H: Okay, hold on
H: The air off? S: Yeah, cause it's loud
Well, we're gonna freeze if we turn the air all the way off, I think that's okay
H: Hi S: Hi, everyone
H: Am I in it? S: Yes
Cause I can't see the screen but you can, so if you lead me astray...
Can you turn my head over a little bit?
H: If I go to edit this and my face isn't in it S: You're in it
(Shane groans) H: You're not in it
S: I'm kind of in it H: I can see you
S: You're definitely in it
H: We're in the car, we're doing a car video today
S: Car video, you're welcome H: Yeah
S: Our dog is being groomed so we have about an hour to kill
H: Yep S: And we're gonna tell you a little story
H: My lips are so chapped, holy crap S: After Hannah does her primping
H: I tried to smile and it was too tight, I couldn't smile (both laugh)
H: It's dry here
S: Today we're talking about Hannah and Hannah's beauty
H: Yeah, insecurities, that kinda stuff S: And Hannah's childhood
H: Childhood, I think this is gonna be an interesting video
S: What made you even want to do this video? Do you remember?
S: She walked into the room and said
"Let's make a video about how I didn't think that you would find me attractive"
S: And I was like what? What?
H: I think what it was is two of my Instagram reels have gotten millions and millions of views
Which means an influx of rude comments
By the way, after six years, Hannah has finally..
H: No, I've only had Instagram for 3 years S: After three years, okay, rub it in
After three years, Hannah has surpassed me in followers on Instagram
H: Sad for you
S: So you've been getting millions and millions of new people
Yes, so there's all these comments, a lot of nice people, whatever
But there's just so many comments, mostly from young men
Like I'll literally click on the name and there'll be like whatever high school class
And I'm like oh my god, you really shouldn't be saying these things online dude
But a lot of comments about Shane's appearance, my appearance
How they're mismatched, all these things
And you can guess which direction they're saying that it's mitchmatched---
Mish... (both laugh)
Mitch...mis...matched (Hannah laughs)
That took you a really long time to get
Mashed potatoes (Hannah laughs)
Mishy mashy, mishmash
Okay, so anyway, I've been thinking a lot about that
And something that was funny to me is that when I first met Shane
When we were first meeting in person, I was really worried about how I looked
And if he would be still attracted to me, because you have to understand
We were only seeing each other over Facetime
Yeah
So I'm sure Shane was worried about what I would think in person
I was worried about what he would think in person
Like I had never told her that I was in a wheelchair so that was gonna be a big reveal
H: (laughs) Noooope... S: I'm kidding
But both of us I'm sure were thinking when we're there together
What is the other one gonna think?
S: Wait, just pause H: Yeah
That blows my mind that you were worried about that with how, how beautiful you are
Well we're gonna talk about it, and so it's just funny that no one writes on the reels
H: Like, "lucky that Shane was into her" S: Yeah
But I think it'll be interesting to talk about why I felt that way
Because I've been thinking about it and there's very specific reasons why
That you probably wouldn't think about when you don't know someone
(Intro song) Hello, hello, welcome to the show, welcome to the show
Welcome to the show, it's time to talk about our lives (Chloe bark)
S: So let's go back to... H: Let's go back to 4th grade
S: 4th grade, that was when this all began H: That's when this all began
S: When Hannah began shooting upwards H: Oh man
S: Hannah was a tall kid H: And I think that is the crux of this issue
So here we go, when I went into 4th grade, now 4th grade is like 9 to 10 years old I think
When I went into 4th grade I was 5 feet tall, which is tall for a 4th grader
S: Super tall
I remember these heights because my teacher was 5'2"
And at the beginning of the year I was shorter
And I remember her making jokes about that, that I was gonna surpass her, basically
And so I remember these heights very vividly
So at the beginning of 4th grade I was 5'2"
At the end of 4th grade, so 9 months later, I was 5'8"
Oooh, were you just sore that entire year?
Yeah, I got Osgood-Schlatter disease or whatever in my knees
Did you really? Oh wow
Yeah, like messed up all my joints, it was terrible
So she got really tall really fast
Really fast, and 5'8" for a 4th grader is like not...that is not really normal
S: No (laughs)
So I'm sure I can find some photos to put in here of what I looked like at these ages
By like 5th grade I grew the rest of the way, so by the end of 5th grade I was 5'10"
And that's where I am now, so since I was 11 I have been this height
H: And generally this build S: Like wide shoulders
H: I developed boobs early on, yeah, exactly, muscular, I was a swimmer
I've basically looked the same since I was like 12
S: That's not a joke H: Not a joke
When we began talking, when we were just being silly
I sent her a photo from her facebook that I thought was very attractive
And I was like wow, you look beautiful here
And she was like yeah, I'm like 15 in that photo
I was thirteen, it was the one in the pool
And I was like uhhh, you look identical to how you look now
Yeah, so obviously the way that I look is generally appreciated by society
Like obviously you can tell from all the comments
And people are like wow, she is way hotter than Shane
All these terrible things people say
Which I don't love, I mean I'm pretty hot
However... you are pretty hot, it's just ridiculous
But that does not go for 12 year olds that look like that
Like I would get catcalled on the street, men thought I was older
All of that stuff, which made me really disturbed, I had a lot of issues with that
H: And other 12 year olds S: Who were 4 feet tall
H: Who were 4 feet tall, all of the boys, all of the girls, all these people
They were like not into me, obviously I had friends, I was never bullied, I was lucky
Probably because I was too terrifying to bully, I was like six feet tall
You were like "I will step on you"
But I was never an object of romantic attraction
Because the boys were all like multiple feet shorter than me
S: And terrified of you H: And that was just not a cool thing
Yeah, at that age you're just like um, no
Yeah, being tall doesn't become attractive I don't think until like high school
S: When you're walking around H: Yeah, or later
Like I hated being tall when I was younger, now I like it, I'm totally fine with it now, but..
So I don't know how to ask this in a not offensive way, but..
H: Oh boy
During that time did you think that you were hot or ugly?
No, that's the thing is like I hated my body, because I was like I'm too tall
My boobs are too big, that's why the construction workers whistling across the street
So no, I definitely wasn't like oh, I'm gorgeous, this is great
I was like this is horrible
And then you kind of held onto that feeling throughout high school
S: And up to when you met me H: Exactly, yeah
And so then I met Shane my freshman year of college
I didn't really feel that different, and I was like "oh my god, I'm way taller than him
I don't think he's gonna be into this," that was the main thing
Did it change later on in high school, did you become more...?
Did other people become more interested in you even though you were tall?
No, so I left my school in 9th grade, it was co-ed, it was all genders
And I went to a girls only school for 10th grade and then I home schooled
So I was not... there wasn't like a dating scene
You didn't have a big chance for interests
No, and there was no chance, so I had this experience in 9th grade
Of like, boys aren't into me, I'm too tall, I'm taller than everybody
Then I left and so I would just assume it stayed the same
And then I went onto college, and there there were taller boys
So that was, I was like oh my god, finally I don't look so out of the norm
Because the last time I had been in this situation was ninth grade
So I think there I was like oh, people are finally taller
And then I met you, so
S: Maybe your attraction to me, being 4'7" H: Uh huh, great height
And my attraction to you, was some kind of attempt for you to live out your childhood again
But in a way where you are attractive now
Huh, no
S: Like I'm a 4th grader to you H: No, that's not it, that's actually not it
S: That's what Freud would say
However, I always had the rule that a guy would have to be taller than me
S: Oh H: Because society tells you that, right?
I was like I'm gonna have to find a really tall guy to live out this fantasy
Luckily all male swimmers are pretty tall
Yeah, that's true, however when I met you
I feel like you just in my mind got a free pass
Because you use a wheelchair, it doesn't really matter how tall you are
You're sitting, so I just didn't really care about it
S: (Whispers) Thank god H: Thank god
I got a pass on the height?
No, but now I'm like that was so dumb to have that idea
But anyway going back to when we first met that I was afraid
That you would be like oh, you're tall, taking up more space
S: Your presence, yeah H: Yeah, exactly
No, I thought that you being so tall was like a bonus
H: I know, interesting S: Cause I mean on a practical level
S: It made lifting me a lot easier H: Yeah
S: You could get me onto the bed, into the bathtub
Things that a very short person probably couldn't do very easily
That's true, it does come in handy
And you being muscular and athletic, I thought that was attractive
Yeah, you were into that
Turns out I was into it, all of it, the whole package
Turns out it was all good to go
But yeah, I haven't though about that in so long
I was thinking about those days leading up to that first visit
Where I was like this might be the end
I think that it's super interesting cause I know from reading comments
That everyone thinks that Hannah kind of stoops to my level like attraction wise
H: Yeah
S: But the reality is that we both had the same kinds of fears
About whether the other one would find us attractive
H: Exactly S: So pretty interesting
H: Yeah
S: Well, that killed, I don't know, 15 minutes? H: 15 minutes?
S: Now what? H: I don't know
S: We won't make you sit with us, goodbye, have a nice day
H: (laughs) Bye S: Go enjoy your day
H: We'll just be here S: We'll be here
H: Bye S: Bye