actually my friend, her name is Claire Cottrill
and the most of you probably know her as Clairo.
I found Claire's music when I was, like, very young.
Well, I'm still young, but, like, when I was younger.
And I remember I found her music when
she only had music on SoundCloud and she had,
like, a few followers and I didn't really, like,
I knew nothing about her.
And I was just, you know, every now and then,
checking her out on SoundCloud
and listening to Claire's music or, like, Clairo
sort of inspired me to put out my own music on SoundCloud.
I had put out music on SoundCloud, like, prior to this,
but it sort of gave me that extra push to be like,
"Yes, I'm just gonna put my music out on SoundCloud."
She, like - If it wasn't for me
seeing another female artist putting out music on SoundCloud
and sort of like, you know, doing their own thing,
I'm not sure if I would have, sort of,
found the balls to do it.
I mean, I did it randomly, sporadically every now and then,
but sort of going all in,
I don't think that that would happen
if it wasn't for Claire.
I like looking up to my friends
and, not that I put them on a pedestal and I think,
"Oh, you're better than me," but kind of, like,
I admire all my friends who pursue what they love.
And I think, you know, that in itself
kind of inspires me every single day.
Like, seeing my friends pursue their careers,
whether it's, like, in music or film or photography,
that's just so, like, that makes me so happy
because all my friends were like,
"No, I don't want to end up here and there.
"Like, I don't want to live in this, like, you know,
"have kids when I'm 23 and then, you know,
"never, like, pursue my dreams or, like, self-realization."
Which is, like, the Gen-Z, you know,
everyone wants to do that.
I think it's really admirable, you know, being friends
with someone that I also look up to musically.
And finally, my last and biggest musical influence
is Taylor Swift
Throughout all these other inspirations
I've told you guys about, she's actually,
she's been there all the time.
So she is, she has been my muse for my entire life.
She - And I think she's so cool and inspiring
because she started out as, like, the country artist,
and she's been branching out into, you know, she slowly, like,
with 'Red,' she was kind of like, "Oh, this is very pop."
And then '1989' definitely, you know,
Taylor Swift is a pop star and, you know,
all her following albums, you know,
and now with 'folklore' and 'evermore,' it's just, like,
she is so real and so great.
I am - It's just so inspiring seeing an artist
making music for so many years
and it's so obvious it's just, like,
for the love, love of music.
Because there are so many people who make a debut album
and that's it for them,
and they kind of, like, tour that album
and they're like, "Yeah, we did it."
But like, she has made eight albums, maybe nine actually, now.
So like, it is nine I think. It might even be 10.
I don't even know anymore.
It breaks my heart, I could have met her in 2020.
I can't even think about that. Anyways.
I wasn't, I wouldn't even really say I was supposed to,
but I had the chance to meet her
'cause I was, I was gonna go to this award show in London,
this NMA Awards, NME Awards,
but I was too scared to fly over
because I had so much anxiety.
So I was like, "You know what, Ben," that's my manager,
"Ben, I am not gonna be able to go to this award show.
"Like, I am, like, at rock bottom right now.
"I don't have another flight in me to go there."
All my friends met her and I was like, "Oh my god.
"I probably would have hung out with you guys if I was there
"and I'd probably be taking those pics with Taylor."
I mean, I don't know that for sure, but like,
in my mind this is what I'm, like, constructing.
This, like, this is everything you missed out on, Marie.
Like, you know, fear of missing out, et cetera, et cetera.
So, I'm not saying that I was destined
or supposed to meet her,
but I feel like there was a slight chance
I could meet her.